amanda

amanda Nov 2020

almost

i guess the thing
that hurt the most
wasn’t you choosing her

it was the way
you almost didn’t

i felt like you used me
as a distraction
when you two weren’t
doing well

amanda Nov 2020

you make forever
seem less like a concept,
and more like
all the tuesdays

amanda Nov 2020

the knife in my back was
yours

the fingerprints
hers

the blood
mine

amanda Nov 2020

we hit terminal velocity

where we couldn’t

physically fall

any faster

and then we hit

the ground

i guess that was to be
expected

amanda Nov 2020

i've gone from lovers
to strangers
and beginnings
to ends

but the most
painful change
is still best
to friends

we used to be best friends

but somewhere along
the way,
we lost our best

amanda Nov 2020

naked

i didn't feel naked
when you asked me
to undress

i felt naked
when i realized
you asked her to,
too

i dont trust you anymore

amanda Oct 2020

missionary

you once told me
she’s not that fun in bed...

i’m excited to see
what god you end up
believing in
after all that missionary work