Saving breath in a bottle
To capture the essence
Fragrant gusts
Like those
moving through absence
of mind.
Squander all your muscles
Their twitching filled intent.
You couldn't own the body.

Sort of in a way
Where I'm not quite sure
And your hunger drives me insane
When I could starve myself the same.

I forget that you please me
In split seconds of frustration
And I wonder who you are
Like I don't already know.

To absorbent to think clearly
Maimed in the mind of a million
Past perspectives.
She's been talking more lately
Whispering from the corner.
Sometimes I'm scared
I don't remember enough.
Are these just bruises on my arms
Or am I shooting up
In moments I'm not awake.
Or was I there and didn't care .
I can't tell.
I'm sober I think
But you never know about these things

Hot and Dripping like wax
Once lubricated toward gravity
In a slow creep down
I'll harden against you.

Scrape me off like yesterday's leftovers
Down the drain is where I seem to find
Home.

I'm past the point of resurrection

Shove me to the edge
And let me free fall from the dirt
Into the sky and upward
Like you had never seen before
In all the mortals that you shoved
I will be different.