Oh*, sway me gently
In this large rustic cradle
Which way to the Nile?

You stared back at me
Smiling
No care in the world
So naive of how ugly you'd become
Unaware of how your life would change
In a matter of just a few years

Your free time consumed of
Hospitals
Blades
Hatred
And sorrow
All combined into one pill
That you take every morning

I'm trying you promise
But I know you just want it all to end
You've become accustomed to being unhappy
Your picture of beauty is not what you see in the mirror
All because of things said to you
Drilled into your brain
Like little nails holding your thoughts together

You spend you nights hurting
Yet you can't cry anymore
You've cried enough tears for two lifetimes
But it never seemed like enough

You'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Because at least that means you're still alive

You're heart's still pumping
Lungs still breathing
Feet still taking steps
Closer and closer to the edge of reality
Losing you sanity
And faith in humanity
Your head spinning in circles
Making you feel so dizzy
That you pulled the trigger

Lowered ten feet under
Into the dirt you barely walked on
So young at heart
But your soul aged too fast

I still hear your voice
I still smell your perfume
I hear your laugh across the room
And so I run to it
Only to find
Nothing

Every year that goes by
I forget more and more about you
Trying to grasp your tiny chubby fingers
So that I don't lose myself
The way I lost you

But just like that
I'm in the same place as you
And you know that means
*I'll never be back

Gonna die broke.

Angst, not this man
That be his plan.
My treat.
Feed the world.
That be the word.

Why eat home tonite?

Get on a plane,
Be the plan.
Feed the world
Specifically,
You and me,
In NYC.

Brasserie,
Patisserie
Hot Dog Cart
Wine Bar
Chinese
Thai
Felafel
Haute Cuisine,
Street steak,
Lean and mean.

Pizza in between
All meals
With white cloth napkins,
Real silverware.

Need your help
To execute
The best laid plan.

But one thing you
You
Need to do,
Need to due.

Bring Milk Duds
For desert.

When the account says zero,
Some might say you're a hero,
Even tho can't afford a casket,
(Maybe just a picnic basket?)
I will be buried with taste!

The taste of you and NYC
Upon his smacking lips,
Une bonne mémoire,
C'est tout, au revoir!

It was a cold day
she stood there content in a way
She was wearing a green sweater
in this cold november weather
Once she saw me she smiled
and i just stood there like a drooling child
She was wearing the green sweater that i had lent her
that october was such a blur
She ran over to me
what was up ahead she did not see
The car crashed into her
once again my eyes did blur
Tears burned my eyes
hoping that what i just witnessed were lies

Left, Right,Left, Right,Left, Right
He walks the streets, not the school hallways
Left, Right,Left, Right,Left, Right
His eyes feel heavy, he was starving not wanting to go to the trash cans for meals
Left, Right,Left, Right,Left, Right
There were drunks unconscious and rebel boys drunk with some party girls
Left, Right,Left, Right,Left, Right
His clothes have been dirt covered for months and ripped
Left, Right,Left, Right,Left, Right
He tries his best to avoid fights but sometimes he can't
Left, Right,Left, Right,Left, Right
He wished his parents didn't just kick him out of the house
Left, Right,Left, Right,Left, Right stop.

I care not about being enemies,
for I did nothing wrong
I wanted not war.
Hell I repeat ,
I did nothing wrong.
Friendship fell because you loved.
Allowed your heart to be caught again!
And you know you did!

Friendship is important in all life good and true.
She was the woman of great intentions.
In flower beds she wrote her name.
She was wizened, but wiser.
Wiser with each passing day.

So if enemies we have to be so.
Then so let it be it my fu**ed up friend.
I did not **** you.
Despite the fact you asked me too.
Not part of my agenda.

Goodbye.
God bless may you find peace.
In writes in mind and pen.
And angel words.
By ladylivvi1

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