I know

I know you haven't said it , but I can see it in your eyes , you don't have the heart to tell me , but I know the fires died
The smile that used to melt my heart seems forced and burdensome
You built a wall between us I can't help but know we're done.
You no longer get excited , or want to be with me , seems all you do is think of reasons , of why we just can't be .
Even the simple little things , to you , seem now a chore , it's becoming obvious to me , you don't want "us" anymore .
It's such a helpless feeling , knowing our dreams are no longer the same , it breaks my heart to see the love in your eyes has waned.
I've no choice but to walk away , I have to let you go , even though I gave you my heart so very long ago.

thoughts
There all thoughts at first,
Memories , hopes , perception.
Nanoseconds of pictures and places.
Pulled out of the whirlwind of impulses.
A raging storm inside the mind is but a mere norm.
In the mind,
Where time,
time, is just a perception, or nothing at all.
Writing,
Just the physical remnants of a thought.
The only Footprints left by the brain.
A transformation to a moment in the now.
Given a body , and a duration.
Providing more than just recollection for those instances we want to hang onto,
for just a little while longer.
Or,a surface to purge those memories  we are trying to let go of.
Writing ,
The only way to truly share your mind ,
Never where it is , but where it was. Thoughts
No matter what they make,
Writings , poems , odes , psalms and songs .....
They simply are ,
all ,
just thoughts, at first.....

they say we are formed
from the same dying star
so that must mean once
we shared the same heart
and ever since then
  I've loved  you

I wonder if......

I wonder if you still imagine our kiss ... the way our lips fit together as if they were made from  the same mold destined to be one ever after.
I wonder if you think of me , us , or we ? The forever we were supper to have .
I wonder if you miss being enveloped I’m my embrace where you could hear my heartbeat calling your name as you rest your head upon it , if you could feel the affection emitting from my entire being .
Do you miss not having to wonder we’re my heart was ?
Morning ,noon,and night ,everything you .... always .
Do you miss my voice , filled with tenderness , soothing , and always wanting to comfort ?
I wonder if you miss my touch , my fingers through your hair , or how they brushed along your skin with the gentleness of a sculptor caressing his creation , and even those spots that would send a jolt through your insides , I wonder .
I wonder what your doing now ?
Do things remind you if us ?
I see you in everything beautiful , and in beauty , you made me see ....
You were the breath of my soul.
I wonder if you feel an emptiness In yours , do you hear my voice in your mind and wonder and I am ?
Is there someone else now ? Someone new amidst the clouds to witch you have taken them with just the magic of your gaze ?
Is there someone else’s name newly etched upon your heart , or is it still mine , but waining with every day passing in my absence .
I wonder if you still know how much I love you , how much I wanted you in my tomorrow’s , and how sad I am living In yesterday’s past .
I wonder if ......
I wonder ......
Do you wonder too ???

I see the bottle
Contents inside,
Spirits
I want to trade
Places
I want to be the bottle.
Spirits
Inside me
And a hard surface
Were nothing can bother me
Now I'm inside the bottle
Numb
At least for a while
The spirits make the shell
Instead if trading places with the bottle
I traded places with the spirits
Instead

The morning flowers stretch out there petals as they bathe in the rising sun.
Honeysuckles filled with droplets of dew
Teacups for the bees
The breeze ripples over the lawn making rolling waives atop the surface of the emerald blanket. bending blades, shadow the  worms trying to hide from the birds.
The birds,
The commencing sounds of each new day , the first call out
" hey is anyone awake "
Until the sky is raining in chirping.
The morning symphony.
Shadows change shapes under the arching sun , giants turn mice , and mice into mighty beasts.
The clouds themselves ,just inverted shadows to a wandering mind.
And just another imaginative morning

Can't help who you love

Living life in a holding pattern because you can't help who you love
putting up with more than you deserve, because you can't help who you love
Always seems like your swimming upstream
Because you can't help who you love,
Hanging off the edge of the pedestal you put them on, to the person you fell for, the person you thought they were.
Because you can't help who you love
Just when you think you can let go,they remind you of why they captured your heart.
Caught in a storm of reality, winds of uncertainty , and yet that jolt in your belly when the catch your eye.
No, you can't help who you love.
So many decisions you know you should make.
But ,
You can't help who you love ....
You can't help who you love ...

Tomorrow

Let me gaze again into the eyes of the little girl I fell in love with nearly half a century ago, encased now in the body of the woman I still cannot get enough of .
Tomorrow , let me have another day where I  still melt at the tiny face , now sketched in wrinkles , each with its own smile and an ode of another happy memory we shared.
Tomorrow , let me watch the moonlight glisten off your silver hair and I still try to steal another kiss while we walk barefoot on the beach one more time .
Tomorrow , let us plant another garden together and wait for another spring splash of a rainbow blossom in our very own orchard , just like our affection has all these years .
So many seeds , dipped in "I love you's and odes " " holding hands and tender moments "
Tomorrow , let me hear your voice , like the angels sing , and let me fall in love with you over and over again , like I've done every day since that loving question.
Yes, I'll kiss you my darling.
Tomorrow let me envelop you with affection and be glad that you are mine.
Tomorrow is but the first day in our forever ,
Be my "Tomorrow " ?

