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16.7k · Feb 2014
Glayz Welch Feb 2014
People consider basketball a non-violent sport
Well you should see my body
Sure I have the heart, and height
But I never seem to score
I have to pray to be put in
I feel like I'm just not good enough
But I'm gonna stick with it
Because I'll be good soon enough
I love basketball
I love my team
I love all the support
I feel like its all a dream
Thanks to all the girls
Putting up with my lack of knowledge
I really appreciate it
I love you guys
Thank you so much
13.3k · May 2015
Glayz Welch May 2015
Now I lay down to sleep
Praying, hoping we don't meet
But every time I close my eyes
I see us together
Then I cry
You took advantage of me
Took my virginity
I fell in love, so to speak
I was soon made to realize
The **** made you different in my eyes
Later realizations
Were made to me
You were older than my dad
You weren't clean
I'm lucky no diseases were
Given to me
Just severe trauma
9.0k · Jul 2013
Glayz Welch Jul 2013
In the moon and the sky
You take your life, so I risk mine
They're all so worried
They try to talk to me
I do not answer
But they can see
I'm in pain
Not sure exactly what I need
I hate myself they all hate me
After a while
I realize
They do care about me
It's okay to just grieve
I wrote this in residential treatment
5.9k · Oct 2013
Glayz Welch Oct 2013
People just don't care
"You aren't pretty"
"You aren't skinny"
"You don't look good in what you wear"
"Your too ugly"
"You're too chunky"

That's all I hear everywhere
It makes me feel bad
I may want to cry
People hate me
I want to die
Whats the point
People who tell my i'm pretty
It all is a lie
I hate my life
Other people hate it too
4.3k · Jun 2013
Star Wars
Glayz Welch Jun 2013
So there are these kids
At the shelter where I live
One is older than me and so cute
He isn't like a little kid
Well enough about those people
Who remind me of my siblings
More about my sister
Who is my little Darth Vader
Her name is Vayda and she's my baby girl
For her I would give the entire world
She's in the best family
Well duh I'm her big sis
But I'm scared that I will fail her
For I cannot stop all this ****
I smoke, I drink, hell I even fight
But I don't want her to resort to that
I'm afraid that she just might..
I do this 'cause I've done it for so long
I cannot stop, but one day it will **** me
That's how I know it is wrong...
3.3k · Sep 2013
Glayz Welch Sep 2013
Do you ever feel misunderstood?
Well with **** like mine you sure would
People sit there they don't know what to say
I go to therapy and they're blown away
People hate to look at the scars
It ain't even bad
People think its cool
Well **** that
******* are dumb
Gangsters are "cool"
***** do your math
Gangsters only drool
2.1k · Jul 2014
Glayz Welch Jul 2014
Nothing brought me down today
My life is still a drag
But with the people who see my way
It makes it not so bad
My dad says he wants me here
He loves me
What a joke
I've never seen the dad I had
The one the liquor broke
This is the dad my siblings know
It really hurts my heart
My step mom is just mom to them
But to me she's the evil step mother
They call me Cinderella
Lock me up
Make me a slave
Take me from my prince
Can't even look my way
I'm changing my life
Because if I do
Just like Cinderella
I can be someones princess too
1.3k · Jul 2013
This stupid ass kid
Glayz Welch Jul 2013
So there's this stupid *** kid
Who treats me like ****
He tells me I'm ******* lazy
But **** look at him!
My anger is uncontrollable
He's lucky he's younger than me
Or else he would be crying and
Yelling STOP at me!
I have really bad anger issues!
1.2k · Jul 2013
Dear Little Elias
Glayz Welch Jul 2013
Dear little Elias,
You're still not born into this wonderful world
We wish upon you all the strength to get through
The hard parts of life
It's okay to sometimes just cry
We hope you can be honest
Through all the hardships
Life will bring to you
And have the integrity
To get through it too
We hope you do have kindness
No doubt that you always will
We want you to be trustworthy
So we can be honest too
We wish the best of happiness
We know you will always be loved
Keep faith in our heavenly Father
For he has blessed your family with you
We want you to have endurance
And for you to be respected and give respect too
We care here little Elias
HWAM is your biggest fam
We pray that you will grow up Wise
So that you can pick the choice that is right
We wish that all of these will show: Wisdom, Trustworthy, Integrity, Happiness, Kindness, Honesty, Endurance, Respect, Strength, Love, and Faith
I love that you have parents who are truly great
This is for my pregnant councilor who is having a baby boy
1.1k · Oct 2013
I don't care anymore
Glayz Welch Oct 2013
Just not good enough
That's all I ever hear
You don't work hard enough
Why don't you try living in fear
Just not pretty enough
I know, I know
Your life must really ****
Well it don't, it don't
These things are true
People say it all the time
Why lie?
I'm not pretty or good enough
Even for my own dad
So why bother looking up
I'm just going to get laughed at.
1.1k · May 2013
Curled up in this blanket
Glayz Welch May 2013
I sit here and all i do is cry
curled up in this blanket, not knowing why
I feel different from this world
I feel invisible
When i'm in my cocoon i feel safe
As if all the pain and scars don't even exist
This blanket is a shield to all those hurtful words
Don't let them affect you, but if you do
Know you have a blanket to keep you shielded too
995 · May 2015
Glayz Welch May 2015
Say you're sorry
Still betraying

