amanda

amanda Jul 2020

subtle

there’s a subtly
to your softness
the starkness of your beauty
almost hides

almost

it’s in her eyes
or is it her smile?

to lili

amanda Jul 2020

depression

there’s a select group of humans
who’ve learned
that it’s easier to bleed
than it is to feel

for the record—
i’m actually thriving
right now

but i remember how bad
it used to be

amanda Jul 2020

rocketman

my mind can turn so cruel
when all the lights go out

but you always seem to know
when i’m trapped in the dark

because you show up
with your smile and a rocket ship

and fly me to my heart

you make me spend
less time in my head
and more time
in my heart

because you’re easy to love

~to ryan~

amanda Jul 2020

daytime moon

i feel like the moon
trapped in a sky
not meant for her
every time your sun
comes back around

being your backup
makes me feel
out of place in my own sky

amanda Jul 2020

the world stopped turning

and i know the earth
had to be spinning
because the sun was setting
on you and me

but at the exact moment
your hand touched mine

i think even the world
stopped and stared

amanda Jul 2020

inhuman

if you can smile
as you pull the knife
out of your back
and choke down the blood
you coughed up,

does that mean you’ve grown
strong enough

or inhuman enough?

amanda Jul 2020

semantics

when i came out of her,
i was her daughter

when i came out to her,
i wasn’t

i won’t forgive you
for this one,
mom