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hurt him to feel something
but he doesn't care
so how can he be hurt

hurt myself to feel something
but i still feel empty
it doesn't work

inflict pain just to feel something
but when i bleed
it doesn't even feel real

just want to feel something
but i just don't know
how to describe how i feel
felt this way for so long
i should know better than
to start letting it get to me now
but i'm stupid
i cry when i feel useless
which is all the time
offered help but refuse it
because who really wants to save me
they save their pride
they want to save face
not save my life
i'm tired of living
to fulfill others dreams
i just miss how simple
things used to be
but i'm already sunk now
not much to do about it
but remember what it was like
before i died
unsure walking up
don't know what to do with your hands
uncomfortable in yourself
carefully cast a glance
terrified to be seen
wish i could calm your mind
you don't have to change
the way you are is fine
in fact its beautiful
i'm in awe by the things you do
silenced and shaken
by the words you choose
you're scared to be unbearable
yet i've never wanted you gone
worrying yourself to death
i love how you're so wrong
but what if you get tired
of all the questions i ask
bored with me
because i fall asleep too fast
what if you don't want me anymore
what then am i to do
what if you stop wanting me
the way i want you

you're honest with your fears
and i hear you out
but i need to you remember
what i say right now
i never want to stop thinking of you
if i could i would
you're terrified of being horrible
but i see all the good
that is in you
and i'm sorry you worried for so long
can't help but laugh a little
you could not have been more wrong
armor rusted through
but i trusted you
to not stab me when i was weak

but you went for blood
just my luck
laughing as i bleed
crack of the door
you don't love me anymore
at first i couldn't take it
but now i see this for what it is
not for what it was
a need for intimacy traded for lust
no wonder i was disappointed

but i got what i asked for didn't i
careful for what you wish for right
i'm learning as i go i guess
just gonna slip out quietly
while you're not thinking about me
which is easy because that's all the ******* time

you won't really miss me at all
just confused by a wall
when you're used to having what you want
you don't miss me like you think you do
at least you'll still be my muse
until i let someone else break me

sure you said you're sorry but you didn't mean it
you apologize when its convenient
when you need something you can't just take
the first time i thought you really changed
after the fifteenth cycle i think its safe
to say you're only accountable when it benefits you
all night
i lie
on my back watching stars
and to myself

dark sky
dull eyes
it's the way i hate my heart
for refusing help

feel trapped
know that
i'm losing all hope
in finding a savior

fell back
collapsed
blood stings the back of my throat
raw from prayer
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