i'm tired of feeling
the doubt in my faith
like every ounce of joy
equates to a metric ton of pain

It's still you,                               Miss Me                Time Plays     
It's still you.                               Like Your                 Tricks        
                                                    Losing Me.       On Your Memory

Be you.                                        We're all                      Like Rain
Do you.                                         trying to                        I Fell
For you.                                 forget someone.                For You.


You Left                                       My Love                      I'll Meet
but Still                                          For You                   You Where
you Linger.                             Was Bulletproof.           We Began


Remember When                           I Miss                      Can't Sleep
You Were                                       What We                   Because
my World?                                  Never Had.
                                                            ­                              Something Is
                                                              ­                              Missing.
You'll Always                              You Were
be my                                          My Lifeboat,                  
favorite Almost.                         I Drowned.                She Warned
                                                          ­                                  Me About
                                                           ­                                 Loving Her
I'd Be here                                       It Still
if  She Asked.                                Hurts At
                                                           3  AM                     I warned
                                                                ­                          Her About
                                                           ­                               Loving Me
     I Almost                                    Come And
     Had You                                   Waste Time
     Didn't I?                                     With Me.                 We Exist
                                                           ­                              In Moments
                                                         ­                              Nothing More.

Sometimes I wish I could go back in life, not to change things. Just to feel a couple of things twice.

                                                         ­                            Jon York   2019

i can't apologize
for loving you
but i can walk away

too bad i'm selfish
and i need you so badly
that its driving me insane

forgive me for staying
i know it doesn't make you happy
seeing me cause myself pain

i hope you know that i know
it's not your fault
i'm the only one to blame

i fear nothing
but i'm afraid when you leave
you're the light in my life
when you aren't here
darkness surrounds me

so please just stay a little longer
just a minute for me my love
brighten up my darkest days
warm and welcoming
my morning sun

give me something to look forward to
be my reason to abandon the night
isolation only gets us so far
illuminate me with your presence
make me feel alive

Would've,                                                        ­ Nothing

      Could've,                                        ­                  Kills  you

      Should've,                   ­                                      like your

didn't, didn't, didn't.                                               mind.
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     You almost                                                      Peopl­e come
                                                                ­            
     convinced                                                        ­     and go,
                                                                    ­      
   me I mattered.                                                      th­at's life.
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   Nothing matters,                                            You deserved

               but                                                            ha­ppiness,

   somehow you did.                                                so I left.
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       Our "almost"                                                  We were and

         will always                                                          t­hen

            **** me.                                                          we weren't.
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     Your fingerprints                                               I miss how

           I have not                                                            yo­u

          washed off.                                                     wanted me.
                                                Jon York    2019