Jan 2019
I’ve been taught not to fight back
To sit and listen
Nod and concur
Even to the facts and rules with which I don’t agree
To throw away the dreams of what I wanted to be
I’ve suffered in silence
Constantly shamed
For going against their way
Their view is old
Older than me from a life in another place
I cry myself to sleep
Laying there for eternity
I want an escape but know not how
For I’ve been taught helplessness
Shackled and unable to run
To sit and listen
Nod and concur
Even to the facts and rules with which I don’t agree
To throw away the dreams of what I wanted to be
I’ve suffered in silence
Constantly shamed
For going against their way
Their view is old
Older than me from a life in another place
I cry myself to sleep
Laying there for eternity
I want an escape but know not how
For I’ve been taught helplessness
Shackled and unable to run
For the past days I’ve felt like a complete failure, I can see it in their eyes the dissatisfaction. They compare me to those I do not know, those who have no bearing on my life and who they want me to become and blind themselves to my sadness.
