I was full of pride
Trying to be the best
The vessel
The good guy

But inside was this small human
So small
Layered up
So afraid
To be seen as weak

My shell began to be more than protection
It began to take control
Control of my emotions
You couldn't see me

I tried
I really did
Or did I ?

But it would just repel
My Ego was too strong
Rooted into my flesh
I needed to break
So I did

I'm not who I was
I know who I am
And I know what I'm not

I'm just tired
Tired of you not knowing me
Of not trying
I am human
You have to show me that you love me
I need to know that everything is okay
That you trust me
You make me feel so small
So tired

I look back
I'm not who I was
My mind has been modified
Transformed
I'm in love with the simple stuff
Life
Humanity
Earth
I'm hungry for compassion
My heart has been touched
I feel the need to spread the word
We are not alone
Peace spreads through my body
For the first time I feel
Alive
This time things will come to their place
I'm in control
I will let things flow
For the first time my soul feels awake
Yes
I am awake.

I just want to feel your heart beat
Pounding into my chest
Feel your warmth
Of your body
As I take hold of your soul

Why am I so cynical about love?
I know it's out there
But I just believe it's not for me
You know

I know love
The kind of love from your friends
But I linger for the type that makes you feel
All this emotions

I tend to run
Away
From feeling like I need someone
Someone who makes you feel complete

I just need time

I ran from love
afraid to get hurt
but it outran me,
tripped me up,
and broke my legs.

Will you teach me,
how to walk again?