crowded and alone
lonely and alone
you'll never feel like you belong
until you find a home

i ache for freedom
but i settle for acceptance
no on sees the inner turmoil
so why would they suspect it

everywhere i go
nowhere i belong
i know i'll always be alone
but it's hard to carry on

i really listen
or at least i try
to be a good friend
to seem better in your eyes
taking all you say to heart
even if it doesn't seem right
telling you that i understand
when you make me cry
when you tell me to snap out of it
i paste on a smile
for every inch you ask of me
i muster up a mile
putting away all my icky thoughts
seeming to be just fine
i give it all, more than all
but somehow i'm left behind
how did all this "back and forth"
become a product of my sacrifice
why don't you every stand up for me
am i just too nice
its hard to imagine that you can't see
the way i'm rotting inside

while we weren't seeking this outcome
no less should've been expected
selfish deed after selfish deed
this parasitic relationship was erected
now we're both lost
with no object of affection to abuse
what is love without all of the manipulation
i'm genuinely confused

lately we've been strangers
sharing responsibilities
we cut out all the "unnecessary"
underestimating such frivolities
only an arm's length away
but still in some place i can't reach
i want things to go back
to the way they used to be

i wish someone would listen
without the intention of ******* me
i wish someone would care
if i wasn't always perfect
i wish someone wouldn't expect it all
when i obviously have nothing left
i wish somebody that i trust
actually deserved it