Youthful, not anymore
Obvious, like you're at war
Underestimating, soon you'll see, the people you hurt, not just me

Mine forever
Or until you die
**** took you away from me, I won't believe your lies
962 · May 2015
Grandpa RIP
Glayz Welch May 2015
It's hard to remember
You're Resting In Peace
Mainly because
It doesn't really seem
That you're lying under ground
With your wings fully spread
Always checking on me
You're in the sky above my head
I'm not really sure how this poem will end
I just hope you know
That you're not just my grandpa
You're my friend
You're the brightness
That made Ovaltine to start my day
Drove me to school if I missed the bus
Oh, I had so much fun
Took me to town
Always got me sweets
But don't tell mom and dad
The secret's between you and me
I love you so much
I know that you're free
I just hope you will never
Just forget me
Because I will never ever
Forget you're existence
Because you've done so much for me
I'll live
Waiting for our meeting again
We will both have wings
No more crying in the end
911 · Jul 2013
Why can't I do it?
Glayz Welch Jul 2013
Why can't I do anything right?
Why can't I keep my daddy in my life?
Why does he hate me?
Is it because of her?
Is it because of my step mother?
No no no
It's all my fault
If I hadn't gone to treatment or ran away
I would be there with them
Every day
But now my daddy hates me
My brother and sister barely know me
And everybody is afraid of me...
Why can't I be a normal teenager?
Without major depression, psychosis, or being bipolar?
I hate myself
I just wish I was normal for once in my life!
737 · May 2015
Mommy Could be There
Glayz Welch May 2015
Teresa Swartzentruber, 34, ****

