amanda

amanda Jul 2020

family can feel like a prison

the trick is—
if you make your personality
so big

you can burst right through
the steel ******* bars

i’m disassociating myself
from my family

and i’m going to be
HAPPY

amanda Jul 2020

the sea

i’ve always been attracted
to men who admire the sea;
i’ve found that such a man
is more likely to admire me

i’m chaotic, deep, unpredictable,
and always under
the influence of the moon

amanda Jul 2020

muse

you may never have asked
to be my poem

but i never asked
to be a poet

there is a lot of guilt
associated with
writing love poems
for a man who
doesn't want your love...
but you don't know
how to stop...
because your heart beats
in iambic pentameter

amanda Jul 2020

ethereal

adj—extremely delicate and light
in a way that seems too perfect
for this world.

not a poem—
just the definition
of him

amanda Jul 2020

sun

i guess i could
stay at a safe distance
and watch you
brighten the world
from afar

but i would rather burn
trying to get close enough
to touch you

i don’t just want
your light—
i want your heat

i don’t know
what’s gotten into me, ry
...but ****, i want you tonight

amanda Jun 2020

stable

a rebellious soul like mine
never thought to romanticize stability
until the blue in your eyes
felt like my first cloudless sky

you’re the best thing
that has ever happened to me,
and that will never not be true

-jj

amanda Jun 2020

soft

you give life’s hardest moments
a softness
that i could live in forever

my best friend
is so f*cking dope

to you, ry