Warped begging in agony
Convulsions of a depleted  past
A black out , with lights swirling in my mind
Can't escape this lifeline
The emptiness is binding
Etched scars  that restore the wounds
Your heart is a trap
Where scorched memories lie

Women soar after beauty
It is essential
Bare ******* beneath an empty soul
Swimming in the wind of dreams
I’m flooded  with sweetness
This is not enough
I am not tiny
My ribs don’t protrude
I have visions of gardens and frantic full moons
Ships that have sailed
Women who have failed
No one person is perfect
Neither you or I
I don’t live in the shadows of who I could be
For I am not ashamed of who I have become
I am a young mother
I am a lover
I am a poet
Wearing her heart on her sleeve
I have had many failures
They help me to grow
All of this makes me

Surrounded by the great lakes
Perhaps this is why I feel like I'm drowning

Fists bruised,trembling,  and drowning down
The death sweat invites the cold horrors
The curse of blinding pain
Ruthless and wicked
White mouths escaping outside
A cruel bird screams through the images
A soul of sorrow walks outside

A faded white bird of beauty
Flapping like stars of ice through the breeze
Empty eyes bellowing
Losing faith that should not be
Feeble attempts to leave the ground

Fluffing out his feathers with dedication
As the ghosts of his heart begin to ascend
Collecting clouds imaging the heavens above
The depths of the moonlight
Strange and shard like barb- wire
Death fogged the interpretation of this place
You lay still and cold
With strings tied to your face
Almost impossible to forgo these wings
As the atmosphere melts  on me
I descend into the breeze
Farewell with rust in my mouth
I go into a unstoppable wind

The heart of America
Beatings and rapes and so much more all on the morning news
A man addicted with ****, yet refuses to look at his wife  
A world of fallen grace
A dispirited mind chasing drugs, not to feel
Speaking does not seem to be the way
Nobody listens anyway
Lack of mental health support
Loss of empathy for your fellow man
Little girls as young as five,   dressed up like they are 25
Men and women who served to keep us free, neglected and disrespected.
Men beating, or killing there wives
Why do women and young girls feel forced to be thin?
There are more critical issues than weight
Promises being broken by our own president
Losing health care plans and some paying even more
The cost of government regulations, growing ever higher
As we become more connected, we grow more disconnected
In our electronic age our relationships we disengage

As a tree has ripened  inside me
Twigs of fatigue
That are soulless
Raw and released
My hands are oppressed
My reasoning is heavy
I'm aware that I'm,  ready to succumb

It is the summer of my seed
My time to taste the fire
A nest of kisses, lit by the summer moon
I  lay in the shadows of the  grass
My champagne hair rests into your lap
The river murmurs with peace
Your body like a maze that my fingers graze

You entice me, your desire is not unheard
It is the harbor of me that you will enter
Your hands are rugged, yet your delicate
Shuddering with fear of the unknown
Feeling my pelvis  tighten
You smell  of refined  honey
You induce waves into my spinning mind
Fevered, desirous twists and enrich
Your fingers glide  across my craving *******
My pink buds rise with your kiss
Savoring every profound trail you embark upon
Every layer you discover  intoxicates  me
Aching  with a frenzied hunger
Placing my fingers I fidget and skim the forbidden
I explore your arousal
I follow the curve of your arch with my  ***** lips
I stir  over the head of your manhood
Rotating and circling I feel you widen
Becoming devoted and curious I  increase my speed
I engorge and drink your ecstasy
Trembling as you ******
Aching to infuse me with lovers perfume

You  lay me down ,alluringly you nip at my thighs
As I covet for your  introduction feeling hypnotized
My flesh awakens, as my petal grows
Your tongue flutters across my silky spot
I'm  breathless and anchored
Euphoric gratification embraces my body

You  ease filling the inside of me
We blend together
Your manhood encounters my blossom
I inhale as feverish luster takes over
You caress the curves of my back
I moan with pleasure
As we discover one another ,we are the echo of our youth

Paint my face
With scraps of white
Untangled the vines that hold me tight
Your an a dreamer wish  me away
Hang me from a clothesline
Startle my mind
Make me brittle so I can crack
I'm hung out to rot
As I leak out my  remaining decay

