I miss a nest
Of frizzy hair
Oh, yes I do
But it doesn't matter

sometimes traumatized people
develop a sick addiction
they love to suffer in silence.

you know, the world is a trauma
it bruises the conscience
aware that you'll die
well then, why even bother?

for some of us **** fits like lock and key
for others the mission
was one for the annals

for others they nap while the puzzle awaits
looking golden,
they let it fade
day by day

what a sad fate for them,
so lazy and frayed
to choose your demise
when you could choose to win.

Iron lords are heavy
Not of just heart
Heavy handed, pete townshend, who are you
The whole 9 yards
Dressed to the nines
Iron bars secure
My iron lord
Glides the metal ghost
On metal tracks

Savor your true heart
Lest it be replaced
By the beam of some structure
A bullet or brace
A bolt or a brandish
A **** or a ball
A chain or a chainsaw
The richest of all

Iron lords adorned
With beads of iron truth
Against living flesh it feels cold
And the room
Buckles in
Like the edge of your death
And pulls through
And leaves you on the other side
With nothing to feel
And open nerve endings

When the truth is iron
It can be blunt or sharp
But keep it away from your ever-loving heart
Or just move to Holland
To the lovely fields of flowers
And stay away from the poppies
Skirt around that graveyard

Sparks fly from the wreck behind,
The wind carries them into a deep May dusk
Extinguishing their life

The wildflowers are blowing
And glowing
With the fire and the rain.

This is the direction I will face from my affect
Casually smoke a cigarette and carry on conversation with two nightingales
Til the early morning hours
Unable assuage my burning conscience

There's a nexus of twisting connective tissue

There's a deep connection between that wreck and my brain,
Between the fire and the rain and the sweat on my face.

There is a lot of swearing and a tearing away
There's a storm and a path that leads to my grave.

That is true,
But you still have your edges
You may be deranged
But I love you anyway.

---- doesn't exist.

That's the space they fold him into,
Easy with some lubrication though altering his form substantially,
Unnatural and making the grumblings of domestic animals,
Writing Orwell into this before even his mother knew it

---- doesn't exist,
The city of Philadelphia could use a good hero
But it sure is hard to find motivation when it doesn't exist

By the wayside,
Cast out by the hard steel walls of fate
Where I found my brother
The reason why we smiled

So put your strength into it and feel her warm blush--
You'll never know a finer thing than life.

die ***** i hate you

i can never erase
the scars i left
on your heart

all the good days in the world
could never change things i've said

there is only one way
that sits right with you

and i can't do that

Is war a freak
Or is he our nature
Is Ares meek
Or Mars the future?

Are factions real,
And do they suffer?
Or are they better,
*******?

What you lose to heat death
Is all you'll gain in this cold life:
She takes you
And makes you
Abstract
Until you're gleaming with a ***** jacket
Sordid skin
Sleeping in this public park until you make it to the west coast
The weather is better there
Maybe you'll find work
In a pizza shop or something

I'll find you. I'm clawing through a labyrinth of flesh
I'll find the main artery and rip out the beating heart
Drink and drink and drink like a dying dog someone left in the desert

Will I find you...?

It's only right the previous owner will have to wander the same distance through the afterlife
To find the waters of retribution

You need to tell me when,
I gotta tell you too:
I'll be a lost cause
If you want me to.

You need to push the pin
I need that sweet red juice
I'll be a bad *****
If you want me to.

A bad *****, bad attitude.
Bad *****, bad attitude.

Don't cry to me,
I'm not in the mood
I'll be a lost cause
If you want me to

When these walls are thick
You're in the other room
A lost cause
Cuz you want me to

You need to put me there
Where you can say I'm square
You need to
Feel **** in your underwear
But you need to change
I don't mean to stare
I'll be a
Bad ***** if you want me to

Bad *****, I'm not in the mood

I'll be a bad, bad, girl, daddy.

I like the way
Your smile cracks the sky
I like the way you vibe
Always took me for a ride

The chasm doesn't gleam
But all your black is sleek
It flickers just like teeth
In the space before my body

But where is the light coming from?

Dindle, dindle
Moffy harat--
Sopol washay kivy Karrem...

Haloolay, binsweepbmigoo!
Dashal lats a hamy dreamdrop.

Ash laren ta wa hoofy morden,
Anwal op tot gooris mork

Hing, sweech, dench, boon:
Ommay carse a see-tee korbin.

Ommay narch a long bingboon.

