Another sleepless night is over
To her kitchen, she rolled herself
Took her meds from the lower shelf
and smiled
Her family is coming to visit her

She made them a delicious strawberry ****
That her diabetes cannot handle
Loving them strengthens her weak heart
For joy
and for their comfort, she'd gamble

The drawer where she hid for them the candy
is now a box for her meds to lean
She searched her memories for a fun story
Old adventures
to avoid boring them with her present routine

No one can swim against the stream
We're all just victims of time and disease
Golden leaves of autumn as precious as they seem
Fall down
And remind us again of our final release

~Epic Monkey

My promising adventures
Paralysed by realistic forces
My priorities confused
By kind magnetic sources

Heartcrushers, with their soothing embrace
Dreamcrushers, with their hidden chains

Should lovers weep
In the search of success?
Brothers to strangers
For seeking wealth?

Heartcrushers, with their tender hearts
Dreamcrushers, with their morbid acts

I’m rooted in the need
Of that priceless warmth
Believing though
In the untold future’s charm

Soulcrushers, with their endless prayers
Dreamcrushers, with their soft betrayal

Like a hardworking ant,
Squashed at the end of summer
Like a cherry tree,
Slammed by the last storm of winter

Soulcrushers, is your love enough?
Dreamcrushers, is your love as tough?

~Epic Monkey
February 2014

I searched for "truth"
I found weakness
Forever doubted theories compromise
To hide their failure through fragile lies

I searched for "justice"
I found corruption
The fairest laws defy morality
And relativity fights equality

I searched for "happiness"
I found the source
Jesus, my almighty savior
I found You in the poor
Help me love my neighbor
The way You love me
To keep this happiness
Flowing inside me

You stand by me
Suture me with Your affection
Understand me
Lead the path to my redemption
Helped me draw
The masterpiece in me
And withdraw
The shackles off me

Somehow, lost within Your stream
I ended up finding "truth"
Personal and general
Strangely irrefutable
The weak you redeemed
Lowered the powerful
Your perfect divine "justice"
Defies my human logic, empirical
yet so vulnerable

~Epic Monkey

(To my sisters and brother)

I will always miss …


Our sunset ending quarrels

Our never-ending teases

Christmas’ shared carols

Warm hugs

Through sweet gazes

The sarcastic smiling faces

The growing-up races

Revenge taking chases

Greed over goodies to be hidden

In unpredictable places


And I will always miss …


Competitions and crazy bets

Singing hilarious duets

Of made-up songs in the shower

This innocence

Of our childish humor

Screamed from a room to another

That art of tricking eachother

To cleverly stay in control

Or wrestling over the remote control



And I will always miss …

Decades of shared history

Amplified joy and divided misery

Bursts of laughter on old tapes

Creatively imagined games

Of whirlpools in drapes

And goalkeeper leaps

Random costume parties

Daily role-play stories

Sega sagas from dusk to dawn

Alliances and conspiracies


Sisters, my lovely sisters

Wise, you have become

Loving wives, caring mothers

Soon, you will become

Make sure your kids relive

What we used to live

Their uncle will make you proud

Just like you fill him with pride


Brother, dear brother

I secretly looked up to you

As I grew older

I kept resembling you

It doesn’t matter

If you’re a little far

Brotherhood’s a matter

Of unbreakable bond


And I will always admire, respect, love and cherish …
Every single one of you

A trivial thought like stabbing daggers
Sets the path to our devastation
A maze of chaos from simple matters
Failing paths of imagination

Not every quote you read is a masterpiece of wisdom
Not every act that’s weird is an evil conspiracy
Demons inside her head, their kingdom
Celebrate every victorious fallacy

Persuading herself by hollow theories
Fooling herself by un-ignored “if”s
Recollecting only the worst memories
Deciding the truth, deadly and stiff

Stop creating this useless drama!
Can’t you see it’s tearing us apart?
‘Cause every self-destructive trauma
Crushes again my exhausted heart

Fire is put out by heavy pouring rain
Arms protect from thoughts too scary
Why can’t I relieve your pain?
Why can’t I be your sanctuary?


My shoulder offers affection
To be gained
And has no intention
To feint
Come rest your eyes
And faint
You will find paradise
Unstained

Come near my dear
Let me lift your worries for you
Stay with me here
Let all anxiety leave you
You will see clear
No demons to haunt you
Dissolve your fear
In my arms around you

~Epic Monkey
May 2013

Amaze me
Free me from my own reason
My complication
Mesmerize me
Ban me to your mystical prison
Your temptation

Amaze me
If you think I’m a keeper
Mesmerize me
I’m a high sensation seeker
  
Amaze me
When waves are too high to ignore
Mesmerize me
When they crash at the shore

Amaze me
Turn my life into a fairy tale
Mesmerize me
With every innocent detail

Amaze me
Through joyful moments that forever stay
Mesmerize me
Through the disabling boredom of everyday

Amaze me
As long as I worship you today
One day, another might block your way
So mesmerize me
To a point you abuse my head
Be the med, and drug me instead

We are poetry and symphony
Creating the ultimate synergy
Take the challenge
Keep the balance
And vacuum tears of joy out of me

Forever amaze me
Until I feel nothing but you
Forever mesmerize me
And I shall mesmerize you too

~Epic Monkey