I fear the mirror
Not for what I see
But for what I
Don't

A bird and a whisper

A bird landed gentry in my shoulder carrying a rose petal in its beak and hopped into my palms , where I could see a silken white dove called Hope , I could swear I heard a whisper , and a piece of tomorrows dream glowing on the blooming parchment that quivered in the breeze.
Just like that she flew away , wings thrusting on the gusts of inspiration , seemed to carry her adrift , As if the feathers were that, the same of an angel ,leaving a hue of promise in its wake , leaving nothing more than a speck of a shadow against the horizons gate.
Vainly I reach out hoping to catch hold for another moment to no avail, with the ever growing echoes of the whispering breeze to which held the wings of the cherub.
Only to open my eyes to the sound if my sleeping beauty laying next to me , her chest ebbing and flowing like an enchanted ocean , enveloping my slumber ,as I dreamt to the rhythm of her breathing.

thoughts
There all thoughts at first,
Memories , hopes , perception.
Nanoseconds of pictures and places.
Pulled out of the whirlwind of impulses.
A raging storm inside the mind is but a mere norm.
In the mind,
Where time,
time, is just a perception, or nothing at all.
Writing,
Just the physical remnants of a thought.
The only Footprints left by the brain.
A transformation to a moment in the now.
Given a body , and a duration.
Providing more than just recollection for those instances we want to hang onto,
for just a little while longer.
Or,a surface to purge those memories  we are trying to let go of.
Writing ,
The only way to truly share your mind ,
Never where it is , but where it was. Thoughts
No matter what they make,
Writings , poems , odes , psalms and songs .....
They simply are ,
all ,
just thoughts, at first.....

Tomorrow

Let me gaze again into the eyes of the little girl I fell in love with nearly half a century ago, encased now in the body of the woman I still cannot get enough of .
Tomorrow , let me have another day where I  still melt at the tiny face , now sketched in wrinkles , each with its own smile and an ode of another happy memory we shared.
Tomorrow , let me watch the moonlight glisten off your silver hair and I still try to steal another kiss while we walk barefoot on the beach one more time .
Tomorrow , let us plant another garden together and wait for another spring splash of a rainbow blossom in our very own orchard , just like our affection has all these years .
So many seeds , dipped in "I love you's and odes " " holding hands and tender moments "
Tomorrow , let me hear your voice , like the angels sing , and let me fall in love with you over and over again , like I've done every day since that loving question.
Yes, I'll kiss you my darling.
Tomorrow let me envelop you with affection and be glad that you are mine.
Tomorrow is but the first day in our forever ,
Be my "Tomorrow " ?

Can't help who you love

Living life in a holding pattern because you can't help who you love
putting up with more than you deserve, because you can't help who you love
Always seems like your swimming upstream
Because you can't help who you love,
Hanging off the edge of the pedestal you put them on, to the person you fell for, the person you thought they were.
Because you can't help who you love
Just when you think you can let go,they remind you of why they captured your heart.
Caught in a storm of reality, winds of uncertainty , and yet that jolt in your belly when the catch your eye.
No, you can't help who you love.
So many decisions you know you should make.
But ,
You can't help who you love ....
You can't help who you love ...

Take a bow

It used to flow like sunshine on a river bliss , full of affection and glowing vigor.
Just a pen and paper and an open corridor to my soul.
Thousands of odes,laden in sincerity that could only have come from a heart filled in love.
Take a bow
What was once as easily as breathing your name , has dissipated along with the distance of the memories , and abandoned tomorrows that you chose to walk away from , while you went to chase your own.
Take a bow
Missed moments and indifference, doused the fire that burned from within , left growing shadows on the walls , that the final act of forever may be coming to an end.
Unreciprocated romance , wore away at the determination , and a hope for our forever , that seemed to fade alongside your appreciation, of a heart that loved you forever.
Take a bow
You’ve made me watch the curtain close , on our happily ever after , slumped shoulders , and dampening eyes , I’ll turn my back and walk away , you’ve finally gotten me to give up hope ,
It’s over ,
so go ahead , take a bow .

they say we are formed
from the same dying star
so that must mean once
we shared the same heart
and ever since then
  I've loved  you

The morning flowers stretch out there petals as they bathe in the rising sun.
Honeysuckles filled with droplets of dew
Teacups for the bees
The breeze ripples over the lawn making rolling waives atop the surface of the emerald blanket. bending blades, shadow the  worms trying to hide from the birds.
The birds,
The commencing sounds of each new day , the first call out
" hey is anyone awake "
Until the sky is raining in chirping.
The morning symphony.
Shadows change shapes under the arching sun , giants turn mice , and mice into mighty beasts.
The clouds themselves ,just inverted shadows to a wandering mind.
And just another imaginative morning

I see the bottle
Contents inside,
Spirits
I want to trade
Places
I want to be the bottle.
Spirits
Inside me
And a hard surface
Were nothing can bother me
Now I'm inside the bottle
Numb
At least for a while
The spirits make the shell
Instead if trading places with the bottle
I traded places with the spirits
Instead

Each new ode
To you
Another page
Another step
I've alowed you to
Descend further
To the belly of my heart
Where my love
For you
Resides

Through my heart

So many days I sit back and wonder , if you will ever see things through my heart , kindred spirits , forever love , yet somehow I don’t think you know who you are , through the soul of affection that has been yours forever.
Nobody loves you like I do , no one ever has , with the intensity of a waterfall at the end of a long stream  flowing , evermore , if you could just feel through my heart , breath the air the way I do , and then maybe know why I am the way that I am .
Why I cherish every moment with you , why I look forward to the sound of your voice , and the comfort of your smile ,why the only time I’m without a void is when I’m amidst your graceful bliss .
My love has never been just a “ feeling “it’s a “ calling “ one that can only be truly fulfilled in your embrace , sealed in our kiss , and confirmed in our consummate , all my life it’s been you , and I only wish one day , even for a moment , you could see you through my heart, and truly then know why, “ I am “