Ommay larse a leech, leechy bimbat a sa tarray en flelnflap.

Acatosteh.

Some girls
Make me hesitate
Some girls
Make me think twice
About the years
Spent obsessing over you

I mean

We only dated for a year
I was nineteen, and you
Were twenty-three
But it was a drop of honey
& My brain chemistry

And besides I love them through you,
You should know you're quite dissolved
Quite precipitated
Kind of like my fall

But what never quite leaves me
Is the burn from how you'd smile
What big skies you held captive in your eyes
With strong, muscular thighs
Little golden hairs
And impervious bones of glass

Every angle you bend the sun is genius
And you give it
A shot of firewhiskey

Sharkdoze a waisoden,
May kawaki sanden
Iffle wy kaberkisten
An mash dat hazzazen WIF.

Zeekerboxen haddlemat gwerly
Ashoo, ashoo, ashoo

Zeekermoxen ganderbly heekhok:
Manersim widdot gamookie.

Quinhingle zanstermax habeebop

Fwa da pronsenous misgaret, ahsem trungit me ligamo!

You're a dead duck floating morbidly in April's sunny pond
How anyone'll ever talk to you I'll never know
I'm hardly interested
Don't come to me with those questions
Didn't you hear his last squawk

I watch you shiftily between the reeds,
Waiting for you to do something but you never came

Now you have me feeling like a crazy man,
Out kneeling by this pond and peering between the reeds

It smells here

I think I'm just gonna pack up & head back home

You wanted me
To be on top of that ****
To be electric
Setting fire to your atmosphere
Taking control
Providing your sky with something certain

You wanted me
To be something you need
To be something you see
To be something you greed

But never should I be
Something disagreed
Taking from your meal
Spending all your seed

Spoiling your feed
Loosing all your mead
Never taking heed
To a single thing you need...!

you were a flash of vibrant color,
then my back hit the ground.

suddenly,
my chest was breathless
and i watched vile things grow from the pause in my body

collecting by the Susquehanna when you never came,
i knew impotence would follow me home to Hatfield
and it did,

more rot from frozen frames
when being locked up got me locked up
a nightmare blossomed

i sang of black roses on your bedroom door

but there were red ones too.

i sat and played back colors on the projector screen
and said my favorite one was blonde,
so strong
so rect
Alive

feeling these new thorns
that were not yours
they made me wish i'd held you more gingerly

because then you were other things
loosing blood you didn't need
and staring at me from space with one black
empty eye
******* at life with your emptiness
keeping kernels that tell questions
and filling sacred chests
with ugly floods of color

now you unfold over that ridge,
San Antonio
far from anything and anyone
i've ever known

totally novel.

liberation beckons me

liberation from the past
from self-pity
from the dirt you shoveled early

& for the first time that girl
is fading from my mind
but i'm in love with it.

i don't think she'll ever really leave.

Death comes to you in translucent sheets.

These
Are no laurels
Nothing stands to gain

Only withering,
Wilting allowed in this space

And on these thin translucent sheets
Please let me write my name
I dedicate this blood and breath
To the one who stole my breath away

I guess that they were partly right
They said he comes like a thief at night
I guess that makes you Jesus Christ
And leaves me with the weight of light

Detectives are dissolvable
When viewed like a disease

When kept safe from infection,
Evil finds its ease

So many different methods
To burn away two pleas

For sick and sad attention,
They never wanted these

A minor operation
We'll have to cut the eyes
Oh no, the mouth is spurting on--
I guess it's telling lies
Incision at the jugular
Explosion, all the same
With one clandestine movement
You'll never know my name

he twisted time and space into a trap
and right now, she's slipping into it
he's got her hooked up to his computer
with tubes and wires
he is pinging, trying to hack her system

lesions tear in her tissue before she feels them.
in the dilapidated throne of his mind,
the knowledge of his rapacity
a grotesque evil guarded by a court in denial

he feeds on her in secret,
numbing her to the feeling of his hungry maw
and he hopes she will not feel the scars tomorrow

that is where she is,
but not anymore
because while i sit on the other side
of these walls of space and time
you broke in
and made the world pregnant with healing

Too lame for you
You will bubble across my cortex until it expires
My pretty hell--
I fall away from the universe
In the shape of your body

