Poem
No one sees the hurting child
No one sees her pain
No one sees her black tears
No one sees

She has scars
She has cracks in her skin
She is dead but somehow she is still living
And learning

Learning to be strong
Learning to be fearless
Learning to feel
Learning to live with pain

That girl who try to make the world around her happy
While she slowly dies piece by piece inside
But no one sees
No one tries to see

They just break her happiness
They break her reason to live
They break her
And they expect her to put the piece back together
And be strong, be happy, be brave, be proud, beloved

Not knowing day by day she slowly fades
She slowly dies
No one has seen how much she has cried
No one sees
No one sees the hurting child

blood rushes to my finger tips
tears flow from my eyes
1 cut...
2 cuts...
3...
some how i cant stop
the more it hurts is the  more i crave the pain
the more i bleed is the my body desires to feel
i cant stop
1 cut...
2 cuts...
3...
i feel like a fantastic artist
each picture is unique
each scar has a different shape
the blade doesn't think and neither do i
we just work together to make unique lines
1 cut...
2 cuts...
3...
each stroke tells a different story
it's like an endless book
they scream a infinite tales
which no one seems to hear
1 cut...
2 cuts..
3...
the lines tend to fade time after time
but somehow i feel the urge to create new lines
1 cut...
2 cuts...
3...
and soon i'll slowly fall asleep
and the endless story will pass away with me

love *****!
***** because it hurts!
hurts because its torture!
torturing my every being cutting through every thing I am!
i thought it was something good
something exciting
but all it was, is agony
i thought it was ever lasting!
but the only thing that lasted was the pain, heart break and sleepless nights
only my pillow knows my story because it was the only thing there to catch my burning tear drops  
It felt like everything inside is on fire
hundreds of miles of flames destroying everything I've ever known and called love
I felt blank  like there is nothing left of me.

{And now that ******* is "happy" with some other ***** ...
but the truth is there is no on out there that is better then me...
**** boy...}

your love is my drug it keeps me high
your heart is my home the place where i lye
your the wood to my dyeing flames
you keep me burning bright
you my friend to the end
you thought me how to love again

shiny and beautiful you came
when my broken heart needed a place to stay
smiles and laughter you put on my face i can feel my broken heart healing    
once again
sweet kisses and worm hugs you've brought to my life
i can once again see the beautiful lights

i hate you
i hate you because i loved you
loved you so much to get hurt by you
got hurt not because i loved too
got hurt because i loved you
loved you so much to get hurt by you
i got hurt because i fell
fell in love with you
fell because i tried too
tried too hard to forget you  
trying to forget but its really hard to do
doing something to forgive you
for giving because its the right thing to do
maybe something's wrong with you
or
maybe you love to
love to hurt the ones who loved you
and now i truly hate you