i'm on my knees now,
please stop existing
some way, somehow,
stop existing to me

I ******* miss you
I just wanna kiss you
But you're not around
Haunting like a ghost upon the grounds
Of my mind
And I can't find you
To remind you
What it was like to love me
What it was like to be happy
And I hope you know
That I know
We can never be what we were
And that's okay

We weren't meant to be anyway

please go away
leave me alone
thoughts in my brain say
'they'll find you when they get home'

what do i do?
i cannot hide
the searing pain in my chest
ceases to subside

so there i am sitting,
debating where to go
stay for another scene
or join the cast below?

far beneath the waves,
into the deep black
if i should choose to go,
i wont be coming back

anxiety floods me
saturating my mind
never letting me be
is this goodbye?