too many words
not enough structure
one too many syllables
and it all falls apart
sounds so good in my mind
but i stutter when i speak
don't listen to my words
know my heart
i want it to be perfect
to move you
but i just can't
i've tried
i write
and i write
and i write
and i write
but nothing
comes out
that bears any
significance
just stringing
you all along
my thoughts are
dissonant
keep fighting a battle
but how?
i thought i was done
but i'm not i guess
don't know what is hurting me
i'm just too afraid
to know if it might actually be me
i'm a mess