do i still deserve love
when i act ugly
of course because we all do
but they always take it away from me
how do i cope
what do i do
i already apologized
to you
and i try to make things better
but it never fully heals
i get fed up again
not acting on how i feel
get treated like i'm the problem
but it took both of our mistakes
to get us to such
a toxic place
and i do want things to get better
but it's all on me to make it right
and i'm almost willing to do it
just to end the fight
but i can't because
it's not fair to pin the solution on just me
i'm down for compromise
but i won't fall down to my knees
begging for the chance
to die so you'll be happy
we can't always have what we want
but there's just some things i will always need
respect is a two way street

missteps feel world ending
when they're just simple mistakes
trying to take it one day at time
but i can't even think straight
it's more than the current situation
it's everything that's at stake
it's the living for nothing and dying lonely
and all the choices i'm afraid to make
taking risks is the price of happiness
but i'm scared to fall on my face
cause if i spit all of it out and they don't care
i will not be okay
i can forgive everyone else
but i disappoint myself everyday
i wish i could be gracious with myself
but all i know how to do is hate
all i know is i can't just keep going like this
there's got to be another way

awareness bleeding through the vibe
it's what i get for ignoring signs
silent the whole drive
that's why you asked someone else for a ride
home and you didn't text me that night
to make sure i'm alright
but that's expected
and i won't take it
to heart but i'll remember it next time
so don't reach out
i'm over it now