amanda

amanda Dec 2020

delete contact

you know my face
my laugh
and my story
by heart

but not my number

so do me a favor
and delete it

amanda Dec 2020

adjust

you’ve left me
in the dark
long enough
for my eyes
to adjust

you’ve made me feel
so unimportant
recently

and i don’t much care for
this phase you’re in

amanda Dec 2020

time

i lay here beneath
the wall of clocks
you created for me

the sound
of their ticking in unison—

a deafening reminder
that you once
made time for me

but you don’t
anymore

amanda Dec 2020

constellation

i wonder how many
millions of years
it’ll take
for those stars to die

the ones that spell out
your name

amanda Dec 2020

reverse

what if we woke up to
find the sun rising in the west?

would i be your lover
and her your second best?

if the world started
spinning in reverse...
would you go back
and meet me first?

amanda Nov 2020

amanda

amanda
amand
aman
ama
am
i
allowed to admit
these letters
are losing meaning
everyday?

some days
i don't want to be me

some days i don't want
to be a person

amanda Nov 2020

permanence

there will be no
photos
labels
or diamond rings
to validate
the permanence
of the life we spent together

only the fact
that i never would have chosen
to do it without you