Welcome into this kindling worship
Where the sensualism is regained
The atomsphere penetrates the frailty
Spiraling and enwrapping into vulnerability
Giving me words of ease
With fairytales of ecstacy
My vanilla tunnels belongs to you
Eyelashes heavy from your tears
I have found, and fallen from the heavens
Dancing freely, in melting candles not afraid to burn
I construct you with my hands

Yet you bury, and cast me far from hours in the distance
Unrooting my voice in the wind
Stretching scars, recasting fury

The music dances in the light
In the corner someone holds a microphone
I don’t seem to know anyone here
The whiskey taste so fresh
My head is not so clear
I close my eyes hoping to find some part of me
I often wonder if someone is watching me?
Seeing the imperfections in my face
Studying  my eyes and singing me the blues
Its hazy in here as I inhale the stale air
Gasping for a reason to survive
I can hear glasses clanging people yelling “cheers”
My head disappears soon my heart will follow
The time seems to stand still
I look around the room
I see myself in the womb
So restful and secure just a little soul with no cares
I bathe in this water not yet affected
Have not lived does not yet know the worries of fear

I creep past the sunlight
Reflecting on the broken miles
Strings of a perfect facade
Mixed with droplets of scars
Clutching on the wingtip of my hymn  
Repugnant moments spew out my drunken dreams
As an sequestered curse replays the tragedy

Wasted and wilted don’t give a ****
I thought you were mine but now you ran
I long to search your eyes looking for my soul
You turned out to be a no good useless *****
I ****** your mouth dry
Pulled your hair and made you cry
Looking at me sad this had to be
You were a ***** that liked it all
When I would stick a needle in your arm
You became mine
You’re my addiction my need
Watching you collapse on the floor
Falling off the edge of the earth
I wanted to make you collide
My fingers trace those pretty lines I made
I will give you more when you need
Watching you heave up my ***  
I want to stick you where you belong
Breathless and lifeless
Not speaking a sound
You have no memories I washed them away
They are broken today
Watch your pretty blue eyes turn red
Watch you struggle to scream
As you lay at my feet
Begging for more I watch you turn into dark

Molecules of grief
With fistfuls of lunar moons
Uprooted universe departing this earth

Fistfuls of the moon
A winged beast dispirited and weak
I have caught the crying disease

Heavy fog,  wrapped  in the valleys
Hands are pages that can be read
New art with a old heart
Standing in air,  without a breath to spare
Days have grown long , since we  clashed  with each other
Spinning without motivation
As a comatose path descends  
My lover is the soul of it all

I felt your face fade
Across the ruins against the sea
Whiskey edged cracks
As I gazed into the light
Picturing fields of poetry
Stroking the teeth of my spin
Frail stars trembling
As the roots trickle
Impatiently clustering the handfuls of voices that I unpeeled
Removing my lips with nothing to say
I glue my eyes with  convictions
I'm tilted on the edge of earth
Stuffing the truth down into the mass in my throat

What is the sound of a heartache?
A bird whispers then dies
What is the sound of a heart break?
Maybe silence, it has no sound
Singing to the heavens
Something so sweet
A melody that can drift you away
Give you freedom and love

Debilitated beams of moonlight enter
This darkened church as I kneel
Always sorrowful, always lost
Frigid here as I wait
Tortured silhouettes fashioned in panes of glass
As dust dances in the air
Creating an image in my mind
Penetrating my humiliated flesh
With the colorlessness of humanity's face
I raise my head, now kneeling before
This merciless mortality.

A torn trace of detached memories
That are packed into my content
Consumed and eaten down
You wrathful drunk
I release demise on your entity
Roaring like thunder
That is  irate

Ripples out  in the sea
Skinned deafening pain
As a tragedy blossoms
Unrest days that seemed everlasting
Dandelion eyelids full of fireflies
Miles of wounding prayers
Braches have become weak
A cradle of beliefs that has vanished away

You unravel the layers of my youth

Taking something that should not want

Looking to find my little pearl

I still like swing sets and baby dolls

My blond ponytails dance on my back

You hold me I  bruise

I shall not mutter a word

In a world full of languages I cant speak    

For I cant see clearly let MY youth be washed away    

I go to embrace the one whos suppose to  protect me

YOU

I take one then I take two
The feeling is setting in letting me loose
The tears subside my skin starts to feel fine
I take another its so warm
Put my lips on a bottle that never seems to last
Not sure why today
Inside I’m dying of the past
The metal taste on my tongue
Coated white until things start to appear
Will this be the last time my head starts to scream
Devouring all the carnage that I dream
Is this it?
I must ask