Crusty old guitar
Rusty little digits
Twenty six years old
Death is but a ******

I might just be lying
I might just be drunk
I could still catch fire
******* in the trunk

a voice that belongs to the winds of the wilderness
strong thighs running like the Susquehanna through its cold, grey morning
she speaks from the hearth of her gut of a lust for life
dives through the waves and into the distance
never to be seen again

the devil lives
in all our stomachs
souring them

when we know what we could do to ourselves
what we would do
with a different brain
in a different time and space

children collide
they burst each other's bubbles
decay and create more

when he stops to feel whole
call it wholesome

but when it's fight or it's flight
that's just another night

be the juiciest meatsack,
i mean, really govern your meat
let your meaty dance of love
mean satan's defeat.

success is on the way
if you just arrange your meat
in the right configuration
for success to come your way.

and hey now, if it doesn't
well... don't you look at me
i slashed all of your tires
but i live inside the sea,

i'm just your secret admirer!
but that doesn't always mean
that i have the best intentions
for the peace inside your dream.

so juice on, little meatsack
i was joking, by the way
i guess i'm just the doctor
that welcomed you to this *******.

woops

Eudaimonia:
Once you were elusive

Now,
I feel the redshift in my bones.

I know that god watches me in stunning HD,
Has the whole thing on blu-ray--
But I've smudged my eyes and blurred my brain.

I've stomped my heart in the raging forum
To scoop it back up beneath my jacket
And scurry off like a disgraced man.

And I have ridden my bike headlong into traffic.

So now when I think about stars beyond that horizon
For me there is a despondence in their leaving:
A permanent obscurity gnaws at my mind.

But I'm a crusader after the holy grail,
A politician after world peace. No--
I'm a priest tripping on acid, staring at stained glass windows.

I worry that the Enemy has already made a feast of me
That in defense of myself I'd come undone
And be left with little pebbles
Eudaimonia
Are we too late

drugs or obstacles
do them all in a frenzy
they'll leave you high and dry
let's hope the good ones are in stock

you tripped on me,
i think i tripped on you too

connected and secure
then we are fallen apart
this is a delicate dance
let's do it on our hands!

you tripped on me,
i think i tripped on you too

or we can just listen to R.E.M.'s "Stand"
i'm not gonna panic, i'd rather just dance
i'm not gonna trip,
you tripped on me.

i think i tripped on you too,
but i'm choosing not to talk about that right now.

A heart knew love
But was stunted,
It screamed

A scream found its ears
Planted just across the stream

But when push came to shove,
A heart lost its love
And screaming was empty,
Just wind through the trees

let's find ourselves anew

knowing gold to be
illusory,
just load me in
a cannon and
set the fuse alight!

a world away, a world away

blow your hands and roll the dice!
if the weather isn't nice,
you can hibernate
or migrate
like the animals do.

a world away, a world away

inspired by the moment
just as if you really owned it
let it go, it's here to stay
worlds away,
a world away

Science caught you red-handed
Science found you out
Romance in your right
But in your left was always doubt

Dexterous and sinister
You pulled the money in
Now none is left for me, or mine
Or any of our kin

Science left you cynical
Chest and in the head
Just focus on the positives
And focus
...on the bed.

you don't have to face it.

you can just fold fleshy time
into the space where you hurt kandace,
or into cracks in the pavement
hit it with drugs like round-up for god's good garden,
you don't have to face it

tell them your blood's black instead
of red,
do this by telling them your blood's still red--
oh what
did you ever
mean?

there was never a nuclear bomb to hide away
it started with just a rattling on the left axle
but you kept bailing out

you were never mister celebrity jesus
you were Himself,
but
you don't have to face it.

whatsamatter honey
ain't it a good time
ain't it the right time

whatsamatter honey
ain't it the right time
ain't i the right guy

Touch me with your **** little feet,
In your bright colored ankle socks :3

I don't care if they're holey
I don't care if they're new

Caress my **** with your cute little socks
And tease me til I'm hard as a rock ;)

I have always hated you,
And you have always hated me.

I never got your schedule down--

One day I burned it.
You took my clothes.

I leave us all hanging when I'm off on my joyrides.

You didn't believe me when she lied.

Sometimes I break things when I get angry.

When I'm upset, it's the most glaring double standard,
And now I'm a little too spun to hold on tight
Or loose--
And that's my fault.

Your culture is so stupid...
You can't Talk about Cancer.

I love finding flaws in your framework,
Poking holes in your politics,
But I always remember
Why law(yers) exist in the first place...
Because we're flawed.

Because we're flawed,
And she is beautiful.

