amanda

amanda Nov 2020

i've gone from lovers
to strangers
and beginnings
to ends

but the most
painful change
is still best
to friends

we used to be best friends

but somewhere along
the way,
we lost our best

amanda Nov 2020

naked

i didn't feel naked
when you asked me
to undress

i felt naked
when i realized
you asked her to,
too

i dont trust you anymore

amanda Oct 2020

missionary

you once told me
she’s not that fun in bed...

i’m excited to see
what god you end up
believing in
after all that missionary work

amanda Oct 2020

you do not get to
call me

magical

brilliant

stunning

you do not get to
turn those beautiful words
into a consolation prize

you lost the right
to love me
the moment you chose her

amanda Oct 2020

you're afraid
of how far you'd fall
if you jumped

you're afraid
i wouldn’t catch you

you're more afraid
i would

everything about
a future with me
scares the **** out of you

because you're a smart man

amanda Oct 2020

dead end

so i just sit here
parked at this dead end
of a relationship

because it's still
the most beautiful road
i've ever taken

amanda Oct 2020

same state

at least now we both exist
in the same state

confusion
heartbreak
yearning
virginia

i love being
this close to you

even if we’re worlds apart