It's funny how
you thought
I was crazy
when the only one
who ever made me that way
was you

They say I'll find someone better
Someone made for me
But if you weren't made for me ...
why does my bones ache without you?

Why does the air taste recycled
if it hasn't touched your skin?

I am drowning in the absence of your breath

I keep trying to find someone to lend me oxygen
But the taste isn't the same

I have stopped hearing your voice in the words I say
soon I won't remember
what it sounds like
when you say my name

My words are poisonous
I can't say
I'm sorry
Without hurting you
But the poison
It is killing me too

I wrote to you again
I don't know if you wanted me to
You never replied
I hope you text me when you're drunk
That a part of you still wants me
That you haven't forgotten
Because you are woven into the fabric of my being
And I really can't stand being not even a memory to you

The water was so blue it hurt my eyes
but I
couldn't
stop staring

I fell for you
But you weren't there to catch me
So I scraped my knees
And I can't stop picking at the scabs