I was thinking about dressing as a nerdy comic scientist,
And going into town and running experiments

To show you I'm still alive,
To show you I'm not just some boring dead guy

I'd bring a measuring tape or a ruler
And see if the grass grew any longer after you stepped on it
See if the river ran any slower when you walked by

And if people asked what it is we were doing
I'd ask them to rate you on a scale from 10 to 10

And I'd just joke around with them like that
Do funny things,
It'd be the weirdest date ever.

there is something so eloquent about
you,
there is something so wrong about being
blessed
something so right about being
me

and i think a large part of that is actually you,
with your
lessons
and
good vibes
and
sweet exercise.

it's just true.

fold me in
and in again
pages full of sand, palm trees, blue skies

the gulf is strange and alien,
greenish,
and at night the moon howls like the punctured sky
because i am so insane
because i got here so ...fast.

cars fly to and from the sea,
spinning me

my weathervane will eventually build a surrounding ...structure.
what i lack in confidence i make up for in sensitivity
don't you feel both sides working?
don't you wanna feel both sides working?
but for now i'll dream of prototypes
like leonardo's flying machine.

and she,
she is way too casual with adamant muscles
talking, walking, everything coolly
with a strong knot of muscle in the middle

we walk into the moon with beads of hope
just condensation on our hearts
that collects and glows
when we fall asleep

I hate you,
Why did you leave me,
Now i never try.

I hate you,
Why did you leave me,
You're in disguise.

And I'll never forgive you
For leaving and laying me down in my grave
Down in my grave

I guess I'll never forgive you
No matter what I say
I say

I hate you
You left me
Now I'm giving up

I hate us
We left me
Now I'm given up

It's precious
Don't waste it
She don't lie when you taste it
A better man saved it
A better man saved it
A better man saved it
A lazy man wasted

Laying in bed
With my head by the window
I slip from my mind in a nocturne...

Plinking along golden streams and pearls
Consisting of tinsil and solid gold
Consisting of yellow petals and glitter glue,
Til my spirit gave a drop
Of blue.

I can be the yoni, who are you
I can be the pools of purple, navy trees and deep black breath
Of Everything, opening up
Reforming then,
As you.

So sing into my body,
I'll be back in a few!

With answers that dance
In a cancerous soup...

And I'll placate my palate
With your gems
In my teeth.

sometimes i don't think
i panic
spout gibberish into the night
call it life

Goopy shmoopy gadaloopie,
Snorg a snorg a drape a drane.
What if the cops had all the power?
Asa waisa majah train.

Ganz snas a gappa worp
Hoogie doogie gadanoopie.
Buster brown's not gonna like this
Orz snorz a borz lorz.

i can't say i love you

i'm peeling back my flesh to black
so i can Understand
so i can **** It Up
i don't love you anymore
stop bothering me
i just want a place to stay
i just want a place of my own

i don't
*******
love you

Aries' hair falls on your face

Heavenly curtains
The color of mahogany

Her cheeks are perky with a radiant smile
Her skin too tight to pinch

The wind picks up and she blows away
Like a dandelion seed hanging just by a fiber
Off of your chest and into the sky

You watched her float away like a little kid
And his birthday balloon.

...

There is nothing wrong about that.

Only you can:
Make a fool of yourself
Fix this mess
Prevent forest fires

Smokey the bear can't save me now
I'm gonna need to leave this one behind
She stood by the forest with sad, sad eyes

And just as I'm tracking the miles
A molotov cocktail fell thru my sun roof
And I got scared
Suddenly I look a lot
Like smokey the carnival bear (set free, and your love is anemic...)

I told her, I wouldn't care
I just need to cut out all the extra ****.
Flicking lighters
Just to show it's lit
Let yourself see the amazing animal inside
A heart of compassion, winnow that pride

Whatever she does,
You were the one
So act like it

no, the sky is not blue
it is gritty,
and tan

now it's black
hard to breathe
but the sun
's on my back.

no, the sky is not blue
and it couldn't spawn you
all your mecha,
and ****
all the ****
that you rock

never practiced guitar
i just noodled around
never wrote out a novel
just sat on the ground
and arranged different leaves
with the things that i found
back when textbooks and teachers
to my life were bound

my head in the sand
i'll die an old man
let down, high and dry
by a lazy, scared boy shaking
like a leaf
oh, that was almost something
let's keep it

*what is litotes again
what is ...paraprosdokion?