disrespectful
no regret no remorse no budging

yet you feel like you have the right
to sit here judging

as if your constant nudging
will change my mind

you disgust me
so i refuse to try

to bridge a gap
you don't wanna close

or fight back
and make children of us both

just leave me alone
there's nothing to gain

don't follow where i go
process your own pain

don't look at me
don't offer me a tissue
don't offer to sit down
and talk with me about my issues
you are not a therapist
or a licensed professional
you are not my priest
this is not a confessional
stop psychoanalyzing me
it doesn't take a genius
to understand i'm not okay
it's not your problem so just leave it
be because i don't have the energy
to make you feel like a hero
you won't really care
you'll just act like it would appear so
because somehow fixing me will put you together
in a twisted way i'll never understand
don't wanna be your next project
i don't need your helping hand
because if i tell you all my secrets
that'd be giving you exactly what you've wanted
and the next thing i know
it will be your fist to my stomach
and a knife in back
with my story public domain
don't need your rehabilitation
i can deal with my own pain
or maybe i can't  
i really don't care
my life will be better off without you
get out of my hair
i can't afford to tend to you
and satisfy my own needs
not to be rude but i'll have to pass
i don't need your charity

i cant remember exactly what he did
but that does not make me a liar

i cant explain why i hurt myself
but that doesn't mean i like it

i'm so broken and hurt
and lost and tired

and for some reason that makes you
excited

ah that was funny
so funny so funny so funny funny funny
i'm okay
don't mind me honey honey honey
imma go
jus lemme be
i'll be fine oh yes yes yes i will
relax my darling
i'm a-okay okay okay
i'll be fine
tell me i'll be fine
i need to be fine today today today
i'm okay okay okay
okay okay okay
oh god
oh
godgodgodgodgodgodgod
i'm
slipp pp pp ppp p p p pping
i'll b be okayayay okay okayy
I'M OKAY
OKAY
i just can't calm down
LET ME BE
i'll be fine
IF YOU LET ME BE
please please please please
stop
i n nn need you to tt o stop
please
dd dd ddd ddd ddd dd dear god
let me be fine
today today today

what a busy bee
buzzing and wuzzing about
leave me honey kissed
queen of soothing my doubt

'          ';''   '  ' '  '.;;' ''   '  ;   ' ;  ' ; '' '   .  '   ; '   ' '          ';''   '  ' '  '.;;' ''   '  ;   ' ;  ' ; '' '   .  '   ; '   ' '          ';''   '  ' '  '.;;' ''   '  ;   ' ;  ' ; '' '   .  '   ; '   ' '          ';''   '  ' '  '.;;' ''   '  ;   ' ;  ' ; '' '   .  '   ; '   ' '          ';''   '  ' '  '.;;' ''   '  ;   ' ;  ' ; '' '   .  '   ; '   ' '          ';'''  '
''   '  ' '  '.;;' ''   '  ;   ' ;  ' ; ' ' dreaming of a different time '   '  ' '  '.;;' ''   '  ;   ' ;  ' ; '
;  ;'.  ;'    ..  ; '  ; ;  ,; '   ';  living without you in my life '; ; ' ' ; .  .    '' '' ; ; ',,   ';;
; ; ' ' ;   '' '' ; ; ',,   ';. ' ; ; moving on like rain on the streets '  ..,.,' '  '.;;' ''   '  ;   ' ;.
;'    ..  ; '  ; ;  ,; '   ';     down the drain where no one can see '          ';''   '  ' '  '.;;'
';''   '  ' '  '.;;' ''   '  ; '; how much it hurts that you've gone away ''   ;; ' ,    '  ;   '  
';''   '  ' '  '.;;'   '  ;  without you here there's nothing left but pain';''   '  ' '  '.;;' ''  
';'';'  ' '  ; .   ; ' ; . .'                                     i                                    ';'';'  ' '  ; .   ;  
;'';'  ' ' ' '  '.;;'';; '  ;                                                             ­               ';'';'  ' '  ; .   ;'';'  ' '  ; . ; ..   . .'                                        m                                      ;   ' '';'  
;'';'  ' '   ; ' . . .; . .'                                      i                        ­              ' ' .    ' '  ; .   ;
;''  ' '    ; .   ; ' ; . .'                                      s                        ­              ' , ,   ' '  ; .   ;
;'';'  ' '  ; .   ; ' ; ;' .;                                     s                                      ';'';'  ' '  ; .   ;
;'';'  ' '  ; .   ; ' ; .' ;                                        you                     ­          ;'  ' ' ';'  ' '  ; .';.' ;    .  ; '     '                                                                ­            ; ' .  ;; , .' ; .' ;
.;. '  ' '  '.;' ''   '  ;  ' ;          a  little more hour after hour             ;;' ''   '  ;   '  ;  ' ; ''
''   '  ' '  '.;;' ''   '  ;   ' ;  '       the pitter patter pitter patter         ' '  '.;;' ''   '  ;   ' ;  ' ;
''   '  ' '  '.;;' ''   '  ;   ' ;  '      just keep getting louder          '.;;' ''   '  ;   ' ;  ' ; '' '
'          ';''   '  ' '  '.;;' ''   '  ;   ' ''   '  ;   ' ;  ' ; '' '   ';''   '  ' '  '.;;' ''   '  ;   ' ;  ' ; '' '   .  '   ; '   ' '          ';''   '  ' '  '.;;' ''   '  ;   ' ;  ' ; '' '   .  '   ; '   ' '          ';''   '  ' '  '.;;' ''   '  ;   ' ;  ' ; '' '   .  '   ; '   ' '          ';''   '  ' '  '.;;' ''   '  ;   ' ;  ' ; '' '   .  '   ; '   ' '          ';''   '  ' '  '.;;' ''   '  ;   ' ;  ' ; '' '   .  '   ; '   ' '          ';''   '  ' '  '.;;' ''   '  ;   ' ;  ' ; '' '   .  '   ; '   ' '          ';''   '  ' '  '.;;' ''   '  ;   ' ;  ' ; '' '   .  '   ; '   ' '          ';''   '  ' '  '.;;' ''   '  ;   ' ;  ' ; '' '   .  '   ; '   ' '          ';''   '  ' '  '.;;' ''   '  ;   ' ;  ' ; '' '   .  '   ; '   ' '          ';''   '  ' '  '.;;' ''   '  ;   ' ;  ' ; '' '   .  '   ; '   ' '          ';''   '  ' '  '.;;' ''   '  ;   ' ;  ' ; '' '   .  '   ; '   ' '          ';''   '  ' '  '.;;' ''   '  ;   ' ;  ' ; '' '   .  '   ; '   ' '          ';''   '  ' '  '.;;' ''   '  ;   ' ;  ' ; '' '   .  '   ; '   ' '          ';''   '  ' '  '.;;' ''   '  ;   ' ;  ' ; '' '   .  '   ; '   ' '          ';''   '  ' '  '.;;' ''   '  ;   ' ;  ' ; '' '   .  '   ; '   ' '          ';''   '  ' '  '.;;' ''   '  ;   ' ;  ' ; '' '   .  '   ; '   ' '          ';''   '  ' '  '.;;' ''   '  ;   ' ;  ' ; '' '   .  '   ;
''   '  ' '  '.;;' ''   '  ;   '  it won't stop raining when you're gone ''   '  ' '  '.;;' ''   '  ;
''   '  ' '  '.;;' ''   '  leave the umbrella if you won't be staying long''   '  ' '  '.;;' ''

