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Apr 2018 · 64
WRONG
aslan Apr 2018
WHY DON’T YOU LISTEN TO ME
I DID NOTHING WRONG
a ten-word story about ****** doctors
Apr 2018 · 71
LOOK AT ME
aslan Apr 2018
IT’S OKAY TO BE ANGRY
BUT IT’S NOT OKAY TO BE CRUEL
SO, TELL ME, WHY THE **** ARE YOU DOING THIS?
JUST LOOK AT ME
IN THE EYES
AND BREATHE
BECAUSE THAT ALWAYS SEEMS TO CALM YOU DOWN
I LOVE YOU
I
LOVE
YOU
JUST BREATHE
Apr 2018 · 130
ARE YOU?
aslan Apr 2018
THEY SAY THAT WHEN A PERSON IS ANGRY
IT’S BECAUSE THEY’RE IN LOVE
TELL ME,
ARE YOU IN LOVE?
ARE YOU IN LOVE WITH ME TOO?
Apr 2018 · 68
realise
aslan Apr 2018
i hope
you realise
that anger
might hide the pain
for a while
but it will catch up to you
in the end
it will eat you alive
it will bite you in the ***
i don’t think you really want that
do you?
it's eating you alive already
Apr 2018 · 119
bad
aslan Apr 2018
bad
it pains me
to see you like this
i asked you why
the other day
and you told me
that you were depressed
because i’m leaving
but i can’t control that
and neither can you
so why
are you making
my final days
so bad?
i'm sorry
Apr 2018 · 48
overthinking
aslan Apr 2018
I’m sitting here
hearing all you’re saying
with tears in my eyes
wondering why
why is it
that you keep doing this
staring at this screen
into the vast emptiness
overthinking,
as usual
i've been thinking too much
Apr 2018 · 60
please stop
aslan Apr 2018
why
are
you
doing
this
to
me
i care too much
Apr 2018 · 109
hurts so bad
aslan Apr 2018
this
it hurts
so bad
i have no choice
but to leave
and i don’t want to
trust me
but I have to
please
promise me one thing
that you’ll do better
that in my honor,
in memory of me,
you will do better
because we both know
you are so much better
than this
i t h u r t s
Apr 2018 · 65
of course
aslan Apr 2018
i was having such a good day
but then it started again
i finally got something
that i wanted
but now
please
please
please
stop
pleasestoppleasestoppleasestop
Apr 2018 · 73
hurts
aslan Apr 2018
I know you’re stressed
because I’m leaving so soon
but please
act better than this
because I love you
and this hurts too bad
i t h u r t s
Apr 2018 · 161
better
aslan Apr 2018
I don’t know why
It’s so hard
For you to act right
It makes me sad
And depresses me
Because you’re better than this.
p l e a s e
Apr 2018 · 538
addicted
aslan Apr 2018
I’m addicted to the way poetry feels
The way it writes
I’m addicted to the way music feels
The way it flows
I’m addicted to the blade
The way it cuts
I’m addicted to the thought of you
The way it hurts
I’m an addict with all the weapons of need:
A pen, a song, a blade, and you.
And I don’t want to stop.
i need you
Apr 2018 · 75
maybe
aslan Apr 2018
I’ll hide here,
In this lush forest
This wooded area
The trees
They hide me
Much easier than a smile does
I can scream
And not be heard
But I don’t want to be heard
I just want someone to understand me
I want someone to listen to me
I’m screaming out in agony
I hope nobody can hear me
Because they would be scared
The words in my mind
Are different from my words heard
Or my words written
I’m surrendering
Hiding behind the word *****
My mind throws at all of you
I’m not sure I want to die, exactly,
I just want to be reminded that I’m alive
To know that I can feel something other than the constant pain inside
I’m burning all of my bridges
No, I don’t want to
I didn’t plan this
And now you’re hearing my voice
Singing songs
That nobody knows
Because nobody ever wrote them
Maybe
Just maybe
If I hold my hands up high enough
I’ll become a tree, too.
