So if you’re hearing me crying
Please Don’t come trying
Cause no matter what you do
I’m already through
By the time you find me
I’ll be lying on the bed sheets
I Finally have peace in my head
Hell I was already ******* dead

The voices get louder
Looking at this caliper
And all I can think about
Is… pulling the trigger
With my *******
Watching the blood shed
Sheets stained red
This knife is my friend
We’re no longer playing pretend

Just now it seems easier
I’m done trying to please her
You said I was gonna make it
But now I just gotta face it
Im done daydreaming
I’m done ******* healing
I’ve given it my best shot
But this is my last drop
Cause what you couldn’t save
I already gave
You say it’s all in my head
And now I’m ******* dead

Another day and I'm feeling all depressed..
A couple things I had to get up off ny chest..

The girl I love how she turn into my ex
Ever since I read the text ,
Swear I'm feeling like me less
I don't even feel the same now
Drinking liquor just to bottle all this pain down
Another person said they cared but never came around
Girl you always on my mind,
Swear this love just ain't a game now..
You know that I tried for you,
Know I ain't perfect but I'll always ride for you
Going to a war girl, you know it's do Or die for you..
I put aside my pride for you.
I know I made mistakes, but in the end I never lied to you..
I told you I was honest with you..
Playing games man ,that's something I didn't gotta with you..
My feelings were so real,
Girl it's almost been an year.
But i still think of you


Swear there's so much on my mind lately..
So much I've been feeling, I can't cry lately..
So much I've been feeling like I'll die lately..

Never thought I'll ever see this part of you ..
You're the opposite of everything I ever thought of you..
I heard so many lies that I never ever thought was true..
I'm looking like a dummy girl
You know I always fought for you..
But they don't understand it..
Cause now you left my heart here and now I'm stranded..
Lost in the desert, somewhere probably where the sand is..
And then you went and vanished..
I even met your friends
Even showed you to my parents..
But I guess that was for nothing..
Still I feel we had like something.
You played your cards right girl,
I've seen you bluffing..
I've been acting like it don't faze me,
Late at night I'll be crying like a **** baby..
Staring at my **** phone, telling the Lord to save me..
But i just can't believe girl you played me..
Swear you played me..

yeah i'm feeling the damage that i can repair
going through changes but nobody cares
and i walk alone cuz you're not here
but
i want to feel your love once again
you gotta explain i will understand
but don't walk away my heart cannot
take this damage again.

One day she asked him "HOW MUCH DO YOU LOVE ME"?
he took her to a shore of an ocean
and dropped a "tear" in the ocean and said
THE DAY ANYONE FINDS THIS TEAR, I'LL STOP LOVING YOU

what do you want to now?,
she said..

How could i say i wanted to
kiss the very source of the question?

How could i explain myself when
the seeds of doubt had penetrated in
the soil of her mind

How could have i showed the apology in
eyes without being carried away by her
cherubic innocence...

Broken into pieces
                   fallen into ash..
at the same time
                  tears running down my heart...


                  touched the door of success
                  but couldn"t open it....
at the same time
                  something seeming to end
                  before it started...


                 I can pretend to be a phoenix
                 rising from the ashes...
at the same time
                 use my tears to heal myself..


                BUT THIS **** SOUL NEVER
                LET'S ME LIE TO MYSELF

if love was measured by a grain of sand,
we'd comprise a beach...
when it's time to embrace,
your's are the arms that i reach..

Your aciding words ignited
the fire inside me..

JEALOUSLY

you tried to wash
down my flames..

EVEN THOUGH YOU SUCCEDED

still i'm the smoke rising up
and you are the ash ,still beneath me..

I wanted you to be the shore of my ocean,
but you decided to be the bank of small rivers...

Love was the seed which I sowed
Heart was the fertile land
Where i ploughed
You deforested the land
Where the saplings growed
Leaving me lonely
With the pain you endowed.

Please tell me something
And do not lie
Is there something
fading between you and I?

The moments we had
Are seeming to perish
Why did'nt we made
Enough to still cherish?

The eyes are drifting which used to
swarm in my head for a day
How can you see through me
When you never look my way

She wipes her tears
I wipe my own
We do love each other
I guess it's just our evil clone.

The sugared scent of
Marigold in full bloom
Can't even overcome
Your presence in my room

The majestic rainbow
Etched in the bright blue sky
Can't catch my attention
When you're sitting by

Your hearty laughters
Warms my winter
The dimples falling
Just adds fuel to the fire

Your hair brushing my face
Breezes my summer
You'll always be my golden snitch
I'll be your seeker

I love my life
When i hear your soft whispers
Just hold me like this forever...

