stuck on my mind
opening the box for the hundredth time
touching all the pretty
things
you left to me

when i told you you were perfect i meant it
even now i can't say
that you're not
do you believe in soul mates
cause that night when we were talking
bout the places we wanted to go
describing beautiful places
none as beautiful as you though
you were but a silhouette in the dark
and i knew i didn't need a place
just take me like a souvenir
tucked away in your suitcase

took off without warning
but i knew you were for me
if you could be anywhere right now
would you be with me
if money weren't an issue
what would stop you then
see the northern lights like you've wanted
or somewhere we've already been
anywhere with you
is the destination
i wish that we could love
somewhere other than my imagination
because even if you came back now
there still some healing needed
hate to lean on wishful thinking
but it's an easy way to not feel so ceded

closing the distance
i purposely made
i gave you my reasons
i made myself space
even though i didn't
have anything to explain
allowed to move how i want to
to keep myself safe
lucky i'm so nice
to even entertain
such a cowardly
and immature display
i'm done with cradling your feelings
to avoid your rage
i'm not required to be your friend
or tolerate
the ******* you do
on the day to day
it's frankly quite annoying
how you won't let me go away
this is what i wanted
just can't respect the choice i've made

it's just like me
to lose touch
forget where i am
and say too much
reality so jarring
but i fail to hide
a mixture of insecurity
and fragile pride
i want to be happy
but i want to be right
i mean i don't want to
say it's all been a lie
just so damaged
that i can't tell between
my intuition
and the intrusive thoughts always plaguing me
and i'm sorry if it feels
like i'm closing in
i know that i
can get too intense
i'll just stop explaining
making no sense
like i said before
we're better off as friends :/