Sometimes I get sad
and go to a dark place

It's rough there
it's dark there

My saddness in uncontrollable
I don't know where it's from

I'm crying for someone's help
begging to get out

I once beleived that God
could get me through

But I feel to far away
where he can't see me

The light is not around
so bury me in the ground

I want out of this hell
God, help me

I will bleed
until I die

Cut into the skin
that isn't mine

The truth is
I'll never escape

The truth is
I'll never be saved

I've done too much wrong
and I don't belong

Heaven's a beautiful place
I can see it

When I close my eyes
I float off

It's a place with good
there is no fear or pain

But when I awake
reality sets in

I'm dead now
there's no life left

I've got to accept that
get comfortable

My life is not mine
but I have control

I've made too many mistakes
and I won't be saved.

a thirsty soul suspended over the
waters of this heartland like some kind of
symbolic sacrifice to the lesser demigods
she is wearing a hippy skirt and a fashionable hat
a swift sunrise gives her aspects of divinity

she tells me she came here to go shopping
but in the turbulent space between our hearts
something has changed
she tells me cloudy days make her sad
i tell her rain is a companion to no man
but the flowers love it just the same
she knows she loves it too

i pick up her thought and bounce it like a rubber ball
cause it keeps comin back to me'
just like that mysterious smile that
lingered on her face
long on my mind
i cant seem to shed the thought
that it all means something someplace
always somebody thirsty somewhere

the clock stopped at a quarter to four
and a shameful woman sits there fixing her face
with the wrenches and hammers of fashionable practice
seek to be the same as everybody else
someday your bound to get there
just to find yourself questioning why you
bothered once your there

her and the shameful woman put a
heated argument in the pocket of hunger
and giggling like schoolgirls walk away
to go find a mirror to get lost in
swap makeup and spit in some bathroom selfies
girls night out

i'm standing out here in the open air parking lot
watching the heartland of fiveashes sink slowly into the sea
walk on the puddles reflections of clouds
as they break apart to bring us a brand new day
rain is a companion to no man
but the flowers like it anyway