Thoughtful expression
In figuring up
How to show
Your undying love.
On the inhale
I feel utter expanse
Like magnets ripping
The coils of my brain.
How life spins in circles
Bigger and smaller circles.

Open up my ovaries
Expend the life inside of me
Into the cavern in your skull
In to the songs you sing in lull.
Bring me to your center fold
My blood and guts and getting old.
Show me how I age with time
And how you note my every sign.
It's easy here to stay with you
Whe love is seeding
Love is bloom
And I always point toward you
On yonder nights
Toward the future.
I'm looking to ya.

Blankets cast up in the air
And float down like some beautiful veil
Comfort warmth and sweet incase
Cover up your lovely face
And keep your truth away from me
Cast my view of what I want to see
But I don't want your skeleton

I don't want your skeleton...
That's all you are to me
But I want you to be more.

Take down my walls of belief
Remove my perspective from me.

I don't want your skeleton.

Flaming ideas forever drive reflections
Into growing dying holding things to closely
  then they die.

Crab walking to the closest gas station
For a sense of belonging
And there's nothing I want here
but to feel like part of the
Community
But I'm side stepping conversation
And speaking out of the corner of my mouth.
It's no wonder I'm gaining no closure.
I'm to aware of my faults.

Your ***** failure came to visit
My schizophrenia recited it's coils
Thoughts of anxiety
And writhing in my own skin.
I wanted two different things.
For this to work, my love flow to you
And yours back to me
Uninhibited
That free flowing connection I seem to have with so many people.  
Because I am strong and loving and patient.
But your ***** failure came to visit
And it brought revelation
In such a narrow minded translation
And you both preached of death
And evil
And releasing all suffering
Once the body stops beating.

I tried to show my rhythmic patterns
I wound up all my music boxes.
I said I thought we should appreciate
Each moment we are breathing.  

You both seemed offended.

I waited for you by the window
Wanting hard for you to stay
But when you both walked in the door
It was clear we were not the same.

We never were.
My mother, and then the grand
The lineage of my ancestory.
But how am I so different
From anything you'll ever be.

Wrapped to tightly in bible paper
And the law of the land.
Fantasizing about the day you die
So you can be with God

And you tried to tell me bad news
And I told you i already knew
I was not effected by the chaos
But you had more speech to ensue
And you spewed
Oh you spewed
Of every terribly saddening thing.
And I laughed out loud at your struggle
At your death mind writhing.  
And you looked to me as if I were trouble
Laughing at tragedy.
But I responded to you gently
With every body dies
And you went back to your speech
Of how only the good rise.

Aren't we all just holding so tightly
to these bodies
that we pray for an after life
I'm learning to appreciate
the life that I was given
And to trust that I've already risen
From the compounds of pleasure
And the lust from your wombs
And In the end
We will all have our tombs.

Vacuum pull
Invite me In
Sucker for your
Needful sin.  
I'm quaking thoughts
Of you untied
Released from
All your painful pride.
Unhinge your insecure
I need you
Vulnerable.
Give me all those things you think
That aren't the pretty showing kind.
And I will take it all from you
And I will prove to change your mind.