but the worst feeling of all,
is going to bed at night
not proud of yourself*

why do you cast yourself as unworthy?
consciously denying yourself of your privileges-
that of love, of faith, of courage, of joy

sadness is my comfort zone
i dwell in the realm of hurt
i tried to escape
the light vaporized my eyes
it stunned my skin
i tasted my last breath

i exploit my freedom to feel
foolishly discarding the thread to peace
knotted in sunken ropes
falling deep in the sea

you don't tempt me
you entrance me
and I give in

the way you kiss
repells my tensions
it's the perfect combination
soft, wet, vicious, caring
i crave you more and more

the way your skin grazes me
igniting every nerve ending of mine
sends me to somewhere like heaven
where you are my celestial wonderland

the way your eyes lock with mine
gentle, unguarded gazes
veiled with stories of mysteries and untold futures
i will read them with you someday

the way i feel with you
wanted, desired, loved
helpless, foolish, lost
but always at peace

i want to be near you
even if I'm not beside you
i don't want to forget a thing about you

he had galaxies turning slowly within him
and she crawled inside and kissed every planet

The elision of logic
The entrance of crepuscular thought
Your ethereally ways- they enchant me
Every of my fibres and filaments;
They have became incandescent
To one visible ray of light

My speech, languid
My being, in lassitude
My mind, incorporeal

You lace your words with mellifluous embellishment
You shroud me with a luminescent mist
You touch me with your lithe fingers; igniting a scintilla of hope

Our compasses have been discarded
Our maps torn
Polaris is kept under the icy glaze of the winter skies
Aren't we lost now?

I can hear you
Your deep, mellow tone
But I'm not listening

I can feel you
Your smooth, soft skin
Gently grazing my perimeters
But I'm not responding

I can show you
A different side of me
Aggressive, sporadic, hysterical
But do you want to see?

Cause all I'm giving you
Is what you're asking of me
I'm pushing myself
To be close to you
But I'm not going to be your intimacy

I like the idea of us
Not us exactly
I like the idea of love
Not me being part of it
I like the concept of trust
Not with letting my guard down
But I'll do it all the same

I am not your final frontier
Trespass my being
Perforate all my dents
But will you?

So kiss me
Till my creases even out
Till my muscles defy numbness
Till my heart bleeds

Then hug me
Wait for my spine to crack
Wait for my knees to rise
Wait for my eyes to tear

And caress me
Show me you like me
Lie to me that you love me
Prove to me that you need me

But I won't be feeling