𝓕𝓸𝓻 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓰, 𝓲 𝔀𝓲𝓼𝓱𝓮𝓭 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓼 𝓭𝓪𝔂
𝓘 𝓴𝓷𝓮𝔀 𝓼𝓸𝓶𝓮𝓱𝓸𝔀 𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓵𝓸𝓿𝓮 𝔀𝓸𝓾𝓵𝓭 𝓯𝓲𝓷𝓭 𝓲𝓽'𝓼 𝔀𝓪𝔂
𝓨𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓫𝓻𝓸𝔀𝓷 𝓭𝓸𝓮 𝓮𝔂𝓮𝓼, 𝓬𝓸𝓷𝓿𝓮𝔂 𝓶𝓸𝓻𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓷 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓼𝓪𝔂...

SO HERE IT GOES

Side by side
On a moonlit night
Watching the sea waves glide

A tender moment of romantic bliss
I bend on my knees
You cup my face and we share a sweet kiss

From my heart, into your soul
The feeling is so strong, i've lost control
Even the stars are gazing at your tiny mole

We vow to make moments to reminisce
Now you're with me, nothing can go amiss
The intoxication of your love is more than that of a cannabis

On the account of happiness you bring
From head to toe, my everypart wants to sing
You are my everything, you are my everything...

She's the one
This resonating thought became an obsession
But my courage fails me in narration of my affection

Eyes flash when they sight her
Words stutter when i'm close to her
Heart suffers when she's not near

Her  eyes met mine today
Doing their usual work of slay
Strong enough to swarm in my head for a day

Maybe she also likes me
Maybe i'm the one who makes her face glee
Oh! You dumb brain, already doing the forsee.

Nowadays eye contacts are frequent
Heart still skips a beat on her advent
Living with the aid of her left behind scent

Should i muster my courage?
Or am i being prepared for her rage?
Let's see if we both are on the same page.

This is not a poem guys.
This is an announcement.

I'm going to release a string of poems under the topic "RELATIONSHIP".

This series will consist of 5 poems comprising of all the stages of a relationship.

The first part of this series will release tomorrow titled- bare beginnings.

Now i just need some help from you guys. The way you can help me is by sharing it. If you dont want to repost it, please dont. But please share this series with all your friends on this site.          

It means a lot even if you read my poems, but it'll encourage me a lot as a budding poet if you share it.

  Thank you guys for spending a minute on me.

My life nowadays is a circular motion,,
centripetal force towards studies...
My confidence is like the pulley block system,,
consider both( gravity and vacuum)..
I projected at 45° ,
fear is, being resisted by air...
I'm at work despite,,
being at rest...
Hope I keep the same momentum,,
overcoming the friction!!

I set my sails towards the shore(target),
a strong gale(distractions) steered me towards the abyssal.

People are belting out!!
Ain't singing ballads,
crying about problems,
but "us" pretending to be deaf..

Tears enough to form
a brook of pain...
Expressions enough to
topple the mountains..

Living in hope,
if dusk has fallen,
dawn will take place too..

The injury lies fresh,
deeper then tearing a flesh..

astringent remarks all the way,,
gotta press on, taking them bray..

aciding people all around,,
trying to severize my wound..

revival anger is surging!!
for which every RBC is urging..

I'm gonna turn the corner,,
rather than turning into mourner..

     HAHA RESURGENCE!!!!

I gave you Hints,,
As I saw glints....

But you were dumb,,
Accepted to succumb...

Don't you dare comeback,,
coz,then I'll show you what is flak...

You'll never be accepted,,
I'll sway the memories collected....

"Thought", I was ron and you were Granger,,
but now, you are no less then a stranger!!..

When I'll see you with someone in joy,,
I'll remember you as an old toy...

******* , Live and let live in peace,,
further I'll be careful, when my love will increase

Night has Fallen....
Black ocean with pearls is visible,,
Wishing kids and moving stars are vibing,,
The "gone" loved ones are shining,,
,,the void is humming about beauty of black..
Above it, the heaven and hell are clinking glasses
of milk and alcohol respectively...
It appears like ,we are the locals
looking the whole city by our window...
As the Morning draws closer, I WONDER
“How did it get so early so soon?”

THESE ARE JUST LOVE PATHS,,
PEOPLE DIE BY DEATHS..
BUT I GOT KILLED BY HER BREATHS!!

If I'd never met you,
I'd have never felt the pain...
but your bidding me adieu
left me feeling insane...

But if I never meet you now,
I would break my feelings vow..
Though you shall consider me loser,
but I will prove you myself, as a bruiser...

I wanted you to be the shore of my ocean,
but you decided to be the bank of small rivers...
I expected you to fathom my emotion,
but your disdains, often gave me shivers..

You are here again, this time, try to get my drifts,
coz, I also want to feel the ecstasy of warm gifts..
If you strive this time, maybe we will nourish,
maybe our affinity will flourish.....

I'll hope for you always,,
            as the quote says..

            I would have followed you to hell and back... if only you'd
                                                                                           lead me back

She took my healthy non smoking heart!
returned it damaged, with the cancer of love!!