Take a bow

It used to flow like sunshine on a river bliss , full of affection and glowing vigor.
Just a pen and paper and an open corridor to my soul.
Thousands of odes,laden in sincerity that could only have come from a heart filled in love.
Take a bow
What was once as easily as breathing your name , has dissipated along with the distance of the memories , and abandoned tomorrows that you chose to walk away from , while you went to chase your own.
Take a bow
Missed moments and indifference, doused the fire that burned from within , left growing shadows on the walls , that the final act of forever may be coming to an end.
Unreciprocated romance , wore away at the determination , and a hope for our forever , that seemed to fade alongside your appreciation, of a heart that loved you forever.
Take a bow
You’ve made me watch the curtain close , on our happily ever after , slumped shoulders , and dampening eyes , I’ll turn my back and walk away , you’ve finally gotten me to give up hope ,
It’s over ,
so go ahead , take a bow .

Each new ode
To you
Another page
Another step
I've alowed you to
Descend further
To the belly of my heart
Where my love
For you
Resides

Like a picture

Layer by layer snippets of yesterdays past place themselves atop of one another next to , and interweave , to form a picture in my heart , saved from a time together , cherished like a treasure and represented on a moments reminisce , like forming a flower petal by petal , or a lighthouse on a sea shore , stone by stone .
To bring that smile back to my soul , just like it was when the moment was being lived.
Like a picture ,
A tapestry threaded in heartstrings , sewn into memory’s kept in my dreams, to call upon at an instances notice .
A passionate kiss, your Silhouette under the moonlight, the porcelain glow off your face , or just the way you wore your hair .
Like a picture
On the walls of my torso or the pages in my mind whenever I miss you, I can find you.
No need to hold it close to my heart, because it’s already inside my heart .
Like a picture , another memory of you ......

A bird and a whisper

A bird landed gentry in my shoulder carrying a rose petal in its beak and hopped into my palms , where I could see a silken white dove called Hope , I could swear I heard a whisper , and a piece of tomorrows dream glowing on the blooming parchment that quivered in the breeze.
Just like that she flew away , wings thrusting on the gusts of inspiration , seemed to carry her adrift , As if the feathers were that, the same of an angel ,leaving a hue of promise in its wake , leaving nothing more than a speck of a shadow against the horizons gate.
Vainly I reach out hoping to catch hold for another moment to no avail, with the ever growing echoes of the whispering breeze to which held the wings of the cherub.
Only to open my eyes to the sound if my sleeping beauty laying next to me , her chest ebbing and flowing like an enchanted ocean , enveloping my slumber ,as I dreamt to the rhythm of her breathing.

Poetry,
The only way to
Bring Flavor
To my ears

watching her breathe
is like watching the tide
i rest my head on her *****
envelop her in my arms
and we drift off together
into the welcoming
belly of the sea
that waits for us
just beyond our dreams
i love you baby

The final dance

Sadly the music has been dimming for some time now ,
I tried to hold on , to what I realize , were only memories,fooling myself.
Your heart's been silent for a while ,empty echoes , not the melody I kept dancing to, not realizing , the band called romance was already played its final tune.
I always thought " true love " would be the never ending song.
In my affection I was still dancing,while you were walking away.
I guess I'll never feel your heart beating pressed against my chest , no more will your head never to rest upon my shoulder, we've had our last kiss , yet I was willing to make your lips the last to touch.
I'd say I'll miss you now that your gone , but I spent most of my time missing you when you were here , now it's finally come to me, you can't slow dance alone , and you've been gone for some time now , we've had our final dance

all i ever did was love .

I’ve written you thousands of odes , only to have you tell someone else “you love them with all your heart”, a song I’ve never herd you sing to me.
I’ve spent most of my existence , living to love you, not a frame of mind , but, a way of life.
how do you let me treat you so wonderfully , knowing you never wanted to stay.
was it all a lie ?
you were not the first girl who’s lips have touched mine, but you are the first woman I’ve ever truly kissed.
i believe our souls were one in eternity , sewn in the strings of our heart and sealed in that very kiss,parted to be joined again on earth in this life.
i thought we were drawn to one another for as long as i can remember.
you led me to believe you loved me all your life , just not with all your heart i guess.
I’m haunted by the memories that we will never have , tormented by all the times you’ve hurt me , for they outweigh all the times you didn’t .
tried to show you all the time ,just how much i cared , you were my angel,i gave you all that i had ,you gave me indifference , i tried to walk away, yet i kept being drawn back, i tried to forget you , but how can you forget your forever.
all i ever did was love you unconditionally , all you ever did was love someone else more.
why did you ever let me love you at all.

I’ll step aside

Although I loved you since before memory , your presence a source of my smile.
In a day of digital technology , I chose the time to write , pen and parchment , odes of affection , sealed in wax , my kiss from afar.
My Angel
Even such a wave of affection , not enough to rise you above your yesterdays .
I stepped aside
I can’t watch you chase your past, while I wait here on our future , another empty promise.
You never seem to appreciate my affection , despite the ways I’ve shown you how .
My sun , moon, and stars , yes , the light of my heart you are .
Oh how I wish I were the same to you .
I’ll step aside
The little things , I always looked at you as the flower to my soul , the echo to my heartbeat, cherished you like a porcelain doll , just as you skin would glow under the lunar beams at midnight ,
I stepped aside ,
For the eyes that never looked at you that way , did he ever serenade you ? Or tell you “nobody loves you like i do “ ?
You told me I was your first love , and I told you the same.
I stepped aside “ our “forever , so that you could be with your past.
For even a mighty stone wears from the continuous flow of the water , as  I have form your indifference toward “us “ You never really got it .
So,broken hearted, and under appreciated, as much as I still love you with all that I am .
I’ll step aside .

" you show so much of yourself , without even uttering a word.
Your actions, the voice even louder than spoken words show so very much more , that you needn't say a thing, yet I know ...
      Yet I know ..... "