you lay upon me
our legs intertwined
as my hands slowly run down your spine
the sharp electric sting I lay deep within the mind
your hands holding mine with our tongues in a bind
neither will know rest but the pleasure of our eyes
an amorous affair to last
till daylight breaks the night

Time is a very peculiar thing
A concept whose very remembrance stings
It surrounds and envelops us
While it slowly suffocates us
Fight as we will we can never win
For time does not erase our sins
Fear it as it comes for you
Leading you to the inevitable end
Time is but a fleeting fancy whose kiss erases us

Wind picks up
The leaves begin to fall
Skies turn to grey
With the cold enveloping all
Autumn’s gentle embrace
Welcome the cold kiss of fall

All my life I’ve been compared to those I’ll never be
But when I need the most support they all abandoned me
Now I’m broken beyond repair
Sitting there with a blank icy stare
My family looking back not knowing, that they were the fall of me…

I yearn for the sea
Freedom so bold
Spray of the water yet so cold
I yearn for the sea
Where the sky seems so bold
The rush of the tides
The wind in my hair
Nothing but the strength of my back to keep me afloat
I yearn for the sea
Not for clipped wings
But where I can soar
No horizon in sight
No direction I know
The land I left behind me growing more distant
I yearn for the sea
The nights alone
Stars above me whose population is tenfold
I yearn for the sea
A beast to tame
Who no one has claimed mastery
Whose tides bring life with the potential to destroy
I yearn for the sea
Set me free

I try hard there is no doubt that I space over the work layed out
Although I can see with shinning clarity
That what I’ve been through was not in vanity
All you can say without refrain is that I’ll always be a failure again

Come, follow me
Let me spin you a tale
Based on reality and gritty detail
Daily breakdowns a normal thing
Just as much as constant mood swings
Work seems harder everyday you try
Refuse to realize why
Why I fail to understand
That this path is only quicksand
No light in sight as I sink ever deeper
Say bye bye to the dreams of being a healer
Come, follow me
Into the fray
Where even the sunshine looks grey
The land where humans are brought to be fixed
Broken by the laws that we helped to exist
Come, follow me
Let’s find our path
No longer give without getting back

There are times in which I wonder
If it was ever worth it to love
I forged a heart of stone only to have you melt it down
Now I sit there on the ledge once again let down
You opened me up and left a hole
From that hole I’ll smith again a heart so cold
I promise you I’ll never love again

Reaching into the abyss
Finding the hammer I forged
Smithed from the remnants of a broken soul
Now recommissioned to rebuild the remains
Forge again my broken heart
I wish to feel that love again
Hammer away to recreate that heart again

All the words in the dictionary wouldn’t be enough
To describe her work I’d be left stuck
Thinking back to all she has done
Loved me unconditionally when no one else would
Made me her world cause she knew no one else could
Stuck by me always even when I ignored her
I can’t thank her enough for all that she’s done
But I can love her forever before she’s gone

I hide behind a wall
A wall of masculinity
Taught to be a stone that never cries
I hide the pain
Chase it away
I let the thoughts roost inside my head
Tormenting me as I lay in bed
This stone wall a curse
I'll never forget
All the things I never said
The more I hide the worse it gets
But I'll never show them that side again

Sting me until you’re happy
Till the smile on your face forms
Rip out the heart you’ll burn
Just leave my mind alone

If I were to describe you I’d say you were an angel
You’re presence was a warm embrace
Showered me in light through the murky cave
Your hand extended to reach mine
To hold me tight and lift me out
You brought out what I had repressed and taught me to love again
But one day everything turned dark
The walls crumbled and I fell again
Back into the cavern of my despair
You left me like they all did
Outgrew me once you knew the true me
Tore my life asunder
Shattered my heart again
You left me for the fool you chose before me
Only to be letdown sorely as he threw you out again
Now I know what it means to choose poorly
Now I know I can never love again

The world keeps on spinning
Yet life doesn’t seem anymore fulfilling
Try as we do
Work and play
Keep the demons of our minds away
Try and make everyday full of joy
But every night before we rest
Employ the curse of fear and logic  
Can never escape the thought
In the deepest reaches of our minds
Our lives are all for naught

The journey is far from over
Its merely begun
Far in the horizon
Further than the rising sun
Happiness was temporary since the pain had only just begun
But I will keep walking
Until my job is done

I’ve been taught not to fight back
To sit and listen
Nod and concur
Even to the facts and rules with which I don’t agree
To throw away the dreams of what I wanted to be
I’ve suffered in silence
Constantly shamed
For going against their way
Their view is old
Older than me from a life in another place
I cry myself to sleep
Laying there for eternity
I want an escape  but know not how
For I’ve been taught helplessness
Shackled and unable to run

Once again the time flows by
Not a moment I can remember
Wasted and war torn
Another summer left scorned

its 2 am
far from high noon
unlit roads from which I see the full moon
time slows as the music plays
the inky darkness of night fades away
cracks of royal blue streak across the sky
from the cliffs I sit and say goodbye
welcome the new day with the dawns light in your eyes

Everyday remains the same
Endlessly crashing in a river of joy and pain
Like two sides of the same coin
The two faces we wear in our day to day
Keeping our schedules aligned
Never to veer off of the river of life and pain

I worked from sun up
Blew past midday
Day to day the routine stays the same
Nights spent alone
Wasting away
Working to a goal that seems far away
But I will not stop
Will not give way
Those sleepless nights
Make my dreams attainable
One day

This woman I love is as toxic as they come
But I spent too much time overdosing to see better
That in reality I deserved so much more than one letter
Showed her nothing but love
Yet she gives none back only takes my love for her own joy
Telling me she’s loves me when with another boy
When I show my true feelings for what she does
Says she wants me for herself and that no one should have me
Yet she gives her body to others fulfilling her desire
Returning to me only when she requires validity
All she does is blame me for something I can never become
I will never be her pride and joy
Because her love is so toxic that it throws me to the void

Your eyes,impish and mischievous
Your laughter's nonchalant insolence
Your hair unflured their waves undone
Never will I forget
Until I breathe this life

Your hand that abandoned mine
Your shadow that turned away it's gaze
Your look that never looked back

Never shall I forgive
Until I breathe this life

Your unabashed dancing in the rain
Your silly sulkings at all things small
Your innocent childlike mischief
Always shall I LOVE
Until I breathe this life

Your false vows and promises
Your burning scorching dreams

Your cruel ruthless prayers

Always I will hate
Until I breathe this life

Written by: Gulzar, Allahrakka Rahman, A R RAHMAN

What kind of fool falls in love with you
Knowing you don't love me as I love you
The type that lives in his dreams which surprisingly all about you

What kind of fool sees only you in his eyes
But once open all he can see is the goodbye
Its the fool who went into the fray loving you as you moved away

What kind of fool loved so hard that you now he sees you in the dark
Reaching his hand towards your face then the mist fades away
To this day still only loves you knowing you wont think of him anyway