God felt fortunate to create women,
then why did we considered her as derision??
She was the reason, we could breathe,
then why did she faced all the wrath??

She had the beautiful strokes on her face,,
accompanied by an enormous amount of grace...
Though we contemplated them as her scars,,
but she assumed them as her stars....

She asked for her womanism,,
but we replied with our cynicism...
She said it is hurting,,
but we replied with our cursing...

Oh Woman!!! don't you know your variance,,
then why do you accept this vehemence...
Defy the disrespect ,mistreatment, misdeed,,
You know why ,coz you are a WOMAN!!!!

Learn to grow like a lotus,
if life hurls you in a bog...
Learn to bloom like roses,
in spite of being in the thorn...

Practise to stay in ash
and still burn like cinder..
Practise to stay under constraint as
coal and still get results as diamond...

Take few steps back, not to
step down, but to leap...
Take your defeats to grow
stronger, not to weep....

Be the injury ,which makes
the comeback sweeter...
Be the artillery ,such that even
your shadow is considered as leader!!

Word's that I couldn't speak,
kept our relation brief,
pushed me into grief!

I just wanted to say hello,
just to take things slow,
but you judged my feelings shallow..

I dream to walk hand in hand with you,
though nowadays ,in dreams too, you act like peekaboo.
but I guess I'm just one of them in the queue!!

I see your shadow everywhere,
wondering 'can your life give me a share??
though your shadow disappearing ,gives me a nightmare!!

I want you to see in my eyes,
to see my truth and lies!!
but I get the sadness 'sigh' in replies!!

You would have loved me back too!!,
if only you knew!!
how much "I LOVE YOU!!"

Why do people change??
do i seem to be strange??

They change faster than milk takes a boil.
But due to them , my life begins to toil.

Don't they know, relationships are to be handled with care,
But they are blatant, showing their flair..

Please say, they do this often,
Maybe this will make my heart soften

My life before, was good with flaws,
But after they came, they made my laws..

Now I ask for sometime to recover,
But there is knock on the door to takeover.

Enough now!!!, I'm not letting anyone in,
coz they know to, just to do talkin...

When fire unites to destroy wood,
ashes remains,fire looses!!
When ashes unites to destroy fire,
nothing remains, fire looses again!!
so the deadliest can be destroyed
even in your worst condition!!

You know what, I'm stupid, because i don't live upto expectation of my beloved ones.
I'm stupid because ,I'm not even loyal to myself!!..
I'm stupid because ,I prefer excuses over work!!.
I'm stupid because ,I don't see myself as a champion in the mirror!!.
I'm stupid because, I let negativity to take a toll on me!!..
I'm stupid because, I think people care the same, as i care of them!!.
AND my biggest stupidity is that, i'm writing poetry on this rather than rectifying them!!!

It's distressing to be forlorn, when the journey
is already arduous!!
I need a hand which can escort me,justifying my flair!!
I need someone to clamor out my fervour!!
I need someone to aid me!!
I need succour!!!!!!!!!

There was a smoke coming out from my goals,
i guess i ignited it!!.
I hope i'll be able to smother before it flourishes
more and extirpates my walk of life!!!

Sometimes, the blazing rays of the sun penetrates my body through
the window,
While sometimes it freezes me to the bone, by letting 'in' the brass monkey weather!!
Sometimes i see the vault of heaven making palpable colours on my window!!
While sometimes it shows the sun drooping into its hole in the yellow chromatic light.
Sometimes i see the pearls of water stopping by to see me, taking the shelter over the hedge of my window, along with it, bringing the scent of nature which comes after the pearls hitting the turf.
Sometimes it petrifies me by the thunderclap,
While sometimes it gratifies me by the clement weather!!!
GRACIAS!!! WINDOW!! you let me open to a new world!!!!

Oh!!! you beautiful poetry,
you know how i define you.
You are an angelic form of some
entangled words into a bracing thought..
You are the one who defines the world in a word.
You are the alluring words which are woven into love
or rage poetry by the crazy lovers.
You are the impetus,which give the 'failed' a chance to stand
back again!!
You are just bewitching.....

I don't know what am i feeling???
there is a tinge of smell of failure spiced up
with a touch of envy!! and mixed emotions of
sorrow and deep thought stirred inside me.
But down somewhere, there is also a beacon of hope
shining inside,which keeps me going at the steadiest speed,
and if the light of the fire outshines the other feelings,Maybe i can win too..

My life flicker’s like a candle , sometime’s it glows the brightest
And sometimes it’s about to flicker away.
And when it’s about to flicker Away, it’s the right time to
Place your hands around it,as the wave of something should not be
Able to show you ignoble!!.
But the hands which are around you should also be chosen sagely,
Some can be the hands which will try to fortify you,
Whereas some hand will be the mango showers, which would try to distinguish
You!!!!