the exhaustion finally hitting
hear it in your voice
sleep if you're tired
it's okay

know you're worried for me
but you shouldn't drain yourself
to make me
feel safe

just the way i said
down to the self deletion
you lost yourself
trying to please them
stuck in limbo
trying to decide
if being liked
is worth dying inside
do what you do
you'll have to live
with the decisions
can't resist the compulsions

restless
no sleep for the torn
keep the fire burning
by tearing up the floorboards
effectively destroying the house
the temple you've learned to hate
is it too late to love myself
or could i get another take
a second chance to be grateful for
what hasn't happened
or am i the type of broken that can't be fixed
defined by somebody else's actions

dear god
i hope the **** not

blistering miami heat
tracing vermillion with keys
you don't know what you do to me
you have nothing to do with me
drowsy eyes fade off to sleep
eyelashes twitching with dreams
i am nowhere to be seen
but you are the center of my fantasies
as you sink into the leather seat
unaware of my misery
and the increasing speed
fast asleep

sometimes times things just happen like that
and there's nothing you can do
sitting back while watching the storm pass
but it still destroys you
the only way to save yourself
is to let the poison go
but even then someone else
could deal you a lethal dose

by the time
you realize
by the time
you care
by the time
it all clicks
and you want
me there
i'll be
very far
i didn't
wanna wait
by the time
you want me
it'll be
too late

but a thread in the rope
yet you still choke
it's not on me though
everyone gloats
if thats what you have to say
to feel okay
to deal with the shame
be that way
having an empty heart
and covering scars
won't get you far
but thats the game sweetheart

already had this conversation
took advantage of my intentions and patience
effort utterly wasted
on someone who's beyond complacent
with being unhappy for the rest of their life
just as long as i'm just as miserable by your side
you make no sense so go ahead and lie
haven't been listening since i realized i was right

pretty girl
pretty ugly
compliments
because you love me
give me kisses
where i'm falling apart
tender touch
for a broken heart
whispered names
and secret keeping
tissue to ouch
to stop the bleeding
did not mean
to cause me harm
i swear i know
who you are
so tell me i'm pretty
like you believe it
you tell me that i'll work
take it or leave it
wanted a fantasy
but you need a body
so i leave half satisfied
knowing you already forgot me

everything has changed
everyone took their chance to leave
but momma i'm scared
cause bad things always come in threes