if it hurts so much
just let it go
untie the weights
and up up you'll float
release the death grip
on the pain that you know
it's scary to be unsure
but it's not right to die alone
drowning is not the only option
air bubbles escaping your throat
last words being i wanted to live
but i was too afraid of the unknown

following suit
predictable you
i knew i knew
but simply refused
to see the crime
to start the fight
crossing lines
five point lies
it was easier to forgive
than accept what you did
you never asked me to
but i still did
always seeing the best
knew what to expect
you have no regrets
that much you've said
and i have no words
won't let myself be hurt
it's nothing i rehearse
knowing it still hurts
because it took all i had
to get this far
stained glass art
of a shattered heart
you'd do it again
you'll do it again
first you were my friend
and i just can't let that end

****'ll even out eventually
at least it oughta
doing what i'm supposed to
even though there's a lot of
reasons to just throw my hands up
and walk away
and tell everyone to *******
some new ******* everyday
how many times do i need to get chewed up
to just be left alone
would figure they couldn't take anymore
at this point they're just playing with bones
like what else could there be
that i can offer
i sacrifice often and enough
to not be bothered
but even then i'm still harassed
because i won't give them my will
bowing my head and ******* my teeth
and ignoring the ways that i feel
isn't as gratifying as
forcing me to agree with all of the mutiny
until i can be happy with them all of the time
there's nothing they wouldn't be willing to do to me