i feel like i've always known people
on the surface
and hid my true self from others for years
i crave deep relationships
but hopefully
i can let go of my fear
and just be myself
and i guess sometimes
you need those surface level friendships
to make you appreciate your deeper relationships more

the worst type of loneliness
is when you're surrounded by a sea of people
yet you feel invisible
and alone
that no one cares about you
and you sit there in pity
feeling so empty inside

i feel like i've always never been good with words
maybe that's why i talk inside my head so much
afraid to share what's on my mind
and heart
of being judged
sounding weird
or stupid
but true beauty
is meant to be felt
not seen or heard

I have learned that there is beauty in the silent and quiet.
That you don't have speak eloquent words to be heard, seen, or understood.
Your presence alone is enough.