i wonder how she would feel if she knew
about the things you did with me
while you were speaking to us both
i do not have such peace
i lack the bliss
of not knowing how unvalued i was
i would tell the whole world
but i know how it does
cant escape my worthlessness
and even though i never liked her much
i'd never put this feeling on her
let her think she is in love

waited for a couple hours
spent a couple days
staring at a silent phone
for things you'll never say

a tipped firework
beautiful before you know
it's shooting through your heart
and just way too ******* close

because who wants to be hurt
not me and i guess you're the same
but you can detach in way i can't
you'll always be okay

cause you don't care
so you can't get hurt
i cry on our behalf
you laugh at these words

i'm trying to make sense
i'm trying to clean up the glass
maybe i'm thinking too much
but i can't bring myself to ask

questions i won't like the answers to
not ready to exist without you