Inspired by trees//twenty one pilots
Apr 2018 · 117
mess
aslan Apr 2018
Yeah,
I’m a little ******* up
But I’m not sure you’ll ever understand
Just how much
I’m dealing with my own demons—
They’re mine, not yours—
And you should just leave me alone
Leave me be
Go away
I want to be alone right now
I hide behind my poetry, divided
I hide behind my music, my raps
Empathy is just a joke these days
You don’t really know what I’m going through
So please,
GO AWAY
LEAVE ME ALONE…
D O N T
L E A V E
M E
alone.
inspired by Kitchen Sink//Twenty One Pilots
Apr 2018 · 162
please
aslan Apr 2018
Tell me your late night plans
Because regardless of what you think
You’ve never been alone
There is still light inside of you
You should not be ashamed of who you are
Please
Don’t hide from me
You don’t deserve to die
You don’t need to die
Look at me
And tell me
Why
Why is it you feel this is your only option
I know you don’t want to be alive
But please,
Live for me
I love you too much to let you go quietly
You are not a ghost
Look at us
Because you are still glowing
Friend, please
You deserve better than this
Even if you don’t feel like it
You do
You mean so much more than you think
You are worth more than you think
Please,
Tell me your plans for tonight
I want to show you the light
And I won’t let you go until we both do
I know my words might not help,
But I will listen to every last thing you have to say
Scream, yell, cry
Get it all out
Because I don’t want you to be the next obituary
The next vigil
The next news story
Please,
Don’t take your life away from me…
inspired by Friend, Please by Twenty One Pilots
Apr 2018 · 82
mine
aslan Apr 2018
and then I realized
he was no longer in my world
he was my world
if only
i could honestly
call him
m         n
        i           e
i wish i could call you mine
Apr 2018 · 102
flowers
aslan Apr 2018
just being near you
planted those tiny seeds of love
in my heart,
filling the cracks with dirt.
but the flowers,
when they bloomed,
they reached through my lungs
and suffocated me
making me choke on the words
that you deserve to hear.
you are a beautiful garden
Apr 2018 · 87
IT'S ALWAYS BEEN YOU
aslan Apr 2018
IT’S BEEN YOU ALL ALONG
IT’S ALWAYS BEEN YOU
I WAS WONDERING
I WAS CONFUSED
WHY AM I FEELING THIS WAY?
WHY AM I HAPPY FOR THE FIRST TIME IN FOREVER?
THEN I THOUGHT
IT WAS BROUGHT TO MY ATTENTION
THAT IT’S YOU,
NOT ME.
IT’S ALWAYS BEEN YOU.
ITSALWAYSBEENYOU
Apr 2018 · 99
I LO--
aslan Apr 2018
WHY CAN’T YOU LOVE ME AS MUCH AS I LOVE YOU
YOU SAY YOU DO BUT IT SURE DOESN’T FEEL LIKE IT
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LO—
iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyou--
Apr 2018 · 154
I am human
aslan Apr 2018
No, I don’t have a ****.
Yes, I have ***** and a ******.
No, I am not a girl. Or a woman,
Especially not a lady.
I am a ******* human.
I am a boy—
No—
A man.
I am that guy you talk to
When you don’t want to talk to anyone
I’m that guy
You ask for advice
I’m that guy
Who tries to help everyone else
That guy
Who needs someone to catch him
To keep him from falling
Because when he gets misgendered
Or deadnamed
It ******* hurts
You feel like a liar
You are a liar
Because clearly,
You’re trying to be someone nobody recognizes
Nobody knows
Because they all assume who you are
And they get it wrong
But how do you know
That you’re not the one
Who’s wrong?
I don’t have a binder
Most of my clothes are feminine
And I like pastel colours and deep blacks.
I am a human, just like you.
Its not my fault I was born like this.
I’m sorry that you think I can help it.
But I can’t.
"my thoughts are not straight lines but knotted loops curling in on themselves."
John Green
Apr 2018 · 163
11:11 pm
aslan Apr 2018
The clock reads 11:11
And I am wishing for you
The clock reads 11:15
I’m still wishing for you
It’s 3 am
And I still wish for you.
