youcancallmesierra

youcancallmesierra Aug 2021

faux pas

here goes
what ever shall i do
if i can't get a pinch
of affection from you
do or die
and i will right in this spot
don't even dare
i'm just dealing with some thoughts
cause it's all inside my head
and the worst part is
i know it's all inside my head
and i still can't fight it

youcancallmesierra Aug 2021

no srsly

it's a game
of who cares less
left on delivered
unsending texts
general statements
to silently dig
because i'm too shy
to just say ****
and i know if i did
it'd just get forgotten
pouring until i'm an
empty carton
hate that feeling
so just i say nothing
act nonchalant
but i'm bad at bluffing
so now it's weird
because i think too much
concerns get buried
so i can get ******
i'm trying my best
to not mess it up
but i let the situation snowball
like it always does
and now it's too late
to fix what i bent
so i'll just say
we're better off as friends

youcancallmesierra Jul 2021

x

just another thought
rinse repeat sort of night
the first of many
but not of it's kind
trickle down flood
a butterflies wings
dominoes crash
stuck out at stormy sea
with no lifeline
or recovery effort
i liked it better
when we slipped together
but it's hard to know
what we even want
shooting for stars
with bb guns

missin the mark

youcancallmesierra Jul 2021

wants & needs

the price of a joyride
the heart of a boy i
will never truly know
seemed like a cool guy
now i feel used dry
ending on a flat note
i made the decision
said i was okay with it
even though i was reluctant to even go
ofcourse he's indifferent
should've trust my intuition
but i just didn't wanna spend the night alone

youcancallmesierra Jul 2021

focus on the road

lost in thought
it is what it is
forcing pieces
that would never fit
not even invested
just hating that i
am not enough
to be a waste of time
pathetic
that this is where i've arrived
it's what i get for driving
with no destination in mind

youcancallmesierra Jul 2021

smokey the bear

cool summer night
no fourth of july
but in your eyes
i see fireworks
laid up by your side
under a very empty sky
guess it was my time
to learn how a liar works

ever explosive
swear you'll control it
and in the moment
i believe it
and of course you blow it
heart rebroken
trust eroded
guilt deep-seated
history repeated
you say i love you
and i think you mean it

flick of a match
fire licks the fuse
eating away whats left of it
about to get a special view

beautiful disaster
waiting to occur
waiting for the show
still trusting in your word

staring right at the light
naive to how this works
you get to have your fun
i get left hurt

a knocked over rocket
destroying everything in it's path
you did this on purpose
and you'll never take it back

youcancallmesierra Jul 2021

tsk

just the way i said
down to the self deletion
you lost yourself
trying to please them
stuck in limbo
trying to decide
if being liked
is worth dying inside
do what you do
you'll have to live
with the decisions
can't resist the compulsions