You know how bad this hurts me, Mom?
To know, you could be there?
But now that you have your drug of choice,
You could be anywhere.
I'll love you through anything, anyone, alright?
The only thing I hate you for
Is risking your precious life.
710 · Jan 2014
Realization at it's best
Glayz Welch Jan 2014
Well, life *****
Lets start out with that
Everyone is so self centered in this small town
I hate my body
I hate my hair
I hate those people that pretend they care
Seems my writing is at its best when I'm mad
Which my happen more often, other times I am sad
I work so hard to be what they expect
It's never good enough
Like I'm a birth defect
I may love my life, but I don't love myself
I just want someone there
To nurse my mind back to health
I'm just realizing the truth
I just have to wait
Until I can be exactly like you...
Then no one can hate
702 · Jan 2014
Glayz Welch Jan 2014
I'm sick of being "that girl", I mean everyone knows me, but I want some guy to love me for who I am, for being different, for not being skinny or pretty like the other girls. I am waiting for the moment when God shows me to someone and they think the complete opposite of what every other guy has thought of me. People can be harsh and I pretend like I don't mind, but I really do. I wish that some guy would love me for me, but nope I have to be perfect, pretty, skinny, the whole package deal. Why can't guys realize that I have a good personality and I would never ever cheat, I may not be like other girls...but I am like me and that's exactly what I wanna be.
It's not really a poem, just a thought
689 · Sep 2013
Love destroys
Glayz Welch Sep 2013
Love destroys
this fragile boy
now he needs my protection
his heart is broke
his mind is weak
all he needs is affection
Not done yet just wanted to show you that i'm back and on facebook:Glayz Welch and twitter:@1dayillhavefame
658 · Jul 2013
Cries in my sleep
Glayz Welch Jul 2013
I try to stay up every night
To keep me from the dreams of which I fright
There's a whole list of them
But this one hurts the most
My whole family is leaving
By brother and sister are staring
And crying
I am tied to a chair
Forced to watch
As they pull away
In their dark red truck
I am stuck in this chair
For all of eternity
Never to die
Never to socialize
Just sitting there and wondering why
Why did they leave me?
What did I do?
I would have fixed it only if I knew
My roommate says I cry in my sleep
She wonders why
But she will never know
The pain of being left
As some weird freak show
653 · Jul 2013
Listen to this!!
Glayz Welch Jul 2013;=PL670F87AB4B45683D&shuffle;=412
I love the cover of the song "Yellow by Coldplay" <3
Also "Angel by Sarah McLachlan" <3
Those are my two favorites!
These people are AMAZING!!
645 · Jul 2014
Glayz Welch Jul 2014
Do I want to listen?
Do I want to hear?
Do I want to die?
Didn’t I make that clear?
Do I want you gone?
Well, I don’t want you here
But if you’re going to be,
Let’s get something clear
635 · Jul 2013
Glayz Welch Jul 2013
There is this little girl
She's living in this big world feeling all alone
Most say she's fine
But there are those few who realize her
That she's all alone
They want to know who
Who would put her in this danger?
Who would let this happen?
They must be a bad person
I look at myself now and realize
It's really is my fault she left
It's my fault my dad isn't here now
And I should just get used to it
Some people may be on the contrary, but I believe this
It's all my fault...
I'm just a *******...
627 · Jun 2013
Slit my wrists
Glayz Welch Jun 2013
I slit my wrists
You watch me bleed
I slit my wrists for you to see
How much pain you've given me
And how much you really mean to me
I slit my wrists
I watch myself bleed
I slit my wrists tears pouring down my cheeks
You're trying to stop me
I'm getting weak
I fall to the ground to fall asleep
Never to wake up again
I wrote this when I got sent to the Psychiatric ward in Portland, OR.
616 · Jul 2013
Enjoy Life
Glayz Welch Jul 2013
Don't just sit there hating life
If you are, don't you wonder why?
Life is:
Learning new
Every day
So why hate life
When it's just a whole new experience?!
556 · Nov 2013
Glayz Welch Nov 2013
They tell me not to worry
Then they go and **** me over
They tell me life is worth it
You sure don't make me feel like that
I try and try and try
But it's never good enough
That's why I'm here
and not with you
Because you can't guide me
Don't ever leave me
Just stay right here
I just don't trust you
I love you here
555 · Oct 2015
PTSD rewritten
Glayz Welch Oct 2015
Now I lay me down to sleep
Praying, hoping we don't meet
But every time I close my eyes
I see us together
Then I cry
You made me think
That you loved me
I thought I loved you, so to speak
But later I finally realized
The **** made you different in my eyes
You took my virginity
My inner sanctum
My inner peace
You switched it with
Your filthy lies
You had *** with me
Over five times
I was only gone for three whole days
Just why, oh why would you treat me that way?
Fourteen girls including me?
What happened to your common sense?
Your dignity?
Oh, wait, the drugs
Now I see
Not much after,
It came to me
You're older than my daddy
You aren't even clean
I'm lucky no diseases
Were given to me
Just sever trauma
544 · Jul 2013
Need Someone
Glayz Welch Jul 2013
I just need someone to love me
Tell me that they want me
Make sure they know I care
And say they're always there
If I had someone like that
I wouldn't be so lonely
That person would make me feel so *****
I cry every night
Because I've been so hurt
People wonder why
I tell them, they push me in the dirt
People who think they are the ****
Whatever 'cause you can mess with it
That it will be my heart
You little *******!!
543 · Jul 2013
I'm sick...
Glayz Welch Jul 2013
I'm sick of all the looks I get
Like they know I'm a treatment kid
Like they think I'm a *******
I'm sick of being underestimated
Being told I can't do it
I'm sick of being here
Not able to get out...trapped
I'm sick of being told what to do or what to wear
Truth is, I really don't care
I'm sick of being judged when, don't you know?, I'm my biggest critic
I'm sick of all those pretty girls who think they're "so cool"
I'm sick of having a ****** up life
Can't get rid of it, isn't that nice?
I'm sick of being nice
What's the point, you make me wanna cry
I'm sick of feeling, seeing, or hearing