Like a picture

Layer by layer snippets of yesterdays past place themselves atop of one another next to , and interweave , to form a picture in my heart , saved from a time together , cherished like a treasure and represented on a moments reminisce , like forming a flower petal by petal , or a lighthouse on a sea shore , stone by stone .
To bring that smile back to my soul , just like it was when the moment was being lived.
Like a picture ,
A tapestry threaded in heartstrings , sewn into memory’s kept in my dreams, to call upon at an instances notice .
A passionate kiss, your Silhouette under the moonlight, the porcelain glow off your face , or just the way you wore your hair .
Like a picture
On the walls of my torso or the pages in my mind whenever I miss you, I can find you.
No need to hold it close to my heart, because it’s already inside my heart .
Like a picture , another memory of you ......

I’ll step aside

Although I loved you since before memory , your presence a source of my smile.
In a day of digital technology , I chose the time to write , pen and parchment , odes of affection , sealed in wax , my kiss from afar.
My Angel
Even such a wave of affection , not enough to rise you above your yesterdays .
I stepped aside
I can’t watch you chase your past, while I wait here on our future , another empty promise.
You never seem to appreciate my affection , despite the ways I’ve shown you how .
My sun , moon, and stars , yes , the light of my heart you are .
Oh how I wish I were the same to you .
I’ll step aside
The little things , I always looked at you as the flower to my soul , the echo to my heartbeat, cherished you like a porcelain doll , just as you skin would glow under the lunar beams at midnight ,
I stepped aside ,
For the eyes that never looked at you that way , did he ever serenade you ? Or tell you “nobody loves you like i do “ ?
You told me I was your first love , and I told you the same.
I stepped aside “ our “forever , so that you could be with your past.
For even a mighty stone wears from the continuous flow of the water , as  I have form your indifference toward “us “ You never really got it .
So,broken hearted, and under appreciated, as much as I still love you with all that I am .
I’ll step aside .

The final dance

Sadly the music has been dimming for some time now ,
I tried to hold on , to what I realize , were only memories,fooling myself.
Your heart's been silent for a while ,empty echoes , not the melody I kept dancing to, not realizing , the band called romance was already played its final tune.
I always thought " true love " would be the never ending song.
In my affection I was still dancing,while you were walking away.
I guess I'll never feel your heart beating pressed against my chest , no more will your head never to rest upon my shoulder, we've had our last kiss , yet I was willing to make your lips the last to touch.
I'd say I'll miss you now that your gone , but I spent most of my time missing you when you were here , now it's finally come to me, you can't slow dance alone , and you've been gone for some time now , we've had our final dance

all i ever did was love .

I’ve written you thousands of odes , only to have you tell someone else “you love them with all your heart”, a song I’ve never herd you sing to me.
I’ve spent most of my existence , living to love you, not a frame of mind , but, a way of life.
how do you let me treat you so wonderfully , knowing you never wanted to stay.
was it all a lie ?
you were not the first girl who’s lips have touched mine, but you are the first woman I’ve ever truly kissed.
i believe our souls were one in eternity , sewn in the strings of our heart and sealed in that very kiss,parted to be joined again on earth in this life.
i thought we were drawn to one another for as long as i can remember.
you led me to believe you loved me all your life , just not with all your heart i guess.
I’m haunted by the memories that we will never have , tormented by all the times you’ve hurt me , for they outweigh all the times you didn’t .
tried to show you all the time ,just how much i cared , you were my angel,i gave you all that i had ,you gave me indifference , i tried to walk away, yet i kept being drawn back, i tried to forget you , but how can you forget your forever.
all i ever did was love you unconditionally , all you ever did was love someone else more.
why did you ever let me love you at all.

Poetry,
The only way to
Bring Flavor
To my ears

Beyond love

I look past the furthest star , and yet I find another , for their is no edge to the universe , infinite , omnipresent , no matter how much their is , their is always more , like my heart towards you my darling , my affection is greater than what can be put in words “ beyond love “ .
Forever , had no beginning , and every step into , just grows even further .
Your enchanting eyes , your radiant smile , I hold you , I don’t want to let go , I wish you could feel the emotions pouring from my soul , the affection  “ beyond love “, such a sensation , deeper , further , wider , longer , outside of words ,past  feelings , indescribable , but pure.    “ devotion “ an attachment , our kindred spirits .
“ beyond love “
nothing can quite capture , more than all that I am.
To say I love you with all my heart is but only the beginning .
For my darling , what I have for you is more than that of my beating hearts calling , you are the most beautiful thing in the world to me and to other way to express , what I hold for you , is truly , and evermore ,  “ beyond love “

Being in love, can
Fuse both falling,
And drowning,
Into but one,single
Feeling

One last time

I wanted  to to hold you one last time
To taste your lips , and savor the flavor
I wanted to embrace you like it was the last time I'd ever touch your skin again.
I wanted to hear your voice just once more , so that my heart would bathe in its warmth as if we were walking into a dream forever.
I never wanted it to end this way , I kept hoping for that one more time , but you seemed to have something other on your mind .
You were happy with your memories , I kept wanting to make more.
But you chose yesterday over tomorrow , and I never got to love you " one last time "

watching her breathe
is like watching the tide
i rest my head on her *****
envelop her in my arms
and we drift off together
into the welcoming
belly of the sea
that waits for us
just beyond our dreams
i love you baby

" you show so much of yourself , without even uttering a word.
Your actions, the voice even louder than spoken words show so very much more , that you needn't say a thing, yet I know ...
      Yet I know ..... "