I'm trying to refrain
From disguising all those things
That always bring on pain and shame

I'm trying to refrain.

Naked moon beam
Cooing at the threads
Simply asking them
To unravel on their own.

Skin shines brightly in the night
And I assume that's why your always clothed.

I missed the time when the sun kissed the oceans face.
It brought me sadness when I got the word
From a book
Found in outer space.

Long long ago god showed what he could create
A marvel story written in detailed encryption.
And it's clear that somethinghappened.
Not clear the description
But the moon had to stop talking
As the sun began its rising.

Some times I'm over whelmed
And I want to meld in with the mattress
You can lay your weight on me
I like the feeling it captures.
And I never feel so nervous
Like claustrophobic breath
But all at once so at peace
Resting under your chest.
And if you could just weigh me down
The panic I'm sure would leave
I could gain composer
Your weight is all I need.
And even if I struggle darling
Even If I panic
Lean on me till I'm silent
I'm sure that I can handle it.

Spittle dribbled from the chin
Quivering skeleton breaking at bend
Terrible timing for all of you to see
Terrible minding I've fallen to My knees.

In the weakest of moments
You'd label me then
In the weakest of states
You'd count all my sin.

And it shows your insides

Provocation of corruption
With in the mind.
Desire.

******* lulls me forth
Then back lashes me
With reactive shame.

I know nothing.
Wrong from right
Yet I judge
My own thoughts

And deem myself
Fallen.

Oh you self deprecation
You disolution
Unexplainable
Ending to
The always ending
To the every day
Writing a a new ending.

Vision plagued
Thoughts combust
And what's corrupt.
Move intent towards
Over stimulation
And pleasure becomes
Insessant
Pain becomes
Pleasure
And you become your mother
Like you always swore you wouldn't.