I'm turning 15 soon
It's a sight I thought I never wanted to see
But look I'm here
I may have emotions
I may sometimes wanna die
The list could go on and on
But it's a waste of precious time
I value my life, I may even love it
I may be stuck here
I may even have dark days
But I will NEVER risk my life again
I've made it through mine and other's horrible ways
I wrote this when I was in residential treatment.
538 · Oct 2015
Empty Promises
Glayz Welch Oct 2015
My entire life is fueled off of
The empty promises
"I promise this is a forever thing"
"I will never leave again"
"You will always be my baby girl
"I swear you're the only one"
And that's only a few of them
The list goes on and on
It surely doesn't help when my Daddy sometimes says,
"Try not to keep your hopes up
You'll just regret it in the end"

And then there goes my Mommy,
"I wish I'd never let you in
I truly don't want to see you,
Never again"

I mean,
I know my Daddy is a drunk
And my Momma's an addict too
But I really thought
For once that
Their love had broken through
I know everybody says
My parents will always care
But if I'm being honest
I just want them to be there
If not for me,
Then most certainly
For the siblings that I love
Because in my mind
There is a list and they are most certainly above
They're my little angels
No matter what bad they have done
I will always love them for being them
All four of them, not just one.
516 · Jun 2013
Glayz Welch Jun 2013
The cops may say they're the good guys,
But they don't even know
All the **** we go through
Like all those punches we throw

The cops came and got me last night
Brought me to the psych ward
Gave me a hallucination
Bruised my hands, of course

