I thought I was ready
ready to move on
I am not.
I really want to move on
on to bigger and better things
but I'm not ready

I am glad to say that I am starting with new beginnings. I am saying goodbye to my old habits, and letting things go. I am starting the life that can make me happy. New beginnings are something new for me, I am happy to be trying it. I am finally starting fresh, and starting my life right. I am getting another chance at making things better, and living the life that I want to live. You only get one life, and sometimes new beginnings are necessary. Make life what you want, instead of it being what it has to be.

People are going to say things that are meant to put you down. twist your life, and sometimes turn it to hell. People can be immature and think that you will fall. There's only one reason that they could do this. One reason in total, when zeroing out all the other options, and that is the fault of one individual thing. I blame it all on stupidity.

I think it's time to face the facts
the facts that things won't be the same
You won't look at me the same, even though I try my hardest to get you to. I can't force this to happen, when this isn't what you want. You look at me as an object instead of someone with value, I shouldn't have ******* everything up, I admit it's all my fault. I want you back, even though you weren't technically mine to begin with.
I have to face the facts
that you are on your own, you want me for an object but not the person I have become. I have grown for the better and forgotten about the worse, if you hold onto me.. I promise we can make this work.
I don't want to face the fact
that I may not be what you want, because I could still be
if it wasn't all my fault. I am the reason that things became so distant. If it wasn't for my stupidity, things wouldn't be so different.
I have to face the facts that
you are who you are, and if you don't want me to have part of your heart, it's fully my fault.

I wish
I could forget you
the damage you've done
and the pain you've brought
but in the end
I want to thank you
for bringing the pain
that made me stronger
Forget You
and the harm you brought me
because at the end of the day
I am who I am
with no thanks to you.

I want to forget you
you've brought so much harm
and for what
your own amusement?
Forget you
because your harm didn't tear me
to the ground.
In fact it made me a rising star

Forget you

Nothing is really forever broken
Everything can be fixed
Tape, Glue, and staples
were invented for a reason
they fix certain things
Communication, journaling, and therapy
are to fix the other things
I am fixable
you are fixable
it may take some time
but it can be
fixed

Sometimes promises can mean everything and nothing.
I could promise you the world, but take that away a minute  later. My promises could tear you down, or lift you up. The simplest things could make or break a person.