How could anyone fall for someone so broken.
So emotionally unwound and desolate.
I don't understand how anyone could find
Someone like that, so attractive.
In many circumstances I've found myself to be
Rather repulsive actually.
I would advise you to run in the opposite
Direction, but I would be even more miserable..
Maybe someday this could turn out to be easier,
Eventually, when i put my pieces back together.
Until then I hope I don't tear your heart to pieces,
The way mine has been strewn..
As I lay here, dreaming of how things
Could have been, should have been.. If I wasn't
Always in the wrong place at the wrong time,
Maybe then my life would make sense..however
I can't go back, no matter how many times I
Wish for it.. I just have to learn to deal with the
Consequences of someone else's actions..
How terrible of a thing to deal with.
It's hard to wake up knowing your life will never
Be "normal" again like the others.. But you have to
Deal, and that's what hurts the most..
Thinking "no one understands me" or would
Ever want to live your life.. Someday maybe that
Can be forgotten and and pushed behind a closed
Door.. Doubtful but maybe, in a perfect world..
Not my world..