THEY SAY THAT WHEN A PERSON IS ANGRY
IT’S BECAUSE THEY’RE IN LOVE
TELL ME,
ARE YOU IN LOVE?

I’m sitting here
hearing all you’re saying
with tears in my eyes
wondering why
why is it
that you keep doing this
staring at this screen
into the vast emptiness
overthinking,
as usual

i was having such a good day
but then it started again
i finally got something
that i wanted
but now
please
please
please
stop

I’m addicted to the way poetry feels
The way it writes
I’m addicted to the way music feels
The way it flows
I’m addicted to the blade
The way it cuts
I’m addicted to the thought of you
The way it hurts
I’m an addict with all the weapons of need:
A pen, a song, a blade, and you.
And I don’t want to stop.

Tell me your late night plans
Because regardless of what you think
You’ve never been alone
There is still light inside of you
You should not be ashamed of who you are
Please
Don’t hide from me
You don’t deserve to die
You don’t need to die
Look at me
And tell me
Why
Why is it you feel this is your only option
I know you don’t want to be alive
But please,
Live for me
I love you too much to let you go quietly
You are not a ghost
Look at us
Because you are still glowing
Friend, please
You deserve better than this
Even if you don’t feel like it
You do
You mean so much more than you think
You are worth more than you think
Please,
Tell me your plans for tonight
I want to show you the light
And I won’t let you go until we both do
I know my words might not help,
But I will listen to every last thing you have to say
Scream, yell, cry
Get it all out
Because I don’t want you to be the next obituary
The next vigil
The next news story
Please,
Don’t take your life away from me…

IT’S BEEN YOU ALL ALONG
IT’S ALWAYS BEEN YOU
I WAS WONDERING
I WAS CONFUSED
WHY AM I FEELING THIS WAY?
WHY AM I HAPPY FOR THE FIRST TIME IN FOREVER?
THEN I THOUGHT
IT WAS BROUGHT TO MY ATTENTION
THAT IT’S YOU,
NOT ME.
IT’S ALWAYS BEEN YOU.

The clock reads 11:11
And I am wishing for you
The clock reads 11:15
I’m still wishing for you
It’s 3 am
And I still wish for you.
I wish for your touch
Your arms
Wrapped around me
Your hand, folded into mine
Your lips, gently brushing my skin
I wish for you
And all that you are
And all that you bring.

THEY TELL ME YOU LOVE ME
I TELL THEM I LOVE YOU
AND HERE WE SIT
THINKING THE OTHER COULDN’T POSSIBLY LOVE US
WHEN REALLY
WE THINK EACH OF US
IS THE SUN, MOON AND STARS
WE THINK
THE OTHER
IS LOOKING
AT THE
ground.

i can feel my death
creeping ever closer
tapping on the window to my soul
but i think of you
and i want nothing more
than to whisk it away
and run into your arms

You are poetry
You are love songs
You are art
And I’m sorry that
People can’t see that
And tear you apart
Instead of just singing your name
Realizing your beauty
And admiring your presence
But I guess
Everyone’s a critic, huh?
Except me.
I just love you
And everything that you are.

WHY DID I LET YOU IN
WHY DID I LET YOU AFFECT ME IN THIS WAY
WHY DID I LET YOU NEAR MY FRAGILE HEART
WHY DID I LET YOU LOVE ME
BECAUSE NOW I’M LOSING IT ALL
I’M LOSING YOU

i couldn’t think
of what to write
so i stared at the
blinking cursor
and realized
i couldn’t have said it
any better
my mind is blank
my heart is numb
my eyes are dry

twenty-six letters
are not near enough
to tell you my pain
rescue me
from myself
please
I only want you to
I l o v e y o u

YOU ARE MY SMILES
YOU ARE MY LAUGH
YOU ARE THE TWINKLE IN MY EYES WHEN I’M NEAR YOU
YOU ARE THE BLUSH ON MY CHEEKS
YOU ARE
YOU ARE
YOU ARE
YOU

why did i unravel myself
for you
if you refuse
to help me
pick up the pieces
you so desperately
want to see?

can we speak
in soft,
whispered poetry?
it would be
much easier
for me to understand
because in runs in my veins
and controls my heart
takes over my life
like my love
for you