i hope it seared you,
this moment
your lips on mine
every crease of my mouth
imprinted in your memory
formaldehyde kisses so perfectly preserved

I know you've been hurting, trying to close that curtain,

Shut out the world, put down what's been lurking

inside you, it's ripping at your insides,

You try to run, but you can't hide,

You tried to fly, but you only glide

And it's unlikely that you'll land lightly,

I'd try to catch you, but you'd try to miss, to spite me,

I know sometimes I might seem mad,

But I can't let go of what I once had,

I'm not trying to make you feel bad,

I just wish you'd take the time to listen

to the words I'm trying to say and

that I'm cut dry, I'm dying, you know I can't lie,

I wish you'd see why I'm holding you so closely,

You're the glue, binding by broken heart,

Like a missing part, without you I start to fall apart,

I'm trying to stand tall, but my knees are shaking,

My mind is caving, every step I'm taking

is breaking my legs, my blood pools like a lake in

my chest because my heart's been torn open,

my happiness has been stolen, and I'm having trouble

coping with all this emotion, my thoughts are forming

so quickly, they're smoking, I can't tell if I'm joking,

or if I'm screaming out, hoping that someone will

notice that I'm broken, but I guess I'm too outspoken

to be considered anything but happy, actually,

I'm pretty sappy, and I'd gladly rejoice if, for once, someone would hear my real voice,

Until then, my tears will fall silently, like the rain drops on my window

that I just won't hear, I've lost myself within the confines of my own mind,

I can't help but express these feelings line after line,

It's like all these rhymes help this time fly by,

And I can finally feel alive, then I try to walk away, and my heart just writhes

in pain when the memory of you brushes past my head, or when sometimes

I swear that I can smell your perfume, it's like I'm playing

a game of "guess who" with myself, and I don't think it's

healthy to be this caught up in something like this,

but I can't help but miss the feeling of your kiss on my lips,

I miss it so much I swear it's making me sick,

I don't think I can handle this, I swear it's madness,

I just need to talk, that's all I can ask for,

So, please, won't you open that door,

Let me, it'a what I'm on my knees begging for.

Every single word I say
Will haunt me again someday
Take your fill
I will

All the letters that I write
Will return just out of spite
Like a kid I left at someones door
They'll knock on mine
Be wanting more
Take your fill
I will

Every time I close my eyes
I know they're up there in the skies
Waiting for things to go south
So they can crawl back in my mouth
Take your fill
I will

This warm embrace
This growing romance
For something that should not be
Blind& subdued by the lust that sets me free

This warm embrace
swallows my faith
and burdens my sprint
I hate what we do
I hate what I do to you
But all is forgotten all is buried
Here in your warm embrace

love wears a blue dress tonight
she moves wispily, glides even.
skin like clouds, hair that
touches her smile on each side.
hazed green rays from her wise eyes
i feel her in my chest, in my head
shes in there, like my own thoughts
in control.
its lust, the inhalation of scents, flickering dance
of my soul
it travels time, in the eyes
of primitive mind
it dances around the fire
the fire in our souls knew each other
before,
before this, before any encounter ever
our systems share experience and imagination
she is gone for now

I tried to call you a month ago
to you sing you the last song I wrote,
but you weren't home.
Tomorrow you will find me
resting near the river.
You can take my body
to the boneyard,
but please do not weep.
I will be there with you
as you kneel by my headstone
and smoke until your lungs bleed.
I will be the flowers at the plot;
I will be the raindrops
clinging to your sweater.
(p.)

clean hands
broken hearts                          
***** hands
a mended heart
how is that
right things happen at the wrong time and
wrong things happen at the right time?

SometImes I wonder
if you ever knew, exactly how happy I waS,
When I was with you

SomeTimes I wonder
if you ever saw, the joy in my eyes
When you were with me

Sometimes I wonder
if you ever thInk of the nights, when we would
Watch the stars through the tree's leaves

Sometimes I wonder
if I'm stiLl your muse, or if you'd still
play those songs for me

Sometimes I wonder
what the helL happened, and why you never
said anything

Sometimes I wonder,
why you calleD a year later, and
never said what you wanted to say

Sometimes I wonder
if you still think Of me, because

as is the sea marvelous
from god’s
hands which sent her forth
to sleep upon the world

and the earth withers
the moon crumbles
one by one
stars flutter into dust

but the sea
does not change
and she goes forth out of hands and
she returns into hands

and is with sleep….

love,
    the breaking

of your
        soul
        upon
my lips