I made the mistake
Of thinking this stupid
Idea would be fun.
I already forgot what it's like
To go on living my **** life
You've got no idea,
How hard it is too forget you,
And you've got no problem forgetting me.
I'm going crazy sitting here
Thinking what if, could it be,
But I can't do this **** anymore.
I lay in bed, dreaming of you
Thoughts dancing in and out,
You make me feel so alive.
Holy ****, Ive always loved you.
I can't keep doing this to myself.
All you're doing is playing mind tricks.
You're fading. I stopped trying.
I won't look your way,
I won't try this again.
How could you do this to me?
Fill me with so much love and just
Leave me with so much hate..?
I heard you found someone new,
While I lay here trying to grasp how
The hell you can be just fine..
Only way to get on with it,
Is to just keep living my life,
I won't love you again.
You can't love something again
You don't stop loving.
I will always love you.
Written for a friend