i am a hypocrite
who hates hypocrites

the only reason i dare speak
on you and your choices
is because i've acknowledged how ****** up i am
and i guess that makes me even worse
because i know
and should have the ability to change
but i don't

i am a hypocrite
who hates hypocrites
telling you to love yourself
while i punish myself for existing

ignore my words
but at least read my lips
can't afford to waste anymore
bargaining chips
don't want to be harsh
but i need you to try
this is a conversation
with only one side
i mean if you're not gonna listen
please just watch
if you can't discern my ramblings
at least witness the pain you've caused

dread spilling over the edge
of this cheap wooden table
pooling on the floor

i know better than to speak
but you won't leave me be
you continue to implore

you don't respect my energy
you don't even see
the ways i struggle

just believe i'm up to no good
only here to disappoint
just asking for trouble

no more lies
you don't have to hide
i'm here to show you the way

in the end its you're call
if you want to put up that wall
and not let me help with the pain

just know that i've tried
to see past your disguise
and there is something to be saved

but i wouldn't blame you at all
or put you at fault
because you are afraid

burner in the back of my mind
it'll have to suffice
i can't continue to dedicate my life
to the things that didn't go right

she can love your body
but she can't touch your soul
why does it take two people
to make you feel whole