I struggled and I fought
I didn't wanna go
Get sent back to treatment
Nobody cares about me though
511 · Jun 2013
Searching for your touch
Glayz Welch Jun 2013
My vision is blurred
Like i'm going blind
You aren't around
And i'm wondering why...
Why did you leave me?
I thought you truly cared
I thought you would stay with me
I thought you were always there
If I had a chance, I would jump for joy
To get you back, hopefully not as a little boy
You need to own up and say that you didn't care
I still wear your clothes
But how would you know?
That I really loved you
There are many fishes
Out there in the big blue sea
I can find one that is better for me
So ******* and all your little friends
I'll find better than you in the end
501 · Jul 2013
Hating life
Glayz Welch Jul 2013
Everyone says I should love myself
But they don't realize this life I call hell
I'm supposedly part of West Medford's ghetto
I don't think of it that way
I've lived in it my whole life
I didn't even have the thought to ever cry
People would tell me not to be weak
Not to cry, keep an eye open when you sleep
My grandpa died and everything went down
I hated my life
I learned how to cry
And my daddy saw
How bad I wanted to die
We didn't do anything
Until I was 13
Now I love my life, most of the time
I think about my Great Gramma and I have those bad thought
She died while I was in treatment
I still can't believe it
I didn't talk to her before she died
I feel so bad for all the lies
I just lay there and cut and cry
I'm trying so hard
I even stopped cutting
But it's getting bad when I don't have anyone with me!
496 · Jul 2013
Glayz Welch Jul 2013
Today is the worst day
It started alright, no, maybe, okay
My daddy called yesterday
He said he loved me
He said he's just way to busy
Well isn't that the story of my life!
I apologized for things I didn't even do
All he said was a simple Thank you
He said he would call
Today of all days
Sitting here waiting
Hating my life
I just wish that people I miss had more time
Sitting in this homeless shelter
Wanting to just already die
490 · Oct 2013
Untitled 2
Glayz Welch Oct 2013
People just don't realize
Adults do sometimes lie
She's making a point to ruin my life
So might as well go and die
My daddy's with her
She manipulates my friends
Oh **** I hate this
It's all happening again
More treatment
No dad
More yelling
From mom
More "why?"s to answer
But they always say I'm wrong.
I'm a bad person
That's why
Everyone I love leaves
You can try
But I'm trying to succeed
I'm sick of this ****
Bout to give up
But wait a minute
I'll show them
I'll have a better life than them in the end
Hating life, but I have to go on. I love school and everything, but Im not doing good. Please somebody...just make the pain go away...
489 · Jan 2014
That dream
Glayz Welch Jan 2014
I sat in my room
For hours and hours
Trying to tell them
They aren't in power
My life went to hell
My grandfather died
He was my rock
And I wasn't even nine
It was the last day of summer break
I sat up all night
Frighteningly awake
Their were voices
In my head
Telling me just to go to bed
So I did...
I dreamt that night
Of my grandfather
With glowing red eyes
Like a murderer
I knew it wasn't him
So I woke up in alarm
Who would've thought
I had scratches down my arm
I miss him still
But I can't stand to think about him
When I do...
I think of that dream
485 · Aug 2014
Dear Mom
Glayz Welch Aug 2014
I hate to say
That I spend my days
Thinking about you
Wasting away
I wish you were here
I wish you would stay
I wish you would stop running away
I would help you
But I know you'll just say
"I'm scared of this life"
And try to take away
The thought that will stay
Think about the present, the future, today
The past is the past
You can't just throw it away
I love you Mommy
I will love you everyday
Even when you're gone
But I still wish that you'd stay....
Missing my mommy
485 · Jul 2013
I don't get it
Glayz Welch Jul 2013
Why doesn't anybody love me?
Why doesn't anybody care?
Why doesn't anybody acknowledge me?
Even when I'm sitting right there
I bawl my eyes out every night
Wishing that I could make it alright
I thought he cared
I thought she could share
I thought everybody knew I was there
There's a boy
At my school
He says I'm fat, ugly, and he's very cruel
I hate myself
Nobody cares though
I loved him
He didn't loved me
He told me he was in love
With another girl
Who is pretty, skinny and out of this world
I hate being a lonely little girl
I'm having a really bad day.
479 · Sep 2013
Tweeting away
Glayz Welch Sep 2013
All we hear is tweet tweet tweet
Every morning it's "sweet oh sweet"
But now we have this thing online
People treat keyboards not very kind
They tweet EVERYTHING that comes to mind
Sometimes I wish they would give it a break
But what'dya know it's a national site
So people will tweet all through our night
And we will tweet through theirs for a change
I love the internet, but sometimes it's strange
Not done!
477 · Dec 2013
Glayz Welch Dec 2013
I can't think straight
My life is a mess
My mother's full of hate
It gives me much stress
My momma's in treatment
I'm in foster care
My daddy lives near me
But he's never there
What do I do?
In this small world
I just have to tough it through
It would help if I had you..
474 · May 2013
Glayz Welch May 2013
Treatment isn't as fun as you think
People get restrained nearly every day
You're lucky if you have a good group
Treatment means you have no freedom
You're always watched
Staff are always there
And if not staff
The cameras are in every corner watching you
You may need it, which is okay
But if you don't, best choice is to stay with you parents,
until moving day
I was in a residential treatment center for 13 months
473 · Dec 2013
Glayz Welch Dec 2013
I can't think straight
My life is a mess
My mother's full of hate
It gives me much stress
My momma's in treatment
I'm in foster care
My daddy lives near me
But he's never there
What do I do?
In this small world
I just have to tough it through
It would help if I had you..
470 · Jul 2013
The Lonely Girl
Glayz Welch Jul 2013
I'm just a lonely girl
Living a lonely life
Trying to find the ways
To make it all right!
458 · Nov 2013
Glayz Welch Nov 2013
You ever feel like you're always there
But then turn around and they don't even care?
Well that's just how the worlds gonna be
People may "love"
But all I see
Is the hidden pain
It never goes away
Just a dream of life
Doesn't even strive
They just expect it to come
As does the wind
But that's not how it works
For me I just might as well quit
457 · Oct 2015
Help me with a title?
Glayz Welch Oct 2015
I wonder if you know
That I am doing fine
I usually don't
Understand why
Why did you leave
After promising so much
Mommy, Mommy, please
I just want one more hug

