For so long now, I have been trying to understand God's will.
So sometimes I ask HIM for silver, then I get a bronze instead.
Then I decide am going to stoop a lil' low and ask for a Vitz, then instead, HE gives me a Range Rover.
Yeah, am human, sometimes just throw tantrums at HIM, I mean HE is my FATHER right?
I am persuaded to think that sometime HE just sits on the THRONE and just laughs at me....(i get silly with my requests sometimes)hehe
I don't know what plans HE has for me, so the best I can do is actually keep asking....random requests.
"Daddy I want a double door steel refrigirator"..."No daddy wait, there is this other Television set I saw, and you know what, I would like to have it"...
It goes on, and on, and on....from Closet to electronics, to partners...#sigh
HE really hears a lot from me lol.
But I know HE has my best interest at heart yes?
I look at it from an angle of a baby.
When the baby is born, and still growing up, they can't actually feed on anything yet, steak and corn and all...because they aren't at the stage to eat it yet...however much they whine cry for that meal, they can't get it yet. Not to mean that at some point when they are fully grown they won't eat.
So sometimes I think God denies me some things so I can actually reach the level where I can handle 'em.
I mean, if I pray for a life long partner and am still inexperienced in loving and nurturing, why should HE give me the partner, won't I just ***** it up??? That's why sometimes however insane it may sound, I thank God for Break ups. They are lessons...each of them and I grow and learn.
With all said and done, I pray wisely now. For HIS will.
However painful it is, HE is My FATHER.
HE KNOWS BETTER and THERE IS NO LIMIT TO WHAT HE CAN ACTUALLY DO. **
©The Unspoken
Just thoughts in my head...more of a realization.