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i miss you from time to time
but i meant it when i left
had to say goodbye
you were everything i needed
for that moment in time
but you started causing pain
became a source of strife
and i think about you sometimes still
but you're gone for a reason
friends aren't forever
embracing the end of a season
there's no way to settle the score
or make us even
it's all for the better
don't go searching for reasons
don't seek me out
it'll just make this worse
i'm not having fun
this really ******* hurts
every part of me
wanted this to work
but in the end
we only made each other worse

can't be by myself anymore
i think too much when i'm alone
too many nights ended crying
over something i saw on my phone
cause i'm not skinny enough or pretty enough
and i don't have many friends
now that i think about
do i even have any friends

deeper darker
out of sight
somewhere far
some place to hide
i'm stuck inside
my self-destructive mind
suprisingly
i don't actually want to die
i'm just struggling to find reasons
to stay alive

can't trust myself anymore
or other people for that fact
i'm too sensitive for intervention
but can't afford to relapse
but when i'm buried under obligations
and it's gets hard to see
reasons to carry on
how could you blame me

finally alone
but i feel no better
life is supposed to be
better together
but i just feel
tethered
plucked and feathered
poked and pestered
feels like i'll feel like this
forever