The Monster Within

The beast lurks within my chest ******* out the rest

The remaining parts that makes me, me

The teeth of the beast, pierces my heart

I try to heal as the pain pours out

I hold my screams, fearing redemption from the beast

Been with me for so long it feels right....
This pain, is all I feel, sometimes all I need, sometimes this pain makes me feel like me again, because I can feel again

Instead of being an empty shell

my only plan was to please you, love you
but in the end I said *******
a fool who came from above with a fat heart full of love
only to land in his own blood,
with a black hole where the soul use to lie
a heart that died
a ****** up mind
what is a fool to do
when he can't deal with whats ahead
should he take a bullet to the head.......No, he's not a weakling, he doesn't give up
he shoves those thoughts in the very black hole that eats him alive.........and strives......
he says ***** the *******
stands up flicks the world off
and says I'll rise to top, stand up tall, and they'll watch me
standing oh so gall

the smile that forms on my face
So generous, so real........so fake
But you see I'm a being, who's dead inside
But yet how, Can I smile and say hi
all I feel is the  pain
Felt it so long I guess it just got plain
Emotionally distraught
I fight the world everyday, I mean fought
I'll take this smile to the grave, even though it hurts to fake, but it's the only thing I have
The only link to being........ Normal, but fck being a normie I say, they're all the same, it's just so gay