the fact that no one will ever love me is driving me insane i'm such an ugly person inside and out that i don't even wait for that special person to come along and show me love because i know they all hate me because i talk too much and act a certain way i'm sorry so sorry i hate me too sorry for being such a drain
i paint arched brows fulls lips cheek bones on my canvas face all of the time making myself up going to waste what difference does it make anyways doesn't change who i am what i do the choices i make confidence i wash off at the end of the day all this for compliments i won't even take you tell me i'm beautiful but i can't trust what you say no matter who you are or what you mean to me either way i want my body to change i can't look in the mirror and not feel ashamed i'm fat i'm ugly i deserve all of this hate taking showers in the dark acting like that's not strange every time i try to be good to myself it always ends in pain i know you think there is something you can do but its to late to try and save me and be my superman it's not your lucky day i'm sorry for dragging you into this i'll make it up to you some way i hate myself i hate myself why can't i just be normal for a day or at least for the times when i need to seem okay to make them trust me to be alone to get them off my case
if i ask a question, will you give me the answer? if i fall apart, will you put me back together? if i give you this moment, will you cherish it forever? if i talk, would it ruin this? would my silence make it better?