youcancallmesierra

youcancallmesierra Dec 2020

skydive

you don't get to hurt me anymore
something i never thought i'd say
the thought of you leaving
made me so afraid
a world without you
seemed so plain
a world without you is
free of pain
if i could go back
i'd jump off the plane
you were trying to crash
i thought it was safe
you didn't want love
you wanted to be saved
as i watch you get trapped
in the mess that you've made
i don't feel the need to look back
comfortable just walking away

youcancallmesierra Dec 2020

myndset

get up
come here
there's something to be excited for

ever since i met you
it's just so different from
before

and i don't know what that means
but i want it
to stay this way

everything feels foreign
even though nothing's
changed

youcancallmesierra Dec 2020

excusesexcusesexcuses

****** up
ain't no other way to put it
got me ****** up
head in my hands feeling stupid
like it's my fault
you just had to ruin this
made a ******* promise
and couldn't keep to it

shut the **** up
none of it matters at this point
is it ****** up
i gag at the sound of your voice
like its my fault
you went and made that choice
oh now i'm supposed to feel bad
cause it's wrong to find joy

in watching you cry
over the blessings you lost
you got what you wanted
but never asked at what cost
you're shaking you head
but can't shake out the thoughts
wishing there was a way
to turn those feelings off

cause the guilt is eating you
and the regret swallows you whole
the fact that you can't undo what you did
leaves holes in your soul
all those hands you let touch you
yet not a single one to hold
when they made you feel so warm
couldn't imagine they'd leave you so cold

youcancallmesierra Dec 2020

unreciprocated

it's not that hard
it's not so bad
you doubt yourself
after the fact
you led me on
now want me back
gonna kindly
reject that

if i'm being honest
i feel fine
i've found better uses
of my time
maybe the offer
was quite nice
but i'mma have to
politely decline

i don't want none of the *******
that comes with loving you
dealt with it for months now
and where has it taken me to
besides the edge of this bed
and the end of my wits
can't find it in me to be
the idiot you fell in love with

youcancallmesierra Dec 2020

this is real

i've tried to say it
but i dont wanna say any more
because i feel like i've already said enough

how do i explain it
you tell me to share
but i dont wanna give away too much

it's like you're ignoring
the important parts
focusing on **** that doesn't matter

i tell you how i feel
you crack a joke
and then wonder why i don't wanna talk after

youcancallmesierra Dec 2020

mindreader

in a pickle
in a jam
in an unlucky moment
i've found myself
and i don't quite know what to do
i wish i knew
how much you cared
so i could relax
or never come back

youcancallmesierra Dec 2020

everysinglescenario

the words that you say
get changed
somewhere along the way
you say i love you but love gets replaced
by my brain
with hate
and i start to feel afraid
begin to question my place
lose my ability to recognize your face
as one that is safe

and all i have to do to fix
this
is
tell you but what if
you lose interest
and my worst nightmare lives
to become your very real wish
because i can't be who you fell in love with