the sky is blue
just like her eyes
i have to stop telling myself
all of these lies.

“nothing’s wrong”
“i’m fine”
i say these lies
all the time.

honestly
that’s not true at all.
and truthfully
i have no idea what’s wrong.

i wish i could explain it to you
and tell you the truth
but how can i explain it to you
when i don’t know the truth?

I'm ok,
I'm ok,
Just get through the day,
Just get through the day.

Is there a life beyond these fears
That bear the root of all the tears?
Can one learn to be wilfully blind
To tell the difference between cruel and kind?
Is it possible to try and wait
To better accept an impending fate?
Can one refrain from asking why,
To live now, bidding the past goodbye?

i always disliked
how you knew when to come back around
when my life was finally back in place
after each time you broke my heart

i feel empty

i feel as if i’m floating through life

watching it through the eyes of someone else

i feel heavy

as if i'm being dragged down and no longer have the strength to push my way up

is it possible to feel these two things at once?

the feeling of nothingness

the feeling of excruciating pain

how can emptiness feel so heavy?