I felt you  put me on a pedestal
Until the  day you pushed me down
A bridge of bruises spans our time
I kiss the floorboards of broken promises
Pieces of my tooth dance across the floor
Yet, I handed you my spine
A rope of glass shards I can't hold on
The sky is corroded with my pain

Cotton teeth of the god of mountains
The dust of the golden sky
Burning heavy kisses
The ocean slippery from your roots
Breathing  with bursts of smoke
Infinite delicate edge  of whispers
As  the sound of  dawn is gently still

Beneath the drifts of the garden space
Sealed with fluttering rays of the pollen ghosts
Incense trees protect frail memories of thee
The hyacinths shadows stained with purple ink
Hollow roots husks and grains frolicking with the dust in the air
The sunbeams glimmer with great splendor
Dutch Master Daffodils blossom into a luminous blaze
The breeze of the heavens convey peace and unity
The field is sun stamped with spirits and mysteries
As the petals sail across the field
Pine trees sway in the early morning sun
The sloping hillside is dotted with mounds of earth
Providing splotches of brown among the hues of green
Overhead birds soar wildly across the magnificent sky
Whispering trees shelter the secrets and the infliction's
The solitude gives me peace
Fills me within

As you distort me
Eating me away
Crush my bones inhale them in a line
**** me away
Tell me a fable
Turn the time
Taste the rain
Let go of the past
I long to release these tears
Disillusioned to the truth
Consume the cells to my heart
The marrow of my path
Galvanize me with your current
Intoxicate my brain
Carve at my scars that you gave

I carve my own language into the curve of the moonlight
Scraps of stars paralyze my demise
I  chase the  lace horizon into oblivion

I was fine, in one piece
You sought to paralyze me, though I thrived  
*******, blackened eye
*******, broken teeth
*******, bloodied face
Running from myself inside of my head ,and there is no room left
My heart is my diary, under lock and key
Your tounge is your  noose
My indignation is your gallows

Violets heavy with the night rain
As the fatigued stars start to spill
I catch them
Filling my pockets with dreams

Pink champagne on ice
Fifty dollar room
Licking scars
Living Life

Your skin tantalizes me
Makes me crave you more
I need to be one with you
Your lips lingering on mine
Taste the wine of our love
I need you more than anything
The outlines of my body you trace
So precisely
You study me like a old  painting
It feels as though I have known you before
I want to hear you say words that settle my core
Ones that give me strength and makes me believe
This ecstasy can't be contained
Making me want you
Making me  need
I am your addiction you are my feed  
Your eyes tell  stories of lust and deprivation
I will fill you
Make you whole

You nose-dived into my mind, through layers of affliction
Removing the knots from my heartstrings
My lips quivering
Freebase powder flowing loosely,across my disguise
I have perfected impersonating whom, I use to be

Puddles of blood,  making the leaves red
A muted soft rain flowing
With sparks of stars
Blackbirds are shy tonight
Purple blotches on her face
As her lifeless body lay
With  trauma on her face
I need to cage my mind
What did I do ?

Written with my tongue
A composer with shadows of life
Cracking rain grasps and sweeps
A eclipse for the lonely skin
Bones curled,smeared with your grave
Weaving  on the wings of harmony

Ashes dance in the air
Assembling an image in my head
Paleness on a deathless face
As I crawl to this brutal realitly
The red tears stream as I weep for you

Flying into fate
Undersea I will heave
Were bottomless as it appears
Handfuls of love
That I will hold
Attaching the root of my tears
Dusty jagged pieces of demise
Our nest has wings we wear in the night
Our cells are feeble
As I heave them into the sky
Climaxing without a sound
Between my hips unavailing the mystery of this love
Lily's dust the calloused roots of truth
Smoking sidewalks jagged and raw
Expressions grasped with humanity and bliss

I have scars
I wear them so proud
They are paper thin
My nails touch them so gentle so clean
Passing me by are the stars
In my mind I created you
Watching you stand all alone
But  I’m stranded here between relapse and recovery
I have looked into the eyes of your soul
Many times before but always ask why?
Can I find a way home?

I quilt and stitch my tears together
The dismay of change keeps me restrained
The stains of winter confine my grief