I wish for your touch
Your arms
Wrapped around me
Your hand, folded into mine
Your lips, gently brushing my skin
I wish for you
And all that you are
And all that you bring.
y o u a r e m y w i s h
Apr 2018 · 105
stars
aslan Apr 2018
You think the stars are beautiful
But I say
They can never compare
To you
you are the sky
Apr 2018 · 93
brokenness
aslan Apr 2018
If brokenness is art
Then I really am the masterpiece
You claim that I am
I must actually be beautiful
That must be why you
Can never stop staring at me
you are the true art
Apr 2018 · 85
you are the sun
aslan Apr 2018
THEY TELL ME YOU LOVE ME
I TELL THEM I LOVE YOU
AND HERE WE SIT
THINKING THE OTHER COULDN’T POSSIBLY LOVE US
WHEN REALLY
WE THINK EACH OF US
IS THE SUN, MOON AND STARS
WE THINK
THE OTHER
IS LOOKING
AT THE
ground.
please tell me they're not lying
Apr 2018 · 72
you are lovely
aslan Apr 2018
you are so lovely
and I hope
that you realise
you are worth so much more
than you think you are.
when I told you I was leaving
you did it again
I hope you realise
that it makes me feel like it’s all my fault
and I can’t bear that weight
on these shoulders
because you mean so much to me
I care so much about you—
perhaps too much, if I’m being honest—
and I can’t bear to lose you forever.
please stay alive for me
Apr 2018 · 90
please tell me why
aslan Apr 2018
you told me last night
you hurt yourself
i feel like ****
because i never noticed
i was too busy
staring at your smile
and your eyes
to notice
the faint red lines on your wrist.
you are much too beautiful for that
and i hope you never do that again.
please
just talk to me
when you feel the burn
the itch for that stupid blade
because i love you way too much
for you to need that
one person
should be
E
N
O
U
G
H
you are so lovely
Apr 2018 · 71
it's getting closer
aslan Apr 2018
i can feel my death
creeping ever closer
tapping on the window to my soul
but i think of you
and i want nothing more
than to whisk it away
and run into your arms
hold me endlessly
Apr 2018 · 56
vibrant
aslan Apr 2018
I want almost nothing more
Than to die
But when I’m near you
All I want to do
Is live life
You are vibrant
You are bright
You are life.
you are the sun.
aslan Apr 2018
I love you
In a way
Even poetry can’t express
Because it has never
Known something as beautiful
As you.
you are my everything.
Apr 2018 · 67
masterpiece
aslan Apr 2018
You are poetry
You are love songs
You are art
And I’m sorry that
People can’t see that
And tear you apart
Instead of just singing your name
Realizing your beauty
And admiring your presence
But I guess
Everyone’s a critic, huh?
Except me.
I just love you
And everything that you are.
you are beauty
Apr 2018 · 91
words vs hands
aslan Apr 2018
My words
They rip everything apart
They are merciless
But my hands
Are soft
And they love to hold on to yours
Never letting go
Like my words
Our hands
Belong together
My words
Don’t really belong to you
They aren’t fair to you
Because you
You are sweet
You are kind
You are strong
You are you
And I can never put that into words
No matter how hard I try.
forgive me
Apr 2018 · 98
Carpe Diem.
aslan Apr 2018
The world ends
Every night
Because is it real
If we can’t see it?
But we wake up
We begin again
The world is born anew
And we get another chance
We get a fresh start
A new day
And we need to seize it
Take the opportunity
And make life ours
Carpe diem, *******.
Carpe
Diem.
seize the day and seize my heart
Apr 2018 · 89
WHY DID I
aslan Apr 2018
WHY DID I LET YOU IN
WHY DID I LET YOU AFFECT ME IN THIS WAY
WHY DID I LET YOU NEAR MY FRAGILE HEART
WHY DID I LET YOU LOVE ME
BECAUSE NOW I’M LOSING IT ALL
I’M LOSING YOU
******* I CAN'T HANDLE THIS
Apr 2018 · 83
whose fault
aslan Apr 2018
i don’t deserve you
you’re much too good
for me
i’m sorry
for killing your
reputation
your good name
but then again
you willingly invited me in
so whose fault is it,
really?
y o u l e t m e i n
Apr 2018 · 60
karma
aslan Apr 2018
maybe karma
doesn’t think
i’ve been very good
because i’m sitting here
wondering
what did i do wrong?
why me?
