Who are you with tonight?
Pieces of me fall away
Reveal my  circuits
components laid bare
Some of them broken
None of them spare
Now look  inside
I'm all metal and wires

I don't feel pain
but i can feel
I'm not alive
But I am real

Who will share with you?
I don't need to breath
But I can't move forward
down on my knees
I was never alive
And I'll never die
to mourn this loss
But never to cry

I'm not a machine
I'm not a machine

Once we were young
And ruled the the world
We saw things
We did things

The photographs
proved we were there

Sleep, I've forgotten what that feels like.
Counting the minutes to each new sunrise
Whilst watching the days get shorter
Medicating the pain into the background

Eyes open, each movement screams awake
A thousand needles move under the skin
Weaving this tapestry of flesh and bone
An endless picture of what I've become

Shaking under the strain, the cracks appear
Small, too small to notice darkness creeping
Eroding the wall that holds back the dog
Waiting to charge, waiting to bite

Weeks pass as moments when the pain fades
But like an unwanted guest, refuses to leave
Reminding me that this is not over
Invading my dreams and crushing my will

This darkness consumes me
I fear when it's finished there will be nothing left.
Hollowed out from the inside
When it escapes this world will cease to exist.

But I like it
I embrace it
It talks to me
In shades of black it speaks

This hatred becomes me
To isolate and with it this power grows ever strong
My mind feels corrupted.
When I speak it feels like a different voice

But I like it
I embrace it
It talks to me
In shades of black it speaks

Our greatest glory is not in failing,
But in rising every time we fall.
Rising every time we fall.
Rising every time we fall

Keep company with those who make you better

This drunken encounter
Under beams of the moon
Time won't come quick enough
But it will come too soon

Surrounded, arms wrap around
Encompassing bodies of fire
Playing these well worn games
Like puppets hung on a wire

Emerging, I shall tomorrow
Into this pretty skin
Where everything starts again
This new life shall begin

This is not your loss
For it is mine
We shall meet again
When I run out of time
Sit and wonder
Things of the stars
Caught between here
And the days of youth

This fragile life
Like broken glass
I cut my hand
Picking up the pieces
You speak of times before
From back and beyond;
Places where we stayed
People who we loved

Forever we will tell
Forever letting go
Colour golden highs
Painted black the lows
What has gone before
Will go again
And I'll see you there
Take care my friend

You walk round again
Nothing's wrong or gone
Sunshine tinted moments
I still hear your song
This won't hide in shadows
It's all in the light
Life is made from time
And everything's alright

The end, when it came wasn't really out of the blue but it still struck me with surprise. I guess I thought I was ready for it. The pain however was something new entirely. I've never felt like dying before, never had a reason.

Goodbye, goodbye
To all I know
Things they change
Things they flow
The light has died
You never saw
I should change
I should grow

Thirsty, thirsty
Need to drink
Fill me up
Before I sink
Hungry, hungry
Need to eat
Take my fill
Let me sleep

Shadows move around
Things which are still

How does it feel? It feels bad
The acid burns, the anger stabs
What do I do?I don't know
Do I let it sit or let it flow?
Is this the end or the start?
It kills then breaks my heart

Where does it go? Does it compete?
It's all pain with no treat
Hating me, hating you
Going to see it through
Is this the end or the start?
To separate, to fall apart

This doomed vessel carries mortal cargo.
Buckle up tight we got a long way to go.
We travel with friend and undercover foe,
You ride inside or hide outside the door.
Against a dark background we fly together,
The night rushes by in a blur of street lamps and shop fronts,
Eager to reach our goal we force time to move faster,
Forgetting that one day these will he memories,
And these Memories I steal from from another time,
I nurse with false pride as they were never mine,
And as we blend we come apart again and again,
Never stopping never closer the horizon never gains,
The sand in the hourglass falls as I tap the life I used to know,
Existing on nostalgia, feeding off the Sparks from long ago,
Knowing I'll never he the one to hold you again,
Reaching out, always too far and yet always so close

Has there ever been a good time
Sometimes there was nothing much to say
Open me up and look on the inside
Take the pieces I don’t need

Stitch me back with golden needles
So it catches the sunlight when I turn
I will forever be reminded
These golden scars will never fade

Butterflies with razor blade wings
Fly gracefully inside of me

Do you ever swim in your sleep?
You’re always close to being drowned
Lie on the bed in a sea of trouble
Waiting for your net to pick me up

But there are no boats upon this ocean
The waves just toss them all away
I have to wait for calmer weather
Or pray I float towards the shore

I’ve taken all the mirrors down
All but the one beside the door
As I leave I check my refection
Just to be sure to put on a show

Butterflies with razor blade wings
Fly gracefully inside of me

You only wound so many times
Then you die, or you fight back
I'm learning on this journey
vague morals are my guide

Inside the broken hour glass
I can look as I please
Time stands still
Then moves forward with ease

Don't give up your future for me
I'm a broken for sure
Sweep up the pieces please
then leave them by the door

Have you ever lost everything?
Or are you missing some toys?
To play with, then to discard
Ready to pick up when board

It's good I don't feel
It's good I don't cry
This broken component
Can never lie

This is the time of war, a battle within,
And I'm in at the end, where shadows begin.
The longest death of my life,
A sorrow denied will a sorrow grow

Paradise of wealth, built on the poor
Short times sail, love displaced for sure.
In chaos, where sad hours seem long,
Grief hits hard, the soul gives a song.

Exhale, it's all going to be okay,
Just not sure when, in this disarray.
No coming home, darkest when alone,
Floats on the surface, overthrown.

Displaced love, restless, untamed,
Drown the voices in rivers of fire, unnamed.
The clocks have stopped, signal of loss,
Quick sand drowns, the unprepared cost.

If time was a drug, overdose to heal,
Collateral beauty in the pain we feel.
Make the world spin the other way?
Turn today into yesterday.

Stand fast and hold firm,
With your absence, I am alone.
In this new landscape where shadows play
We carve our names as time slips away

Night time falls, daylight comes around.
I hear you call, you never make a sound.
The sun is up, I feel it on my back.
Walk away, I’m never coming back

Night time falling down on me
The stars like holes in the sky.
The tiny lights that shine down,
The light that’s in your eyes.
Your body’s pushing down on me,
I feel it when you breath,
You can time things by the second now,
It’ll **** me when you leave

Maybe one day, maybe one time,
Maybe somewhere, you could be mine

Now we’ve got to try to stay awake
And watch the sun go down.
The leaves the colours with the shadows
are scattered on the ground.

Sitting with my best friend
We’ve been watching bad TV
My mood is shifting,
I wish that you could stay

Maybe one day, maybe one time,
Maybe somewhere, you could be mine