Amad Tariq

Amad Tariq Mar 2019

My world will never be the same
You left me just as quickly as you came
I thought you’d be the one to stay
The one to show me it was worth it to love again
But you showed me nothing but pain
Showered me in it again
Now I watch from afar as my heart is torn asunder
As you go back to him again
I regret ever letting myself love again

So far whenever I’ve loved I have never received it back. I’m just there for a laugh and nothing more.

Amad Tariq Mar 2019

Failure

I try hard there is no doubt that I space over the work layed out
Although I can see with shinning clarity
That what I’ve been through was not in vanity
All you can say without refrain is that I’ll always be a failure again

There is no doubt in my mind that I’m doing the best I can but when that’s not enough to satisfy am I really doing what I want ?

Amad Tariq Feb 2019

Tormented Love

I look at you and can't help but stare
Your presence as radiant as the sun
Your words as sweet as honey enveloping me like a rose
I buzz around you like a bee but you don't see as I
You believe me to be but a fleeting fancy as you return to him again
Played my heart like a toy and threw me away in the end
Why did my love mean so little?
Did my passion not burn?
I thought you had torn me apart once already
But in truth you had only begun...

She won't ever be mine, I know but I still try. Maybe I'm a fool but I don't what to see darkness again...

#love #heartbreak

Amad Tariq Feb 2019

As the seconds roll by

Time is a very peculiar thing
A concept whose very remembrance stings
It surrounds and envelops us
While it slowly suffocates us
Fight as we will we can never win
For time does not erase our sins
Fear it as it comes for you
Leading you to the inevitable end
Time is but a fleeting fancy whose kiss erases us

I feel like I’m running out of time every day, makes me work faster but doesn’t create quality work, rushed and exhausted it kills me slowly.

Amad Tariq Jan 2019

Letter to her

If I were to describe you I’d say you were an angel
You’re presence was a warm embrace
Showered me in light through the murky cave
Your hand extended to reach mine
To hold me tight and lift me out
You brought out what I had repressed and taught me to love again
But one day everything turned dark
The walls crumbled and I fell again
Back into the cavern of my despair
You left me like they all did
Outgrew me once you knew the true me
Tore my life asunder
Shattered my heart again
You left me for the fool you chose before me
Only to be letdown sorely as he threw you out again
Now I know what it means to choose poorly
Now I know I can never love again

I fooled myself into believeing she was the one for me, it took me a while to sort my feelings but you left me again. All you did was force me to change for nothing.

Amad Tariq Jan 2019

Old Views

I’ve been taught not to fight back
To sit and listen
Nod and concur
Even to the facts and rules with which I don’t agree
To throw away the dreams of what I wanted to be
I’ve suffered in silence
Constantly shamed
For going against their way
Their view is old
Older than me from a life in another place
I cry myself to sleep
Laying there for eternity
I want an escape but know not how
For I’ve been taught helplessness
Shackled and unable to run

For the past days I’ve felt like a complete failure, I can see it in their eyes the dissatisfaction. They compare me to those I do not know, those who have no bearing on my life and who they want me to become and blind themselves to my sadness.

Amad Tariq Jan 2019

My View

I once dreamed of being a healer
Now it's me who needs repair
My past haunts me daily
The cause of my despair
This life is not for me
Here I am lamenting sorely
For the war-torn world before me