i keep procrastinating
and i know i'll be crying later
in my bed
with the tears slipping off
my cheek

into my pillow
where they will eventually dry

but i will go in to rush mode
and get it all done
not learning my lesson
and i'll be back in this same position
next week

i'm so done
i swear to god i have lost my mind

too many words
not enough structure
one too many syllables
and it all falls apart

sounds so good in my mind
but i stutter when i speak
don't listen to my words
know my heart

i want it to be perfect
to move you
but i just can't
i've tried

i write
and i write
and i write
and i write

but nothing
comes out
that bears any
significance

just stringing
you all along
my thoughts are
dissonant

keep fighting a battle
but how?
i thought i was done
but i'm not i guess

don't know what is hurting me
i'm just too afraid
to know if it might actually be me
i'm a mess

i don't know how to make this more interesting
i've poured out all my thoughts
to try and make a friend

my rhymes aren't that good
my lines of reasoning are all right
but you will never see them trend

i'm not the kind of person
who learns the first time
i make the same mistake again and again

i keep writing away
pieces of myself to connect with you
but i still feel lonely even then

.
                            u
you build me    p

you tell me i'm    
                              b  
                       ­          e
                                   a
                                     u
                                        t
                     ­                     i
                                          ­  f
                                              u
             ­                                    l

i have   e a r n e d   your love

                             m
                          r
                       a
said i'm      w


s  o    y  o  u    h  o  l  d    m  e    close

welcoming like the morning           u
                                                       s          n

but  e v e n  though

i'm all of these    t                 s
                                h          g
                  ­                  i   n

i'm still not  e  n  o  u  g  h

you'll never look at me with   d
                                                        e
      ­                                               s
                                                        i
     ­                                                r
                                                        e

thou­gh i  
                 s    h  i  v e    r

                      your touch
b e n e a t h

i thought
if i loved you enough
you'd eventually love me back
                                                            ­                                               i thought
                                                         ­                         if i waited long enough
                                                          ­                   it wouldn't hurt me as bad
but what i thought
and what happened
were two different things
                                                          ­                    now i know how you feel
                                                            ­                    is the determining factor
                                                          ­                                     not what i think

one plus one
does not equal two
i am not the one
who completes you

i'm cold
don't let me freeze
without you here
the heat leaves me

                               i can't stay warm
                               please pull me close
                               i know you don't love me
                               but i need you the most

                                                                         you thaw my heart
                                                                         you make me feel alive
                                                                         without you here
                                                                         there's just a blizzard inside