I  know it seems silly,  
But no one has asked why
Why it hurts so much
And why I always cry
Because the one thing in this world
I've wanted since I was young
Is for my bio mom
To save me from my tongue
I put myself down
I mess my world up
I hate it when I do these things
But I am not done

Mommy, could you tell
That I was hurt so bad?
That no matter what happened
I could not be saved
Unless I put my mind to it
And learned a different way
I won't be sure until I know
That I will be okay
Consistency is what I need
But it can't be that way

I miss my family
I miss the way
That we could act
Like it's okay
Because what I've  gone by
My whole life
Fake it til you make it
And it'll be alright
450 · Jun 2013
Glayz Welch Jun 2013
People always say forever
What they don't know is "whatever"
I felt like that once
He felt like that too
Now look at us though
We're in the ruins
We don't even talk
We don't even love
For the longest time, I thought he was the one
But now its so hard that our love is a crumb
Nobody wants it, nobody cares
Nobody knows that it's even there.
449 · May 2013
The truth
Glayz Welch May 2013
447 · Oct 2013
Glayz Welch Oct 2013
Words are flowing through my mind
Thinkin 'bout him all the time
Maybe i'll have time to rhyme
Doubt it
But thats alright:
He leaves me here to fend for myself
Don't worry bout me I'll find someone else

People will say "Is there really a guy?
I'll say yeah, y'know why?
*Because I'm sweet
I'm honest
I'm pretty, maybe not
I love for who they are
I'm there when life gets hard
I care when nobody is there
I feel what you feel
And every feeling is real
I feel love when their near
Even if its not clear
I feel strong emotions
I see through their eyes
I know he's more than what you see
I see through the scars
I know he loves them including me
For just who they are
443 · Oct 2015
Love Destroys (continued)
Glayz Welch Oct 2015
Love destroys
This fragile boy
Now he needs my protection
His heart is broken
His mind is weak
All he needs is real affection
You may not notice
How he will be
But you can't be oblivious
To what this means.
He loves you for you.
And you're calling him weak?
You don't deserve his love
He doesn't deserve to be
In a relationship
Where the one thing you need,
The love, isn't there
You weren't meant to be
He will do great things
And I will be there
When he succeeds
Because it turns out
I'm his big sister, you see
I won't let his compassion **** him
I won't let him wallow in grief
What I will let him do
Is forget about you
But also learn the lesson
That not all "love" is true
His heart is so big
And you left one crack
From which
I will make sure
He will bounce back
427 · Jul 2013
Good night
Glayz Welch Jul 2013
I am truly beat for the day
My mind is runnin' too many different ways
I will be back
No need to worry
I'm in a decent mood
I'm just a little lonely
425 · May 2013
I don't wanna remember
Glayz Welch May 2013
I don't wanna remember those three terrible nights
              It was a time when I never even knew the time
There were a lot of people, but two stood out the most
               They didn't realize it, but the traumatized me
               They wouldn't leave me alone
                They wanted "hugs"
                They said they loved me, but it was clear
                No sign of affection was ever there
I don't wanna remember my messed up mind
                13 months in treatment made my mind right
I will never forget those 3 terrible nights
                Sitting there unknowing when they were coming
                All that mattered to them was the "hugs" and the drugs
I was sexually abused when I ran away poetry helps me get the fear out
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