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Jack R Fehlmann Nov 2013
Always is the problem word
too easily misinterpreted,
Right now that is the issue we're facing
Read the words once written
My words, yeah, honest, genuine
Sincere and borne from emotion
At that time, In those moments
Lessons, each day, every decision
choices, reactions, retrebutions
With out them, this, that moment
those emotions, that heartbreak
I'll always own them,
I am who you know today as result
they taught me about this world,
about love, how it feels to hurt
missing out, longing after, loneliness,
moving on, accepting my own thoughts
learning to live and love myself
You,.. Now,... Here,.. in the present
This lesson, what I know I want
I'll always love what I once loved,
but the decision to devote time, thought
myself over to?... That is mine to choose
I choose you...
Jack R Fehlmann Nov 2013
You spread yourself so very thin,
Leaving nothing for yourself, nothing for just you
Too busy pleasing, bringing others their smile
The open hands and needful faces, they multiply
Reaching, clawing, begging you,
Asking, calling, demanding, yelling
Taking, Always taking, Never helping
At the cost of who you are
This house of cards will fall
You, you will break into two parts
Then Two into Four
More, and more, smaller and smaller
And every little piece will shatter
Until they number in the millions
All that will be left, dust
Upon the dreams, covering the longing
the unanswered calling,
Dust and what if's...
No One around to care for you.
Jack R Fehlmann Nov 2013
All these words,
every one place with purpose,
patterned upon a need,
a want, some way in which to serve
to supplement or contain,
to hold, both within,
without.
owned by losing all that is,
will be, has come
or once was is gone
another demonstration of loss
like she is,..  gone...
I have not, still, not...
but breathing,
lost in thought.
Jack R Fehlmann Nov 2013
A well placed whisper,...
Almost like,..
As if never intended
Made lighter, thinner,
whispered...
will seem to shimmer,
much like heat at distance
Sunlight bends,
Glimpses of what lay beyond
dances out of reach,
enticing, inviting,
denying...
random and impossible,
thirsting for promised water
whispers can ruin you
leaving you lost,
walking in circles
Jack R Fehlmann Nov 2013
These are for You,
My works through it seems
framed,  on the wall, smiling
What to do about without me moments passed make up life
Deep, like the hours in a day
That we had, we did, before
As it has, it will cycling,
continuous, predictable as all but
our last breath,  to ashes then
if I cared, goodbyes
if I worried,  I'm sorry's
If given the chance,  i might linger
To catch final glimpses
Reflecting, on all the right things
To forgive myself,  my follies
Then let my shell feed the earth,
as life,  and love,  and time go on
So too will those that will without
If they feel lessened,  disheartened
Then talk so i may listen
What to do about without,  
Remember, talk,  go on living
They watch,  they listen.
Jack R Fehlmann Nov 2013
Little things can keep me
Eye to eye to
when I knew that silhouette
this time dispite my compromising
Goodbye's really go nowhere
When we do, You do
Goodbye's remain, vivid, real...
The rest of your life
So I don't meet most
I'm no observer, nor outgoing
Far too nervous, introverted
I just walk on alone,
In a world far too crowded
Jack R Fehlmann Nov 2013
So, where now?
Where do we go from here?
When so much mistrust you've earned.
I want to know, need to know you are sincere.
And I to feel your love is real after all.
Don't speak, cause it won't happen with your voice.
It will not be words, woven into fantastic stories.
Because those lies, I've already heard them.
You are going to have to show it,
I'll feel it in your actions.
I'll know when it happens.
I'll taste the honesty of your tears.
If it ever happens,... I will.
And you will be happy, and content again,
I'll fell it in your intentions.
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