w h y m e
Apr 2018 · 85
empty
aslan Apr 2018
i couldn’t think
of what to write
so i stared at the
blinking cursor
and realized
i couldn’t have said it
any better
my mind is blank
my heart is numb
my eyes are dry
c o m f o r t a b l y n u m b
Apr 2018 · 167
air
aslan Apr 2018
air
the silence
is suffocating me
depression
is choking me
anxiety
is gagging me
unrequited love
is killing me
h e l p m e b r e a t h e
Apr 2018 · 104
forget me
aslan Apr 2018
I’m easy to forget
So I don’t blame you
If you never think of me again
Just know
As I leave
That I really do
Love
you
p l e a s e d o n t f o r g e t m e
Apr 2018 · 143
i l o v e y o u
aslan Apr 2018
twenty-six letters
are not near enough
to tell you my pain
rescue me
from myself
please
I only want you to
I l o v e y o u
p l e a s e u n d e r s t a n d
Apr 2018 · 137
I THOUGHT
aslan Apr 2018
I SAVED YOU
YOU BROKE ME
AND I LET IT HAPPEN
BECAUSE I THOUGHT
YOU LOVED ME TOO
YOU ARE EVERYTHING
TO ME
DO YOU LOVE ME?
Apr 2018 · 226
ALONE
aslan Apr 2018
THESE BLEEDING LINES
ON MY WRISTS AND LEGS AND EVERYWHERE
ARE THE PERSONIFICATION
OF MY THOUGHTS
THE THOUGHTS
THAT SUFFOCATE ME
AND WON’T LEAVE ME ALONE
WHY WON’T THEY
JUST
GO
AWAY
LEAVE ME
ALONE
ALONE
ALONE
GO AWAY
Apr 2018 · 100
YOU ARE
aslan Apr 2018
YOU ARE MY SMILES
YOU ARE MY LAUGH
YOU ARE THE TWINKLE IN MY EYES WHEN I’M NEAR YOU
YOU ARE THE BLUSH ON MY CHEEKS
YOU ARE
YOU ARE
YOU ARE
YOU
I CAN'T HELP BUT LOVE YOU
Apr 2018 · 141
DON'T LET ME GO
aslan Apr 2018
YOU GIVE ME ANXIETY
BUT I CALL IT LOVE
BECAUSE YOU MATTER
YOU MATTER
SO ******* MUCH TO ME
PLEASE DON’T LET ME GO
HOLD ON TO ME
Apr 2018 · 107
LET ME BE
aslan Apr 2018
LET ME BE THE ANTIDEPRESSANTS YOU NEED EVERYDAY
LET ME BE THE REASON BEHIND YOUR SMILE
LET ME BE THE BANDAID YOU PUT ON YOUR THOUGHTS
LET ME BE THE ONE TO STOP YOUR ANXIETY
LET ME BE THE ONE TO MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER
LET ME BE YOURS
LET ME LOVE YOU
Apr 2018 · 55
unravel
aslan Apr 2018
why did i unravel myself
for you
if you refuse
to help me
pick up the pieces
you so desperately
want to see?
i d o n t k n o w
Apr 2018 · 142
irreparably broken
aslan Apr 2018
you try to hide
behind your smiles
and your music
and your jokes
but i know better
we all do
you’re irreparably broken
but i’ll try to mend you
if you’d only let me
l e t m e s a v e y o u
Apr 2018 · 62
in my mind
aslan Apr 2018
i have
so many words
trapped inside my head
my thoughts
are knots
trying to unravel
but just tightening
even more
r e s c u e m e f r o m m y s e l f
Apr 2018 · 73
whisper
aslan Apr 2018
can we speak
in soft,
whispered poetry?
it would be
much easier
for me to understand
because in runs in my veins
and controls my heart
takes over my life
like my love
for you
y o u a r e p o e t r y
Apr 2018 · 66
king
aslan Apr 2018
they told me
that you would hurt me
but I don’t care
you’re worth it
that doesn’t stop me
from hoping though
please
treat me like the king I
treat you as
y o u a r e r o y a l t y
Apr 2018 · 113
angel
aslan Apr 2018
my poetry makes you
sound like you’re a terrible
person, but really,
you’re just a fallen angel
trying to find your way back
home.
i m y o u r r o a d b l o c k
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