Driving alone one night
Strolling the city line
With thoughts as my map
The streets were all mine

I counted the lamp post
as it passed me in a flash
my thoughts wandered
meeting a Honda in a crash

I dashed out the windscreen
headbutted it wide open
It exploded like a grenade
glasses exploded into fragments

I saw a white flash
right in front of my ****** eyes
I see a motorcycle colliding
I thought I was going to die

As it skidded its way to me
I closed my eyes and pray
If today was my end
This was not the way

Silence followed by
I thought I was in heaven
I slowly opened my eyes
There I was in a tavern

I saw you from afar
in a beautiful blue dress
You were like a painting
So vividly picturesque

I began to stand up
To try to walk to you
I knew who you were
my sweet honeydew

A man walked over
his hands reached for you
He leaned over for a kiss
And returned it, did, you

Your lips faintly curled up
A smile partnered your face
A shrieking laughter ensued
broken I was in many ways

I slowed my steps to a halt
And began retreating the troops
With the shattered pieces of my heart
I crept back into the woods

I sat between a tree trunk
Wondering who I saw
I was sure it was you
But I can't be sure anymore

Crows chirped above me
The dark skies were lonely
This scourge I felt inside
Will forever be my company

I knew I had to let you go
I didn't recognize your smile
He has given you something
that I could not for awhile

So I closed my eyes again
As I seeped into insanity
Finding the way to forget
the route to our eternity

I was lost in the maze
Completely unaware
I was running in opposite
but I saw you everywhere

I was jolted up awake
I saw my windscreen broken
My hands were red shot ******
Everything else were opened

I looked to my left to find you
nothing but pieces of glass
I looked ahead in front of me
there you were on the grass

You were there laid still
I could not see you breathe
Your face was just as ******
It was slowly flowing beneath

I crawled slowly to you
and tried to hold your hand
I didn't know which was worst
This or a kiss from that man

Either way I knew somehow
I was about to lose you
Terrified of losing time
I told you what I knew

"I wished I had more time
I wished we had an avenue
But now I wish you happiness
in all the ways he treats you.

Just know that I will miss you
and I will never ever forget
the short moments we endured
the blood, the tears, the sweat."

Just as I finished those words
her eyes drooped to a close
she held my hands tightly
as I completed my prose

I guess now it's the end
I have completely lost her
Not an edge of life hung
in the balance of her wonder

Years have past me by
and I still think of her
I loved her intensely
but now it's just a blur.

My muse diffused
A love abused
The news infused
My dream refused.

Your life deduced
My life reduced
Our lives seduced
In the end confused.

Words effused
Our lines reused
My passion disused
Together, bemused.

Our game overused
Our emotions excused
Our love perused
But really misused.

In life there aren’t many things that we could save
Not everything works the way you want them to
not everything last for the period you foresee them to last.
It just happens.
You love someone that you can't
and then they go on and love somebody else
and you mourn as though life is over
and your dog is dead
but then one morning you wake up, fresh and awake
and with a clear head you realize you've felt nothing but numbness.
You just couldn't take the heart ache anymore.
You realize nothing last
and things that doesn't last
doesn't need much of your time anyway.
So you slowly slip away
you slowly let go
and you slowly
treat everyone you've met
a stranger
and every love you gave
an unfounded charity
like something of meaning to the other person
but something you will probably forget
They probably won't remember
what you've done for them
words that were said to them
nights spent thinking about them
and words arranged in ways
to preoccupy their minds
with the rhymes in your sentences
Because in life
when the time to let go comes
you always try to sleep it off.

So now she's gone from the tips of your fingers
You realize she has flown away somewhere
and really there isn't much you can do because
well...
there really isn't much to do
when both your lives are being lived
on separate parallel lanes.
People collide and passion sparked
but what you have
is an accident at an intersection
and for that few blissful moments
you realize that moment
will be eternally yours
even if you look back years later.
She may be gone
and you may live on
on your own path of life
but you will forever remember
that bright sunny day
when you met her
despite all your own baggage
at that beautiful intersection
when you spoke under the rays of the sun
and when the rest was pretty much
the beginning of your end.

If the wind could see you
The world would have been airless
Trees will no longer look breezy
And the night will be hot as hell.

The wind would stop dead
Clouds will turn into marshmallows
The stuffiness of its harsh mellow
Will turn flowers black and blue.

The wind will contain no life
For you have drawn it dry from its well
The wind will move as though unmoving
Through our hairs, on our skin, nothing.

If the wind could see you
My life would have been done and dusted
In the coffin of my sultry yearning for you
I crave the dampness of your slender touch.

The wind would stop and stare
And everything would need to halt
The birds will balance in the middle of the sky
As your beauty took the place of their wings.

The wind would slowly turn into you
As it gazes upon your beauty and magnetism
It transforms its formless body into your figure
Slowly capturing every single detail of your glory.

The breeze and the air-stream will smell like you
And as it travels through my life I will smile
Because then I will have you forever by my side
In the wind, the particles, the abyss of your mind.

You sang to me
Your voice lingers
in the stillness of the air
and it travels
in the the quietness of the night
seeping through every inch of solitude
on a cloud of soft melody
that cuts through finely
and enters the cracks of my heart.

You sang to me
Your priceless expression
when you force your voice
out of your lungs
eyes closed and hands squeezed
as you mouth the lyrics
that matches the darkest secret
in your deepest jar of hearts

You sang to me
the walls heard you
as the meanings of every note
sank deep inside my soul
as it tries to decipher meanings
like a rubik's cube
twisting, turning, looking
into your cryptic eyes
for a sign.

You sang to me
that voice I shall never forget
the veins on your neck
as the song of despair
travels through your windpipes
will forever be scarred
in my memory
how it pops up searching for me
how it expands as your blood
searches for me in your head
how it flows indefinitely.

You sang to me
heaven awoke and hell broke loose
because I remember the songs
the choice
the timing
the kiss
the accentuated lyrics
the duet
the melodic waves of sounds
that completes the vagueness
of the room,
the darkness
of our hearts,
with an unbiased
yet unspoken
sets of words.

But you sang to me
and that was enough.

I am so **** tired
to always be
holding on
to this
hand.

I am so **** tired
to always think
that we will
always
last

I am so **** tired
of missing you
because I
know you
don't

I am so **** tired
of wanting you
when I know
we will
cease

I am so **** tired
eyes closing shut
view of you
slowly
fades

I am so **** tired
feelings for you
suppressed deep
inside
me

I am so **** tired
I cannot wait
I just can't
I just...
can't...

...

There is nothing in this world
that i want more
than to stop seeing you

Not because i hate you
but because i don't know
how to
love
you
...